Hey People, I'm back!!

Practically, this trip to 'somewhere' is nothing but just SWEET and LOVING!!
--> SOle crediTs: Dar Dar...

Our theme Back to Basics set off for the start of the trip, by giving me a 'surprise'... I discovered the surprise way before he made the action (just because I'm too clever ;))... Haha!! --> later den the 'surprise' will be told...

So, on my BDae eve, we decided on a short & simple dinner before heading to my house and sleep as I'll only finishes work @ 6pm & he has to do some paperworks @ e hospital for his Dad... & then, something cropped up!! His mum made him have dinner with her & den send her back home as he forgot his camera & chargers too... So I waited for him for 2Hrs plus until 9pm++ =(
I was not angry because he told me beforehand tt something might crop up... Just quite disappointed and then gastric pain somemore... =( then when he came, I was in great pain & no appetite, so short & simple dinner was cancelled...

OK, but later on, he doted on me & e next dae, I went to work for half a day... I was supposed to submit summary by that day, so I rushed... DEN my boss & collegues bought a cake & celebrated with me =) So happy!! --> A cake & card from the organisation (Albert/Bel/Adrian/Joanna/Bernicia/Shirley/Dennis), A special card from Joanna!!, An elegant gift set from Albert & Bel (Parkers brand pen & keychain)... So touched by each & everyone... So touched!! ... Thanks all...






More to come... ...

I was supposed to go off @ 1pm as I am meeting Dar @ 1pm as he went to visit his dad & feed him lunch first... BUT it all get cropped up, its my fault this time... I got way too many things to settle that I only left at 1.45pm & Dar waited for me since 1pm... Sorry Dar & Thanks Dar!! Cause he wasn't angry!!

So, we didn't get our lunch & den we there directly... WHERE?? As my mum has guessed; HOTEL lar... CHEAP but nice one...
(Don't get it wrong, we just need some personal time without anybody bothering us... Just a world of our own...)
That was Hotel81 Bugis and that was the 'surprise' I mentioned... ;)
Previously we wanted to have the room witth courtyard where it's a personal balcony with suntanning facilities & wetting facilities (star gazing too)... BUT the room runs out and sadly, we have no choice but to take the normal room =(
BUD when we get there, the person told us there is one extra room left!! So happie!! So, happily, we took it up and den, we were even offered member rates!!
After checking in, we looked at the small space that belongs to us and smiled!! That was great, though small!!












Then we indulge in our program by hugging each other & sharing our happiness with one another den Dar told me "Really no more surprise le lei, only got this room lei" & that idiot kept on repeating & repeating (since 26th evening @ my hse he has been saying it)... So finally, I got fed up and I threw my temper!!! I ignored him by lying flat down on the bed facing down while he continued to anger me by saying a few more times!!! DAMN it lor... I was damn angry lar... I my tears nearly rolled down... Then he says "Really don't have lar" & he went to boil water, den took out NEWSPAPERS to read!!! Wao, I'm so angry and then when he finally realised, I was so disappointed and angry liaox... He den kept on irritating me "Turn back lar Turn back lar..." Fed up and I turn and stared @ him... Den he push me to the other side of the bed and my head was hit by something hard lar... I looked up and den @ that moment I got nothing to say liaox!!!

Mixture of ANGER+SADNESS+DISAPPOINTMENT+SHOCKNESS+SURPRISE+HAPPINESS+SWEETNESS...
Haha!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dar Dar bought me Tianpo Jewellery's Necklace!!! & The Power of Love CD... Muacks Dar...

To my sweetheart (as what I promise him),
"I really cherish all that that you've done for me!! Thank You Dar for all the love and tenderness U've given me!! I'll never forget that moment when U trick me to give me the surprise.. It's indeed a very good and wise surprise u've thought of & twisted in!! You'll always be in my heart and guess what? I am yours liaox, HOW?? Can $1 le issit?? HAHA? Dar, what I wanna tell u is that, you gave me the sweetest birthday nobody else has ever given to me although its just in Singapore & its just a night, but THat night was special!! I love uu"












Then after which, we bathe and then headed down for Lunch cum Dinner!! We went to Tian Tian Steamboat and YUm YUm!! So nice!! and then we were damn full after that!!









