Been thinking alot recently, went through lots of problems
recently.

I realise, I need to grow up!

I went through alot recently and this is caused by this problem that I fear most. I finally made a decision! I'm going to quit school, and be tied to him forever. BUT, that doesn't stop me from studying!

I've decided to find a job as an Accounts Clerk or Accounts/Admin Assistant. Meanwhile, I'll be going to BMG Academy for my Diploma in Accounting of 3 Subjects; Cost ACC, Management ACC, and Higher ACC. With that, I would be able to move up the next level upon graduation. Of course, I knew that with a family, I would not be able to start school that soon but my wish is to be able to start enrolled within the next 10Months, at least after financial has been stablelised.

I knew that would be a waste of me to quit school but since the problem is here, I might as well not run away from it and face it bravely. Dar and I have already decided upon a plan, and my parents have agreed to it already, although they find it a waste too. We have decided to move into a bigger flat that could compromise his parents, brother and us. At the same time, go for ROM first. After around 10Months, which should be around next years' February or March, we would hold a little celebration of our marriage. I suppose that would be the best for now, rather than rushing everything now.

All I hope now is the receive blessings from all my friends and relatives about this matter, of course, his friends and relatives too. I hope that all these blessings would then turn out to be a blissful life ahead of us. I really wish that all things would turn out nicely, as planned, and no obstables would surface.

With that, I'll go back to my sleep already! Been sleeping for a few days and I still feel terribly sick now. BYE EVERYBODY! BLESS ME!

Hugs, Selene

YOYOYOYO! I'm back! HAHA~ MISS ME?

So many things happened recently, one after another. & I'm getting tired of all that, getting sick! --> WHICH IS TRUE!

I just recovered from the stomach flu virus that attacked me for a total of 1WEEK! Its terrible, I must say. I can wake up early @ 4AM to VOMIT; and the vomiting is continuous for a couple of times before I could stop. After which, in most cases, I wouldn't be able to sleep! Just that terrible that I couldn't even work! Nor can I do any other things! TERRIBLE! bud thank GOODNESS, I've RECOVERED!

However, something happened as I recovers, I've been attacked by a very contradicting 'case'. I really doesn't know what to do now. Getting a minimum diploma is what I wanted to do since don't know when. AND yet, NOW, I've got to choose between PURSUING my DIPLOMA, MY CAREER and RUINING MY WHOLE DAMN PERSONAL LIFE... This problem really made the whole case contradicting!

HOW??
HOW???
HOW????

There are PROS and CONS, definitely, like what Huda told me as we chatted! The CONS are things I doesn't want to happen and yet the PROS brings CONS to me! I really feel that I should just make a decision but I just couldn't. My heart definitely want to follow the decision of leaving school. BUD I know my mind doesn't want it to be that way! I have to give myself tbe chance to complete this studies, at least! BUD, that's not I really wanted to do whole-heartedly!

Besides, I've been having problems in school. I can't keep up to the learning style, I can't communicate well with most of my classmates, and most importantly, I've no confidence in doing well for most of my modules!

This problem has been bugging me for almost 2 days... I really wanna give up thinking about it because it just brings too much pains! I've been not sleeping well that my neck and shoulders aches tremendously! I couldn't think well and my head aches like HELL, and I couldn't even read the storybook!

So bothered!
So bothered!!
So bothered!!!

I need to take a deep breath! I need to breathe well again! Looking forward to better days!

♥ SELENE TEO ♥