I find the world ridiculous in its own way!

I can't say that I am inactive or lazy, nor can I say that they are simply too selfish! The world just collapsed on me since I knew that I wasn't told that Tutorial class was on, Discussion was already done by the 2 of them, without including my name nor my participant. They just can't be bothered to include me! Sometimes I find and I reflect on myself, am I that isolated from them? I'm already trying to engage as much as you all does, but life doesn't work this way for me. I dare not say, work has brought me down into my DOWN-LIFE again like what I've experienced 2 or 3 years before. But, it seems like a fact to me now!

I was so demoralized now that I know that discussion with them doesn't includes me at all. I have a strong sensing that they think I just can't be bothered. But I don't! Who the hell would spend her own money (after working and working) just to make herself miserable by wasting the money? Definitely its not me ok? I felt like I'm crashed on the ground just like that for nothing. I felt sick, having no friends in the right mind to at least remind me of the work, or even blame me for not participating. Den, I'll realise that I didn't work hard enough, BUD, it doesn't work this way, they just ignored my absence and do it themselves! I feel sick, having to go through all these for nothing! I felt like I'm lost and lost forever...

Life's tough in this selfish world out there. I really miss Secondary school's life and the KINDNESS they gave me... NOT like here! I felt so much like giving up! Maybe this competitive world isn't suitable for me! Should I seek the better way out? I really ponders and ponders... Maybe I should work @ Mac and I can even see a better prospect over there! I miss everything that I owned previously but has never cherished it!

I hate life now!
Selene

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