Den we went to stroll down the streets and den saw a new Karaoke place .. 8Hrs for $15 on weekdays with FREE FLOW OF DRINKS... haha... Then we went to Cheers to buy wine!! I bought Vodka 4 Flavours!! So happy then we went around and saw very cute CONDOM packaging!! (Not for us but for his friends' birthday present!!)



When we got back, we drank the vodka in the courtyard with the Yes933 from the television in the room!! So romantic as we sat gazing up in the sky... Then we play scissors paper stone and I always lose... So I drank alot, but I'm not drunk again!! Hee... After that, we were so tired that we went to sleep...









Such a deep sleep that we woke up automatically at 10am sharp the next day, had a quick breakfast with Oreo & Milo (me), Kopi (Dar)... Then go wash up pack up... Let Dar drink his medicine den we check out le... So tired... Actually we went to eat QQ Noodles, HDB Hub to ask something, McDonalds to use laptop,Francis house to learn bout PSP,BPP to look for Miho,Dinner+Supper @ my hse there den home sweet home... Bud now, I'm too lazy to elaborate ;)



Gotta go!! Haha...

TML going K with Deniece nu-er, Von lao-gong, Ligeng & LeeYee...
den going to makan Jack's Place with them
Going St James Power to celebrate Miho's BDae
Going Eski Bar to celebrate my results & Poon's results
Going Lau Pa Sat to Makan supper den home sweet home!!
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Packed ya? Den Sunday going K again to celebrate Alvin & Shawn's BDae... (Whoa!! Money!!)
Thinking of visiting Dar's dad before going to K on Sunday but not confirm yet ;)
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KEKE--

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Hugs,
Selene

Another half-day gone... ... Okay, there's some 'achievements', HAHA!

I'm so greatful for Deniece (Nu-er) & Von (LaoGong) for dating me out!! Finally leh ;) Haha... I think nobody else will date me out to celebrate my birthday liaox, it's time to reveal the thing now!!

This year, I doesn't want to organise anything because I'm tired of that (Fancy a birthday girl organising parties to celebrate birthday--> 'Majang' like I am forcing people to say Happy Birthday to me like that!) So, this year, I kept a low-profile by reminding not a single one about my coming birthday... BECOS i wanted to know where I am standing in my circle of friends... So, Ya lo... Haix... Till 6pm YTD 25Feb'08, nobody has dated me (SOBS SOBS) So, rather sad; 18Yrs in live & no true friends that will remember my birthday and yet I'm always celebrating their birthday wif them (I mean those really close ones --> like my god-sissss & all) So, ya lo, So sad... :(

BUT, after 6pm YTD, I was damn happy; Deniece (my nu-er) & Von (my LaoGong) dated me out on Sat to celebrate my birthday!! So damn touched, though its belated bud tt's becos they remembered me telling them my 18th & 21st birthday would be dedicated to my family & loved ones... ... AND the thing is, they are gonna treat me to Jack's Place!!! ---> (Damn, told them very expensive le) ---> I know they will read this so, "Hey girls, I really am touched to have the two of you as my friends and I'm indeed very greatful for you remembering my birthday! ->MUACKS (u all get only oh~~)"

& then, though she might not know its my birthday, but I'm glad to have Amanda Poon in my circle of friends too!! She still remembers me & never treats me as strangers... =) Thanks Poon~ & that's why, after the date with my nu-er & von on sat, I'm going pubbing @ eski bar --> HAHA!! I'm looking forward... ...

& never forgotten, My dear, we're going for a short trip tml & thurs (to somewhere but u guys will never knows; let your imagination run wild ;))... I love him & I am really looking forward to the surprise he might give me (maybe he wont =()... hEEXX.... but nevermind bah, got him can liaox!!

