Backed home from a tiring but unstressful day!

Yesterday went for the first tuition for a girl, my friend's cousin. She was a really hardworking and obedient girl, I must say! Not talking about her already-GREAT results (especially for maths - which was a creditable 98/100!), she was really UNproud and Hardworking!

Why would I say that?
That's becos:

I gave her 3 different handwork to do (1 whole set of ENG CA1, 1 whole set of MATHS CA1, a story-book to read and search for the meaning from it.) AND I told her that she can have the whole week to do her MATHS CA1 and STORY-BOOK but I want her ENG CA1 by the next day, which is TODAE!

I went to her house this morning for the 2nd lesson and was so surprised that SHE HAS FINISHED ALL THE HOMEWORK (including the 2 that are due next week)!!!!!!

Really efforts placed at her side! I hope to groom her to a top student and I'm not saying it for FUN bud I'll really do that!!!

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After tuition today, I went to Bee's house to help them with the internet connection and so on... Chatted with Bee and I was awake again! I should focus 100% on studies now and not follow steps some of my friends had done! I should cherish this last chance God gave me to study and I'm gonna finish my whole course of studies before I think about something like that! I should do that, YES! YES!.

Sorry Dar, I know you might feel sad or disappointed upon hearing this but I knew you would understand this. My main ultimate in life is to have a family, my own one, BUD I wanna have a beautiful house, some extra cash, a car, and MOST IMPORTANTLY, my passion and an enjoyable lifestyle too! I don't wanna destroy this beautiful dream that I am having now with any impulse action! I wanna study and graduate with Degree/ACCA, no matter how long it will take me and no matter how tough it will be. I knew you would understand but just that I'm abit shaken before talking to Bee just now. Now that I've waken up totally, I knew I have to be sensible and sensitive to reality! -->MUACKS!

& Ya, YTD I let him find out one of the surprises I am giving him next week on his BDAE -->WHICH I am disappointed!

NOPROBLEM! AS LONG AS U'RE HAPPIE CAN LE!!

OH YA! Just now went to Causeway and guess what? I bought a pair of heels from Charles and Keith (not the one I longed for actually because I still couldn't find); and then I bought a 'Jacket' dunnoe what's the exact name but its just like a top cover that is above the waist (to cover the shoulder and top of the arms) TOTAL is $42plus =)

OKOK! I'm like so tired now and I'm gonna go MAKAN my DINNER--- YUM YUM!!

TML going SAKAE wif VON & then I wanna buy Dar Dar some clothes and shorts @ PS!!


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Hugggs,
Selene

Recently bought Autumn In My Heart DVD which I've longed for since long ago. AND, I was still in the midst of finishing it for the "don't know how many times".

I love the show since the very first time I've watched it on the TV. I remembered my mum and I watching it and WE were CRYING in the living room. The show never fails to make me cry, no matter how many times I've watched it and even if I know what will the actor say the next sentence, I'll still cry! Its really a very bitter-sweet story, I must admit.

EnXi was really very pathetic and pitiful in the story. However, when I watch the sweet parts at the start, starring her & JunXi (her brother) , I loved it! They were brother & sister (not 2 of the same gender), and yet, so close to one another. The kind of closeness and love in them was so unimaginable if you've never watch this show! They know one another from inside out and they never fails to know what the other was thinking & feeling. That is what made me cry after I watch the part where they were separated because of some miserable happenings!

It's really a coincidence for them (XinAi & EnXi) to falls in the same class & school. Although I admit that its the story plot that made it coincident but let's just forget that this is not a plot in the story, its just a real-life story, ok?
XinAi was of course a girl that made me so hateful towards her! She sucks*, I must say. (Though i knew I couldn't blame on her as that is due to her growing-up environment) How can she snatch EnXi's family from her all out a sudden and hate EnXi for that when it's not EnXi's fault. I couldn't imagine myself being identified as an 'IMPOSTER' in the family after 14years of good lifestyle, how can EnXi do so. Moreover, she's so close to her family members, especially her brother. Its so cruel to make her think that her FAMILY couldn't or doesn't want her anymore! & the most hateful thing is that, they leave her alone in the country while they leave for America!
Not to mention practical things (like $$ and Education opportunities), emotionally hurt is already a very big blow to a 14-year-old girl like EnXi. How can her parents leave her there?

However, this kind of people are worthy of my praise! Despite having to switch from a RICH status to a very POOR status, she did not turn bad, like XinAi. Her gentle and kind attitude/character made her adorable and attractive (to me a well). I just love her attitude and if this kind of attitude exists in real life, I would love to own it!

