♥ Wednesday, June 18, 2008
YOYOYOYO! I'm back! HAHA~ MISS ME?
So many things happened recently, one after another. & I'm getting tired of all that, getting sick! --> WHICH IS TRUE!
I just recovered from the stomach flu virus that attacked me for a total of 1WEEK! Its terrible, I must say. I can wake up early @ 4AM to VOMIT; and the vomiting is continuous for a couple of times before I could stop. After which, in most cases, I wouldn't be able to sleep! Just that terrible that I couldn't even work! Nor can I do any other things! TERRIBLE! bud thank GOODNESS, I've RECOVERED!
However, something happened as I recovers, I've been attacked by a very contradicting 'case'. I really doesn't know what to do now. Getting a minimum diploma is what I wanted to do since don't know when. AND yet, NOW, I've got to choose between PURSUING my DIPLOMA, MY CAREER and RUINING MY WHOLE DAMN PERSONAL LIFE... This problem really made the whole case contradicting!
HOW??
HOW???
HOW????
There are PROS and CONS, definitely, like what Huda told me as we chatted! The CONS are things I doesn't want to happen and yet the PROS brings CONS to me! I really feel that I should just make a decision but I just couldn't. My heart definitely want to follow the decision of leaving school. BUD I know my mind doesn't want it to be that way! I have to give myself tbe chance to complete this studies, at least! BUD, that's not I really wanted to do whole-heartedly!
Besides, I've been having problems in school. I can't keep up to the learning style, I can't communicate well with most of my classmates, and most importantly, I've no confidence in doing well for most of my modules!
This problem has been bugging me for almost 2 days... I really wanna give up thinking about it because it just brings too much pains! I've been not sleeping well that my neck and shoulders aches tremendously! I couldn't think well and my head aches like HELL, and I couldn't even read the storybook!
So bothered!
So bothered!!
So bothered!!!
I need to take a deep breath! I need to breathe well again! Looking forward to better days!
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