Ya lo, that's all for my birthday celebration this year; its gonna be short bud definitely memorable esp when I know there are ppl who remembers my Bdae!! For those who doesn't remembers, if you really has forgotten or if you deliberately forget it, I mean, I doesn't want to hear any 'Happy Birthday' from you becos I will think you are FAKE! But its ok, I'll just treat that as a small little thing but don't expect me to be TRUE to you too... BECOS i don't like people who are stingy and petty enough to PURPOSELY FORGET A FREND"S BDAE... even my Nu-er & LaoGong who has been together with me for just 2 short years (actually is close to me only 1Yr) remembers my birthday and is willing to sacrifice $$ to treat me out, WHY can't a friend that I always being TRUE to & always treated them as TRUE friend be ignorant and run away?? I don't really understand why people are so selfish??

Men are born selfish

BUT those that are way too selfish are not qualified to be MEN/WOMEN!! Because they only want to take & not give

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Oh, I think I'm turning red liaox, BUT I definitely welcome those that thinks I'm wrong to rebut me... I'll really reflect back on myself and truely, I think I'm not perfect too... I doesn't give birthday wishes to some of my friends too but I'm referring to close friends!! Close friends that I looked up upon, I share my secrets with and so on... Haix... OKAY enough!!
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Ya, so now, rush summary halfway I give up liaox... Just now even took out PSP to play ;) Now blogging somemore... I think I gotta go back to finish up le... If not I will not be able to meet my deadline for TML 12noon!!! Ahh... JiaLat...

Kays, for those that feels offended, sorry... BUD its a matter of fact; try standing in my shoes & understand bah... =)

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Hugs,
Selene

Just received information from Dar saying that his dad can be discharged from NUH & be transferred to AMK Community Hospital (because of his disabilities in walking, etc). Quite a good news though he will still need to be taken care of in hospital. (which means that the blood clot might disperse!)
I'm so happy upon hearing the news.

So sad~ Really nobody takes action :( -- I think they aren't real then, waiting & waiting... HAHA!! -- (18 yRs wiF no Real ones!! -- I think no one understands except me & Dar) -->Fine, it's not supposed to be told/reminded too... I gotta continue to wait & wait liaox...
BUD at least I got my Dar to be with me, Haha ;)

Okay, so my mum can't go to Bangkok le.. Too bad, next time okay? I got $$ i bring you go HK!!

Gotta run to settle my stuffs; BY tml got to finish up the summary I'm supposed to finish & den later still got lunch 'date' with Ms Cheng - Alicia to return her $$ & get a 'treat' from her ;) Den my laptop would be ready real soon; they are delievering it back to me within 1 hours' time!! HURRAY!! Gotta miss my treasure!!

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Hugs,
Selene

Sibei Sianx, I'm in office now and I have nothing to do... ... ... I'm like being paid to slack!

Ytd sort of like had a quarrel (cold one) with mum. I asked her for the $$ I told her to withdraw out FROM MY BANK and she told me she'd spent them away! After that she kept on saying why I work and still doesn't have $$!!
Was flared up and I find myself so pathetic!! I'm paying for my transportation fee (ADULT), for my HP BILLS, for my BREAKFAST, LUNCH & DINNER, for CNY GOODIES (she doesn't pay a single cent for the food & drinks; only for e reunion dinner nia), then I paid for her DINNER CLOTHES, my DINNER CLOTHES, our CNY CLOTHES, and I need my own lifestyle too what! $1.2K enough arh?? kaox, I'm so angry!! Luckily my brother shoot her "U know how to say others, how about you?"
Den she still throw temper; give her back some $$ she don't want (like SMALL CHILD like tt), then still say my brother a bit also throw temper... ... ... SIANX, $$ $$ $$... e whole family is gonna collaspe becos of $$ & $$... ... Haix, Dar Dar's family too... ... So bothered about $$....

Haix.

Today I had a chat with Reuben over MSN (or rather say; JUST NOW) Haha; suddenly remembered alot of our Pri Sch life; playing water bomb in school & everything... Fighting wif Reuben over maths results & everything... Haaaxxx Damn funny lar....
Den remembered Mei, Jun, Wen & gang... was told that MengYee, one of my budds is in TP too... So many of my budds in TP: Mei, Jun, MengYee, Jeremiah, Reuben and so on & so forth... Aiyo, so sianx, I go NP... ...
So tired but today is Friday liaox = TML & SUN NO WORK!!!

Den next week's Wed half-day, Thurs off, Fri half-day... I'm so happy! BUD will things go on smoothly?? Haix... ...