Their love story was a daring and loving one, as I doesn't have this kind of feeling before. I think that's why it's called "lan se shen si lian"... I think I'll only experience it if me and Dar are being forced apart and we faced the reality of death, WHICH I DOESN"T WANT A TASTE OF IT AT ALL!!!

& the most interesting part was that TaiXi, a flirty guy, actually changed for EnXi! And his selfless love was indeed great and touching! If a guy does this to me, I'll hug him right away and get together with him!! HAHA!! PROVIDED I'm SINGLE & AVAILABLE!!

The previous times I watched this show, I've never cried when it show the part of EnXi suffering in cancer. BUD this time, I cried and it was a miserable cry though! I think that was probably because till now, I've seen 2 of my loved ones contracting cancer and one, sadly, had passed away! It's really a nightmare to them as it's an 'UN-SAIDable' pain that I myself couldn't describe!

I yearn to go home right away as I wanna finish the show! & I'm left with 1 more disc which is 4Hrs or so! I miss the show! -->HAHA (And I'm thinking of watching again before school starts!)

So, here I was, slacking again!

Yesterday Dar came and picked me off from work and we went to eat LATE LATE LATE dinner @ KFC!
Upon reaching home and changing out, I couldn't stand it and went up on bed right away. Dar was watching his 11 o'Clock news (as usual) and I was so tired that I fell asleep in his arms (without me knowing) and then, when I woke up halfway through, he has switched off the TV and was preparing to sleep too. He's so caring towards me YTD and ya, I enjoyed it! & I love him!

He still woke up @ 5plus, telling me that he couldn't sleep. I wanted to accompany him to stay awake but he ask me to sleep. So, the tired me went back to my dreamland while he surfed net. The sleep was interrupted when I heard songs from my blog! I woke up and told him 'I love you' and went back to sleep! Then he still woke me up tiredlessly this morning and LYING ME that it was 9AM when its just like 8AM!! Haha~ BUD his lie made me wake up!
We went for breakfast before he sent me to work and go visit his Dad!

& on the way to work, I said something bout his Mum & he get angry with me right away! So damn fierce that I dare not speak up after that! I love Dar Dar!!

So, that's all I think and ya! I've not done alot of things yet!! SHITTTTTT!!!

BTW, tml is Good Friday, meaning off day! Got to go Woodlands to teach the girl either in the morning or afternoon! Need to call her mum later -.-"

HAHAAHAHA~~ & my new gadgets nice??

My typing speed was damn slow!! I'm so disappointed: 1st try 46, 2nd try 46, 3rd try 49, 4th try 42, 5th try 46!! Average= 45.8!! (Round off 46!!)

HAHAHAHAA~~

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Huggs,
Selene

I'm slacking AGAIN!!

Went Dinner while waiting for MARIA to knock off @ Lucky Plaza's MCDS... MARIA is afriad of COCKROACHES!! haha!! then she accompanied me to NGEE ANN CITY in search of NB shoes that I longed for. Found none and then we went back after accompanying her to Jollibean @ CK Tang. On the way, @ the underground passageway, PAUL called and I mocked at them for being so loving... HAHA... MADE a FUSS out of it (As what my character is) -->HAHA
We were SQUEEZED in the TRAIN!! HAHA and Its so miserable!!
Thanks maria!!

I had a tiff with Dar in the early morning @ 3.30am over the phone!
I SMSed him @ 12am++ to let him know that I'm watching DVD and to hint him that I'm waiting for his calls & replies (as usual). But, things doesn't turn out the right way. I stopped the show @ 3.30am and was thinking: "So tired, he's still working... Wonder if he's still alright?" So, I called him to realise that the background was so silent.

"I'm @ home," he said.

& I teared... ...

Why does it always have to be ME that takes the initiative to call him. & I'm angry @ that moment because I wanted to wait for him to reply me or say GOODNITE and yet the next day, I've got to wake up @ 7am!! & YET he still .... .... DOTX!!
Why don't you have the feeling to call me everytime? Don't you think of me? Just for a split second? On your way home on the cab or watever also cannot??
I was devastated and, as usual, we were so silent on the phone that we couldn't stand it anymore. I only know that my tears were flowing like as if its RIVERWATER..
Of course, the volcano finally exploded and this long-term accumulation finally exploded!! I told him what I feels -.-"

I felt so relieved!! I'm not blaming him, just was very angry because he doesn't put in efforts to care for me. I felt so much like drowning but yet I know he's tired, he's tired... BUD I doesn't want him to think that I don't mind him treating me that way.
SERIOUSLY,
I missed him!! Even for the split second he's not there, I miss him!!
& soon, we calmed down and I went to sleep after bathing and everything... .. So TIRED!!

