I just had the urge of blogging now, with nothing in mind to blog about.

I was at A&E yesterday, AS A VISITOR! My hubby's the patient. He's finally not able to take the terrible pain on his tummy that he woke me up early to get him to the hospital.
AND how disappointed was I in A&E waiting area. It seems like I'm waiting in Polyclinics!
Gosh! Singapore's government hospital should change its ways to treating A&E(emergency) patients. They just simply let anyone that is more serious to overtake the less serious ones in the queue. Theoriodically it is right for serious patients to be treated to first. BUT, if it's not urgent, emergency, and painful, those 'not so serious' ones would have gone to polyclinic instead!
I complained about this to Hubby and he was laughing at me with his pains! True what, I took half-day leave to wait at A&E department mah! Its such a laughing-stock siax!
*sianx*
And then the doctor told us that it is constipation? HOW can one not know that he/she is suffering from constipation? AND how the hell will constipation last for more than a month? However, I'm quite glad that it is JUST CONSTIPATION where it signals off the other SERIOUS ILLNESS such as stomach ulcer. However, we still have to wait for the specialist to announce safe on Monday first before we could assume that it's constipation! BUT gosh! I'm still feeling 'yuan wang' to have waited for so long!

And now, I doesn't know why do I talk about hospital system when I wanted to just comment that I doesn't know what to have for lunch! Great too, spent my time!

And YUP, back to the general topic. What should I have for lunch later? I feel so much tempted to have NASI LEMAK again and WANTON MEE at the same time! Gosh, what has happened to me? And I've decided. I shall have.... .... .... FISHBALL KUAY TEOW!!!

And I've nothing to blog about again. Games at Viwawa wasn't fun today... I kept on losing and I doesn't want to continue any further... I will be leveled down soon!
*bored*

..............................BYEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!.................................

TO YULIN & YINQING, I TYPE THAT MISSING ENTRY FOR U TWO:




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Its rather bored again! Viwawa's down for maintainence. I've got no choice but to be here. *blogging*

Life has been great for me this few days, or rather, there's nothing really special that pops out of nowhere.
I seriously miss accounts. Its been more than 2 months since I've touched accounts and that made me think of digging out my secondary accounts to do! I really miss accounts till the stage that O-M-G-! I'm thinking of accounts like how I miss something that's precious to me.
However, reality tells me that I can't get into the world of accounts, at least NOT NOW!

*sianx*

Things were great in my life except that I've lost the passion and determination that drives me, which I used to own it before I quit school. It's kind of a regret to me that this dawns me. However, its irreversible.

*sianx*

Why do I sound so pessimistic? For heaven's sake, I got to be more optimistic!
*BUT HOW*
Hubby's sick and is staying at home to rest. I really and truly miss him and how I wish to see him when I return home later. However, it's rather impossible and neither do I want him to travel over and waste his energy just to let me be comfortable.

*misses*

It's really tiring to sit upright for so many hours in front of the computer. My back really aches now and yet I can't slouch; it will make me hunch-back!

*exhausted*

In 8 minutes and I could leave. It has been rather unfulfilling to me as I've done nothing again. BUT not due to my fault, there's really nothing better for me to do! How I wish for him to be here. I miss him, again.

*misses*

I've decided, I shall call him once I step out of the office.

WOW! I find this blog entry damn stupid and MEANINGLESS... Felt so much like not posting but HEY, I've TYPED FOR MORE THAN 10MINUTES!
I shall post and let people see this stupid post of mine!

Misses all my friends, Misses Accounts! Misses everything that I own in 2006 and 2007; the never-ending acheivements. It's really irreversible now. I'm beginning to regret BUT not because of the tiredness of the new life but just the missing of the more wonderful parts! I miss the teachers in YTSS too. ---> (Like Mrs Samuel, Ms TanPP, Mr E. Teo, Ms. R. Kong, and so on and so on....) NOT forgetting my accounts tutor in Poly, the one that I could sense that truly LOVES me: Ms. J. Koh!! MUACKS!

*tired*

B-Y-E-E-S-S!!!!!!!!