Kays Kays, damn tired liaox... ... GOTTA get back to work (actually I can take things easy; nobody in office, all go for seminar liaox)

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Hugs,
Selene

Heyoh! Didn't have the chance to type anything yesterday @ workplace as I'm just too lazy to type. (Instead, I slacked the whole day)

So my posting results: Ngee Ann Polytechnic Accountancy N51!! (That's my initial 1st choice)

Don't know whether to be happy or not? That's my fifth choice which means: SAJC/AJC/NYJC all don't want me!! --> Amanda say they very zuai.. Haha--> "abit true" ... ... ...

Anyway, I think the God/Goddess up there must be very good to me. They are prompting me "LanYun, you go JC sure cannot make it de, don't go lar" --> Haha... ...
That was ok for me, not at all a blow, just abit unhappy because 10points cannot get into JC. But after I've submitted JAE registration, I already regretted for that already... I started to lose confidence in JC liaox... BUT that was over! I'm in poly now...

Now, the next thing is that: SHOULD I APPEAL FOR BFS in NP lei?? BaoYing got into NP's BFS and BFS has been a side-by-side decision with accountancy since long time ago... So, should I appeal??
The scenerio is: I put accountancy first then BFS in my choice but now, my passion is still accountancy but like what Amanda says: "You're more of a sociable person, should not limit yourself to table/desk work..." & also that, BFS has a much wider career than accountancy with very good prospect... ...
Of course I know that accountancy can do BFS careers too & likewise for BFS... but if you're specialised in accountancy and you go work in BFS field versus another person that specialises in BFS working in BFS field, which one will the employer employs??---> Correct or not?
That's my only area of concern, though university or ACCA is what I'm looking towards... BUT what if I couldn't get in??
Dilemma ya??

Haix, yesterday I was in a shock when Dar flared up... He had a quarrel (cold one) with his brother and I think it's his brother's fault too... ... He's just too proud, sometimes I think he resembles my brother.... .... Haix....

Really very angry with Dar when he started blaming himself instead for not earning enough money and all that... "Dar, what has it got to do with you?" ... I mean, $1.6K is not very bad though... It's just that you have to take on the role of a sole breadwinner, with a proud brother that is still studying and 2 aged parents... Plus your parents love to buy 4D & TOTO so much, your dad was always sick... WHAT CAN YOU DO? OF COURSE NOT ENOUGH $$ LAR...!!!

Haix, that proud one will never spare a thought for others... I think that is not just bad but VERY BAD!!!.... ....

Woosh~ I'm slacking again... Anyway, got to go back to work le bahx... (I hope I do so) it's 10.36am liaox...

Anyway, tml is "yuan xiao", dar coming my house for dinner... Yum Yum~ I love Dar... ...

TC every1...

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Hugs,
Selene

Wow! It's been a long time since I'm up till so late --> please take note of the time: as i'm writing now, the time is 2.20AM... ... ... Unbelievable aRh? TML still got to work --> shit!!

Okay, here's the report:

His dad is better le!! So great!! Been back to normal ward le!! BUT still, have some difficulties due to the stroke. I've got to go visit him again. When I saw him yesterday, he looked great except for his disabilities in eating and standing. KEKE--> I've been in the hospital with Dear this whole weekend. Finally got the feeling of being in a place where there's nothing to do... ... Luckily, I got Dear & my storybook!!

Talking about storybook, I felt so sianx. That day @ NUH, I was trying to insert the SD card of Dear's PSP into my newly explored integrated Memory Card Reader in my laptop. However, it got stucked all the way and now, It's still stucked!!! Damn!! & Guess what?? I called HP Customer Service today and they gave me the 'best' attitude I've ever met!
Woah, I've got to say goodbye to my laptop for a few days to send in for servicing... ... BYE MY TREASURE...

Today went to Global, hoping to settle all the consolidating stuffs with my laptop. However, it went battery-flat & I didn't brought my charger!! Haix, that's why I'm still meddling with my blog at this late hour... ... So tired... ... BUT finally done...
Alot of potential replies in Global today!!! So great!! & the funny thing is, Michael still say I made tons of $$, then decided to quit!! If all of the appointments went smoothly, then I would make 'tons of $$'...