So, expectedly, I woke up @ 8.26am when I was supposed to be @ Ngee Ann Poly @ 8.30am... So, bo bianz, TAKE CAB cos I got to work @ 9.30am in SOMERSET... ... =( $20 gone!!
Reached there and installed the softwares... & I found out that they provide FREE NORTON software which i just bought with a sharing of $60 each with my BROTHER... SIANX!!!
They installed Microsoft 2007 into my lappy and a don't know what AGENT thingy... Then, went back!!

Met a kind man on the way down, finding the way out (I think should be one of the lecturers)... Reached the lobby and hengsss siaxxxx GOT people drop down from CAB!! HAHA!! So took and $20 gone again... Reached office like 10.37am and realised: "The new girl's still not here!!"

So I went to my normal routine and here I am, slacking again!!

Dar was supposed to go K @ JB with his CREWS but I disallowed him to go... ITS RAINING and I'm just worried bout the thing in there... I'm just worried, though I know I'm very selfish... LUCKILY Dar says that he also very tired so never go. BUD I got a feeling he's hating me (Is he), he sound so fierce and watever that made me so scared!

Haix... Sometimes I really wonder:

"Why am I born so sensitive and emotional? Why does I get jealous or get upset easily for a small little thing? YET, why am I so 'keep-everything-to-myself' kind of character? If I have told him the first time I had that feeling, things like this wouldn't have happened! Why am I born to suffer yet with this kind of slacking and sucky attitude? If I was to be born to suffer, WHY can't I have a positive attitude instead of this kind of slacking attitude I had now."

Haix, my second or third -Haix-.... ...

I really miss Dar so much. Just around one week from your birthday; I doesn't want to make you sad. BUD I just couldn't control my temper. I so tired that I really need a break! BUT I need $$ too!! I miss school!! School is always something that make me occupied and busy that I have to time to worry and think so much!

Why can't I just cherish school last time??



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Hugs,
Selene

So long since I've last updated! (As emphasised by Von~)

Just went out for a long-lost weekend's break after so long of WORKINGS. Almost spend $150 for the whole weekend (SAT & SUN only). I felt so regreted now that my efforts had been wasted!

I managed to realise & decide on my next path to move on with the sacrifice of spending & spending! I was supposed to meet Deniece & Von @ JE Entertainment on Sat, 1.30pm BUD (as usual) I'm late; not becos I overslept BUD I was too obsessed with Autumn in my Heart that I finally managed to buy it!!

I only roller-bladed ONCE during the 'lesson' WeiKah gave us @ ECP 2 Yrs back ;)... So, practically, I went into the ice-skating field with fearSS (I mean really FEARS as ITS DAMN SLIPPERY & I CAN"T control my MOVEMENTS!!)

I changed my skater as the blade was giving problem. (& the next pair pose the same problem to me, which we thought is ME THAT made the BLADE SPOIL) ... LOL!~~

--So, I decided that I should not join ICE SKATING in NP CCA Club!!--

@ first was very very slow 'SKATING' (equals to walking on the ice actually) BUD at the later part was better as I could skate independently but I wanna be like those skillful skaters!! SO BEAUTIFUL~ the image of them skating fast and gracefully!!

Then, BUGIS was our next stop and Yar~ WE TOOK TRAIN!! --(DUH!) went makan @ PASTAMANIA as the 3 of us like 'BUAY TAHAN liaox'!! and after MAKAN was KINOKUNIYA as Deniece wanna buy her 'TANG Yu ZHE' & Von & I was browsing thru' the language guides section & I thought of finding French guides to read and see if I like it before I sign up for the foreign language course!!

&

I hate FRENCH & SPAIN & all the EUROPEAN LANGUAGES!! --> THEY all are too tough and weird if I intend to learn them...

SO

I switch to KOREAN and was comparing JAPANESE too!! KOREAN looks tough and unsuitable for me, so I tried pronouncing some of the JAPANESE basic PHRASES.. WHICH made me sound nice!! HAHA!! & somemore, VOn gonna take up JAPANESE too, so we can study together!! GREAT!!

HAHA! FOUND another decision to make =)

THEN HOME SWEET HOME as DENIECE can't stay out late for K...

WE DECIDED to sing K on Sunday instead!!