P/s: Von, tell me who's the one in Arashi that is acting in the Jap Movie version of Meteor Garden Finals!!! And, translate this website for me: http://www.hanadan-final.jp/index.html

Hugs,
Selene

Hey!

First thing on top of the list: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YVONNE OH LIANG TING!!! ..
"Sorry girl, wanted to celebrate your birthday yesterday. But I was
in terrible pain since Saturday and didn't really dare to move out
of bed at all. Thousands of sorries BUT let the celebration be
belated okay? I'll arrange with NU-ER and let you know ASAP :x"

Yeah, I was in terrible pain since Saturday morning in the office. It was really aching (my tummy) and I couldn't really concentrate on the things I do. The pain went on and off, creating a nuisance to me. I was so irritated when I get home that I lied on the bed. However, evening time was better for me and hence, I made a trip down to Veron's princess' birthday party @ Hillview. Very elegant and nicely planned and built condo. One of the best I've ever seen. The party was fun and we saw the lovely family with their princess, Kerenza. However, I did not really manage to enjoy it because I was in pain again after reaching there for awhile. The pain was still bearable BUT we decided to leave early and head for home.
The pain got better yesterday evening again. And soon after, it came back. Since morning all has been fine BUT I really hope not to taste the pain again later! My mum says its because the baby's moving and stretching inside me and hence I feel pain. I've read an article that says so before too. However, the pain was abit strange to me and if it continues, I really must see the doctor! BUT I just hope the pain doesn't continue!

I realise my morning sickness' not over yet! Every morning, I'll still vomit and YUCKS! I hate to do that. And I found out from Veron that her morning sickness ended for 6-months! O-M-G-G-G!!! I can't imagine myself going through that!

You guys would probably not be able to find me idling around people's blog for nothing anymore! For which, I've found a new entertainment to fit into my FREE TIME - VIWAWA!!!
I love WahJong seriously! Rox!

Alright, I shall end of now.

P/S: Von, sorry again wor! And I'll see you soon alright? I promise! :x


Hugs,
Selene

I was browsing through blogs when I saw this interesting entry in Alicia AKA Qiwen's blog. I decided to quote it and put it up here! Its meaningful and I think the meaning is so important, not only to married couples, but to dating couples and family members! It is important to remember and apply this moral of the story for it is really significant and changes one's life.

"...........

A Couple's Heartbreak

I felt like I've been struck by the strongest lightning on earth.

I has been painful to be critisised by someone that would be your kin. The kind of sacarsm that really pains a girl's heart, terribly. I don't mind to be scolded or critisised by other people or of other matters. BUT NOT THIS!!

The words are so strong: "xxxxx....xxxxcontrolled by her xxx....xxxxxxxxx" I know that soon I'm going to be a mother, BUT I still got to say! "FxxK lar!" I couldn't control my anger this time round! Who the hell in this world can be able to put down with this kind of critisism?

In this 18 years of shines, I've never been said to be like this before. Even people that hate me don't say this to me! But this person who really made me felt defeated, said that! Somemore its not in my face, directly, but in front of someone that I look up onto, someone's related to me! Since yesterday, I've been defeated and this time, without anyone to lean onto anymore, except my mother! But she can't do much either! I hate them, seriously! I swear that in future if I'm in real good relationship with them again, I'll be killed by lightning! Thousand times stronger than this!

I'm really tired of everything. Whatever I does don't look nice to other people. Why am I still sacrificing that much? I should just stop it, I should just take back all the sacrifice I've made before and leave! I really am hesistating yesterday. I think I should not let them take me FOR GRA NTED anymore. There's so many people that love me, why should I care about them? Why should I help them. I can still live my life well without them what? And somehow, it would be BETTER!