Yar, talking about $$, Haix, my Handphone bill still intact... ... My tuition fee still not here!! & the worst thing is my bank account is decreasing every moment... ... SO SAD!!!
So short of $$ & I still own Dear $150, Mummy $150, HP bill, $200... ... Ledger balance in back a/c $220... ... balance is still a credit of $280 =( So sad... ... (First time seeing people announcing all these kinda numbers online yar? Haix, I miss POA)

Ya lor, TML posting results @ 8am leh, how?? Haix... ... So anxious to know... ...(OooPs, not TML is TODAY!!!)

TML still got another day @ Global, Ken asked me to leave only after got replacement --> JiaLat, Yvonne, u got to help me!!!... ... ... I can't go NUH again le, but its okay because tml evening Dar Dar won't be there anyway...

...Heex, he's angered by his cousin today... Called him sweetheart and he has no gratitude towards thatt =( so sad... then he went to orhz orhz when he's back home, didn't msg me GdNitex... =( sadxxx...

OKAYS, got to go orhz orhz after talking about orhz orhz... ... TML is another day...

P/s: I forgot to report, past 2 days, Dar Dar stayed @ my house & we go out together. So touched and his mum didn't scold!!! So happy and touched... ... I really love to be with him, especially in his arms and then waking up, looking @ him!!! I love u, SweetHeart!!! & Valentine's day wasn't romantic but I was satisfied ((.... Oh Yar, I bought Caserina Shirt, Bossini's POLO, US POLO's belt, & Sweet Famous Amos for him, though I got nothing in return, but its okay, he's just too busy with stuffs in e hospital.))

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Love & Hugs,
Selene
((& With Special love to Dar Dar, take care of yourself & your family... Don't forget my BIRTHDAY!!))

Yesterday I went to NUH... & I saw his dad, MY HEART MELTS; that's how bad the situation was... Now I knew why he was so worried that he has no more time for me

Yup, I think I should be ok already, after crying the whole night yesterday and having a terrible nightmare this morning at 6am... This is the first time the dream was so real and when I woke up, I knew what happened in the dream and I realised I was sobbing terribly!!

Although today was tough without him spending valentine's with me, I never angry this time round... Instead, I felt guilty when I kicked up a fuss 2 days ago!! I wanted so much for this valentine's but it all turned out to be nothing like Christmas & New Year... ... All I'm afraid now is: Will it happened during my birthday?? Which is like 2 weeks later?? I dare not dream nor do I not want to spend my birthday alone!! That's my 18th birthday and I've dedicated it only to him... ... He promised me a surprise (though its not verbal) but all I'm worried now is that something will happen last minute again!!

I've been organising chalets & bbqs to celebrate my previous birthdays during these past few years but this year, I wanted so much to spend my birthday with me... ... BUT I have no confidence of even dreaming about it!! I can't imagine myself 'celebrating' my birthday alone... ... I can't do that man! Haix... ... Hope everything would be well and good...

Yesterday, the same issue surfaced... MONEY! I fret he would not have enough to pay off his dad's hospital fees... ... Especially when he is the sole-breadwinner in the family... OMGoodness...

Haix, later gotta go to NUH again and I'm so worried to see his mum... ...

KEKE... I think I shouldn't think about the issue on promises le... If not, I'll cry again!! FINALLY see me so weak AHhUH? ... HEHE!!

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Hugs,
Selene

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He said, "Dear, tuesday I'll go to your house and have dinner okay? What will your mum be cooking for me?"

I said, "She's going to cook chilli prawn, fried chicken wings, clams with vegetables, shark fin's soup, and normal soup. My mum's going to cook for you!"

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11am... ...

He said, "Dear, my dad's sick again, he says he feel nauseous and giddy but refuses to see the doctor."

I said, "Is he okay? Then where's your mum and your brother? Will they be able to take care of him?"

He said, "Dear, don't worry okay? I'll definitely be there at your house for dinner later, I promise."

I said, "Thanks Dar, I love you"

6.15pm... ...

He said, "Dear, you all carry on with dinner first, I don't think I can go down."

I said, "... ... What happened?"