---SUNDAYEEEEE--

Went to the Bugis K (TopOne) and the service was fabulous... the whole thingy is 7-th storey-high and.... THERE:S LIFT!!!

The room was far beyond what we expect!! BIG enough, and there is even disco lights & projectors so on... NICE PLACE!! FREE FLOW of DRINKS!! with CHEAP RATES of $20 for 8hrs on weekends!! COOL!! I'll throw away KBox & Partyworld liaox!!

Went makan @ KFC after choosing the surprise for DAr Dar... HAHA!! NOT GONNA LIST out here!! ITS Ex... but within my budget!! SO... went to Toa Payoh after that (after saying goodbye to the girls!!)

SAW a heels that I like but was $30.50 after discount... So OUT of my BUDGET!! So, went to NTUC and sign up for OCBC Visa Debit Card!! (As I wanna have another card to separate expenses & school related fees) its fast; I just have to give them my IC to photocopy, then fill up my name appearing on card and my mobile number and the card will be sent to me 2weeks later!! ---BAGUS!!!
Then, went popular to browse and see what are possible things I need for school and then set a budget! BOUGHT som miscellenous stuffs and went to search for ear stucks (which I just need it to make me hole stay) and then went to buy the shirt I longed to own (JUST $10 and simple design) OOH yah! Bought a handbag that looked fashion (maybe?) @ $10... HEES... then WENT HOME and watch my AUTUMN in my HEART!!

the new girl never come today!! So, I'm FREE!!!

GTG makan my lunch downstairs!! and then come back to settle things le!! BYEBYE!!



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Hugs,
Selene

At 11pm, I told myself - "Yun, you can only log on to the internet to blog, that's all" & so I went into the net.

At 12.40am sharp, as I am typing this, I realise, OH SHIT!! I got to sleep now; if not I'll sure not be able to wake up... ...

Recently I'm so tired, yet I did nothing!!

On Friday was AXA's D&D and Albert gave me an honourable invitation to go for the dinner and I went. I wore the dress I bought for my cousin's wedding with the super duper high heels & a new brown shawl!! Saw one of the other PA in Meritus Lobby upon reaching & we went up; realising that nobody else has arrived yet!! I was very very early!! So we went for the cocktail and chatted with that girl. THEN, an advisor from another agency came over to talk to us, telling us how 'great' the cocktail was and so on!! THEN, she even re-do my shawl by tying knot & watever (which I felt grateful but DUH!) She was kind-hearted though, but I find her a little too weird! She even offered to teach me CHACHA dance!! In the middle of the ball-room!! HAHA!! Of course I declined (thnk God for that siax)
SO, dinner was rather great except for the long, everlasting prize presentation that took up so long. I was asked to sit with Adrian's team which is a table away from where I was sitting initially. & the partners at the table made me feel uneasy, of course, especially a guy was sitting beside me when I doesn't really know him much and we have no common topics at all. As usual, we chatted about usual stuffs like "How's studies" "How's ur goal towards life" & all those 'political' issues... HAHA!! BUD at least he has the basis of a gentleman, like taking food for me; and taking e initiative to talk and so on... ... He even showed me the photo of his gf and ask me 'cute or not' WAH PIANGS, that guy must have loved his gf alot!! MOREover, they have been together for 7Years!! --> I hope so much that Dar can say that to others next time and so can I ;)
& during the dinner, I am furthur confirmed that I'm addicted to CHINESE TEA!! Becos Beer and Pepsi can't tempt me out of the Chinese Tea!! Which I felt happy but WEIRD!!! HAHA
After dinner, I was so glad that Bel & Albert offered to send me home from meritus mandarin which meant that I saved on cab fare because it was 12plus, nearing 1 by then... & they were kind enough to even check if I've reached home already or not!! So glad to have them around ;)

& I slept at 4plus am that night!! and I woke up reluctantly at 12.30pm e next day becos i got to meet Von & Deniece & gang at 1pm sharp!!

We went to sentosa and WOW!! Fun bud ya lo, at first was rather sianx but after that was fun and cool... I love LUGE!! it was fun and I agree with Von, it could have been a longer ride... BUD bo bians... Haix/!! Then in the evening when we left sentosa, we went to vivo to have our dinner... After many many times of deciding, we chose to take-away BK and go to the outside place to eat (dont wat its called) & guess what?? I saw Shelly (e ger from MS Direct!!) and I tink she's bickering wif a guy which I think is her BF bahs... She of course remembered me!! and ya lo, coincidence as I saw Ming Zheng @ sentosa too ;)
den we went to Arcade & when I'm goin home, I went to Candy Empire to buy Chocolates for Dar; the new Calbury Eden Choco & Belgium love choco!!