I cried and cried and cried... ... Tears just flowed through endlessly, but it never help much. My headache is paining! My vomitting pains are back! I've vomitted more than 4 times since morning! I don't know! I really don't know what to do. And yet, the person I longed for wasn't there for me. Actually I'm glad that that person wasn't here. It would add on pains and agonies only. The headache is really terrible. I can't work at all. I felt that I'm mentally dead! I can't think. I can't concentrate. I laid in bed at 9pm last night and only fell asleep at 1am. I woke up suddenly at 5am this morning after a bad dream and couldn't sleep till 6plus. I woke up at 8.20am again, startled and I knew I'm late for work. I don't care anymore! CAB means CAB! I shall not think about future issues anymore! And here I am, staring blankly at the computer screen, not able to think anymore!I hate this!


I'm really tired. GOD, can You make me disappear from this earth of pains? I rather don't want the happiness I am having now. I rather give them up and leave! Nothing in life has been smoothing for me, even though I thought a part of it was.

Exhausted & Moody.

Signed off by Selene - saddist this time round... ...

Hello xD

The first Saturday in the office has its PROS and CONS.
PROS=nobody else will step into this office; I have my freedom!
CONS=it's so bored that I was falling asleep!

Yesterday was a nice day! Hubby came to fetch me from work and we decided to go back home as we have nowhere better to go. However, we went to AMK Hub and watched 12Lotus in the end (Not I wanna watch, its him...) Anyway he bought me a pair of sandals too =) ...
**Thanks HUBBY**
Hmmm... 12Lotus was okay, starring a really pitiful girl, Lotus. I felt so sympathetic for her BUT the show was 'ALRITE LAR' ... The middle part was so draggy and misleading that I don't really catch the point. I would prefer MONEY NOT ENOUGH rather than this bah.

We've decided to take up the flat @ YCK instead. The agent called me just now and told me that the valuation has expired and if it rises, WE WOULD NOT NEED TO FORK OUT SO MUCH CASH! So great and Happy to hear this. Hope all would be right! Hurray!
But hubby is a little unhappy about the flat because of the location. NVM bah. we came to the decision already and I already explained everything to him already. He says that for me, he'll do off with it! I hope he's okay.
**So Sweet**

HEY People, enjoy my new music list okay? The song SARA is nice! Its my favourite PARA PARA DANCE song! Must enjoy (Got Eng & Jap versions)! And then there's the Tang Xin Feng Bao's songs too! My favourite Detective Investigation File IV's song is in there too! BRAVO! Loves my new IMEEM playlist! Thanks to IMEEM and LYRICS DOWNLOAD! Muacks!

Suddenly, I'm in a great great great mood! HURRAY! But I'm very cold. Forgot to bring my jacket today; I'm shivering!

Hope everything's about the flat would be alright! The flat is nice anyway, squared living room. Spacious kitchen! Toilet in Master Bedroom! But 2nd Level :(, Need to take bus to YCK MRT :( But OKAY lar! Reno don't need to do much ;) HURRAY!

Alright! Got to knock off and meet my mum at Toa Payoh Centre! CYA PPL ;)

Bye & Hugz, Selene

I think I falling sick! This stupid headache of mine has been resurfacing time and again. I couldn't sleep, eat, & work well with it.

I wanted to blog more because I have nothing else to do, BUT this headache is stopping me from blogging! It seriously is killing every single cell in my brain! Gosh~ I'm fainting... ...

..............................DEAD....................................

Yesterday I wanted to post something but blogger has a problem. Hence, I couldn't blog about that and when I met Dar yesterday, the feeling became saddening at first, but it resolves later. I promised him not to blog about sensitive issues here anymore, especially when it involves his family. I knew I am in some sense WRONG for putting those feelings up in the blog BUT the feeling just came to me and I spoke them all out. Talking about such thing is definitely not on purpose but anyway, I had promised him to control myself next time and to limit myself to things I can announce in my blog.

**To James: I'm sorry for blogging about such things here. Let's put everything behind and do a favour for your brother; live in harmony. Like I've said, it's not on purpose that I post such things here but still I think my emotions just sort of overpowered my mind on the day I posted it up. I apologise sincerely.**

To friends that must be wondering what has happened to this always-positive-Selene, it's over and I'm back!