He said, "My dad can't even stand up now; he vomitted 2 times."

I said, "So, you're not coming? Your mum & your brother's back?"

He said, "Ya, there are back. Dear, sorry, I don't mean to break the promise but I have no choice."

I said, "... ... ... ... ..." and my tears rolled down :(

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His dad was confirmed stroke and there's a blood clot near the nerves of his brain. He was sent to NUH after calling for the ambulance.

Don't ask me who's dad is that and the "I" is who. For people who knew it, you knew it.

Haix, if I'm the "I", will I feel sad because of the dad or should I feel sad because he broke his promise? ---> Or rather say, if I feel sad because he broke his promise, does that means I am cruel???

BUT what will you feel when this is not the first time. It is CNY and it's your future mother-in-law that prepares the food to invite you over. Moreover, it is just 2 days before Valentines' Day... ... ... AND, it is not the first time this kind of thing happen to the girl; to have her boyfriend leaving her alone on important days like Christmas, New Year, Birthdays....

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That girl is me!! Okay, fine, I still couldn't bear with it and split it out... ... What to do now? I couldn't sleep the previous nights; I was bounded by these shadows... ... What to do? I doesn't know them? I wasn't officially identified after almost 3 Years as his girlfriend!! WTF!! I feel like fainting now!! What should I do?? Why am I feeling like this? Why am I feeling like crying everytime I thought about the shadows? Why does it always bound me till so tight? WHY?

OMGoodness, WHAT SHOULD I DO???

Woah!! Last entry on 29th Jan, tiLL now, 4th Feb... ... Its been 6 days!!!

Anyway, what happened to me was that I am damn tired of work! WORK WORK WORK & WORK.. BUD NTH INTERESTING HAPPENED!!!

I did a new hair-do BUD haix! I think it won't last... I'll be posting up some photos SOON (I MEAN SOON!!!) BUD haix, have to wait!

I've not bought/found the coat I wanna for CNY BUD thAnks to XInRu, she told me FAR EAST has & I AM GOING TO GET IT LATER DURING LUNCH!!! (its abit over my budget; $39.90) --> Anyway, I'll still get it no matter what.

Last Sat was my cousin's wedding! So happy to see them so lovely & my cousin really helps me alot in exams & often buy gifts for us when he goes overseas! That's so lovely when I saw him & his wife so loving & you know what? --> HIS WIFE's A CHIOBU!! (I MEAN, DAMN GENTLE & ELEGANT TYPE oF LADY SHE IS!)--> ENVY!!!

Anyway, I was so happy on Sat... I played with EnRu, JovI & JuliUs... thEy are really cute little children and I guessed they like me too!!! We played in YiMa's bed and woAh!!! ---> the boys were jumping up & down like frogs & lIttle EnrU was laUghing happiLy on e bEd witH me!!! (I mean WE WERE SITTING ON THE BED---AM I THINKIN STRAIGHT?) HAHA

& then, when we were at PHEONY JADE REST @ CLARKE QUAY, JULIUS SAW ME & HE RAN OVER TO ME... I'm so happy!!!" & then e whole dinner, I was busy taking care of him as his DADDY has to makan!!! BUD that was a great thing esp WHEN I knew he was recognising me!! ... THOUGH my legs hurt, standing the throughout with thaT stupid heels of mine!!! BUD JULIUS was cute & he loves aeroplanes & fighting!!! didn'T really talk to EnrU though... ... =( as I was too busy with JuLius...

Anyway, JovI was toking throughout the whole dinner with my bRo... He's cutE and guesS whAt? He made a wish @ a smaLL poNd & hE saYs "I wish I could get somE flowErs & giF it to MUMMY"... mAn! hE's juSt 5+YEARS OLD & he's so filial!!! CUTE JOVI!!

OH YA!! I dranK RED WINE!! NICY... ~~ WOAH... BUD ONE CUP ONLY:(

CNY is coming, BUD it hasn't arrived!! I'm looking forward as I have 5 days OFF!!! Anyway, till now, I've gotten 2 ANG POWS ALREADI... (THNX 2 GARy & DaYi)

... HEY HEY... gtg bAhx...

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Yunx lUv all...

♥ SELENE TEO ♥