SLACKED on Sundae & Mondae... Went back to work on Tuesday and was so rushy as there's hell lots of stuffs to do!! I'm dying!! & I still got to rush out tml's one!! SIANX!!

Kays Kays, got to sleep if not I've got to take CABBY again!! SLEEP!!

P/S: My HP bills came & it was $82.xx which was a very great success for me... Got to keep it up and maintain!! Keep track of my spendage!!

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Nitex,
Selene

Hello! --> I'm so tired!!

Ya, very long since I last blogged. Had been very lazy at the sight of computer! Also that my mind has been preoccupied by the planning of the surprise I'm gonna give Dar on his coming birthday this Month-end. I dreaded the thought of it as it is quite complicated; BUT no choice, he's my Dar. I knew he will read the blog sooner or later; so, I will never post up what's going to happen. BUT the only thing is that the estimated cost is more than 2-times of my budget!!
(Damn, my hair gone... Cannot rebond le lar!!)
BUT bo bians... He's my Dar, I just wanna give him the best birthday this year:X
(Dar, don't always say I bully you hor! My brain juice's gone thinking of all these. My pocket's dried because of you le! So cannot say I bully you le hor! I promise you this will be a sweet birthday for the both of us, though it's just simple -> Back to basic mah ;) )

Ya lo, very tired of everything BUT oh Yar. Very great gratitude to Deniece & Yvonne for the great treat on Sat. Couldn't find a time to really blog on this yet ;)

They treated me to Jack's Place (Ya, I know I say before) BUT whoa! Damn expensive lar! It cost $114.xx for the three of us and they have to pay my share which ended up paying more than $50 each!! THanks girls and I'll always remember the treat!! The food is nice though; STEAK siax!! First time I eat steak in a restaurant... Normally only @ Western food stalls then I will order STEAK de! HAHA! THanks girls!! Really grateful for that!!

You girls are better than my 2 god-sis.. ;( Doesn't even say "Happy Birthday" to me;(
Never mind bah, over le and ya lo!! They shouldn't expect me to treat them as nice le --> Cos they share my that I'm not remembered/important or I'm not worthty of their wishes! They are prob just to selfish to open their mouth to say "Happy Birthday"
The thing is; TIME doesn't matters, ITs the PERSON that countS... Thanks Deniece & Yvonne again!!

Also must thanks YuLin (Maria) for saying that she will buy something special for me from Japan; OopS issit? I couldn't remember! BUT the thing is, she's a great friend!! At least she still got SMS late at night on the 26th or 12midnight on 27th to say "Happy Birthday" ... I'm very touched by that though at that moment I'm having my lovely night with my Dar, but THANKS Maria... Hope you doesn't mind all my "suans" throughout... It's only for the sake of fun!! & not forgetting my 10pointers BUDD, YinQing!! HAHA!! She also got SMS me oh ;) Thanks Thanks!!

Last but never the least!! AMANDA.. Thank you for the mushroom cushion! I've been hugging it since that day I've gotten it!! Thanks girl for the wonderful present!! & Thanks for chilling out with me on Sat night!! That was really drunk when we both were DRUNK--> I tink I'm more drunk then you before supper!! HAHA... Remember you taking snapshots and videos of me throughout as we waited for the taxi!! HAHA... Then remembers me like "SIaox" on the street... HAHA~ WAS fun esp when we kept on losing in the finger guessing, in the end we DRANK the most!! HAHA!! VERY VERY FUN!!
-->Looking forward to going clubbing with you when your birthday arrives!!

OK. Today can't blog much... Got to go back to serious work as I've lots of undone things to do!!

Oh Yar, Thanks to Serene, my cousin my M'sia & her family!! Thanks for the birthday card!! It's so thoughtful of you sending a BIRTHDAY card from Perlis to me!! I Love You!! --> Hee... Hope to see you this Sunday but prob I couldn't make it ;) Will let you know again :D

& I got another nephew again on the 2nd March SUnday 8.30pm (I think) ... EnRU's brother is born!! Haven't yet seen the photo but my mum & I was thinking of goin into JB to see them. Maybe I'll wait for my aunt come back from Bangkok? Then the three of us maybe my cousin can go in with us to JB!! :x

Hee... GTG!! TC ppl... & Von, today mayb can't comment your blog bah!! Tons of things to do!!

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Hugs,
Selene

♥ SELENE TEO ♥