I really look forward to seeing all of you at the ROM tomorrow, sharing the biggest joy of my life; my marriage. Let's take lots of photos tomorrow and make my day memorable! WOW, I think I can't sleep tonight! Anyway people, my photos are out. I'll post it up soon over here as the soft copies are still with my hubby. As for my budds that will attend tomorrow, you guys would probably be able to have a sneak preview ;)


Anyway, nights-out wasn't great for me these few days without him. It made me feel lonely and YES, I do miss him. HAIS, but what to do?

Looking forward! - Selene

I'm free again!

I've been getting more and more happy about my current job; the kind of job for pregnancy ladies! I doesn't have any stress at work, no fatigue feeling of tiredness although the job is making me bored at times, I just love it as there is this computer in front of me that I can use for. Moreover, it gave me more time to read articles and information in regards to childbirth and pregnancy. I bet pregnant ladies out there who are stressed up by work would envy me as I'm not earning that less and yet, I am so much relaxed than them. Quote me :D

I met up with Yoke Kuan over for lunch earlier on at ICA Building near my workplace. It's been such a long time since I've caught up with her. She looks great and YUP, she's doing well in school. An envious feeling overwhelmed me as I am saying this because, it's a matter-of-fact that I've been dismissed from POLY. However, I am still the positive Selene as ever. Been dismissed by POLY is my choice and not theirs. That's solely because I doesn't have the energy, or doesn't bothers to take time off to do withdrawal. Hence, I'm still proud of being a NP Student for 2-months and scoring a more than 90% for my accounting term test! Bravo, Selene!

I chatted with Yoke Kuan about the baby and everything. I told her I've changed my hospital to Thomson Medical instead of KK because its a private one, prices not very far off from KK and the service would be better. She told me her sister gave birth at Mt Alvernia instead and she commented that the service there is excellent! That made me think of changing hospital again. However, prices are my utmost concern as Mt Alvernia should cost more than Thomson (I guessed it ok? I've asked her to check it out for me already.)

Talking about Yoke Kuan made me think about Charmaine! It has been very very long since the last time I saw her. She should have changed alot just by judging by her blog. I guess she's no longer the small little innocent girl that I used to tease about and play with. Thinking about the past when I'm always with her, it could make a full whole collection of memories. She's so innocent that no matter how I tease her, no matter how sarcastic I put the words into, she would bear with it (Haas, Char, If u see this, don't be angry ya? It's just for the sake of fun :D) I'm starting to miss the past... ...

BUD, I'm still looking forward to the future!

I received a call from hubby just now, telling me that our bank loan has been approved. However, hubby says that the repayment is too high and we would probably give up the loan. Hence, I would say that it's sort of like a disappointment for me. However, it's a disappointment now than a regret in the future!

GTG!

Hugs - Selene

The wedding photos that I received (I think 10% of the total) weren't nice at all. The photographer took my fatty arms and that made me look horrible. Of course there are 20% that are nice too. I'm really anticipating the rest of my photos to be up, from this photographer and the other one as well. Looking Forward :D

Things were going at a rather slow pace in my current life. Since pregnancy, I've lost myself somehow. I've lost the passion and determinations I used to have about life. However, I was glad to have realised it sooner before it became worse. I need to change myself, seriously, and find back the passion and aim and used to drive my life.
GOD BLESS ME.

With the upcoming of Friday, it just made me jumped up from the seat of my desk and shiver. OH! I'm so excited about that day. I wonder how's the feelings like. I'm going to buy my dress and contact lenses, some pins and rubber bands, and I am going to engrave our names onto the rings either tomorrow or wednesday. On thursday, I would be meeting up with the photographers to get the photos before selecting a number of it to preview it to my guests on Friday. I really anticipate the arrival of Friday!

Recently changed a job. I've swayed away from being a sales assistant in that small little shop in Causeway Point, although I could earn more with the commission given. I'm working in an office near Lavender now, as a telesales officer. This is good as I'm offered a higher basic (although without commission) and maternity benefits with career advancement. However, there's always CONS with some PROS... ... That's inevitable.

Talking about relationships with hubby, I think we've been coming into multiples of quarrels since we've decided to get married. However, I still believe that communication works and he would be the right one for me because his characters are the straight opposite of mine. Hence, he would be able to control my DO NOTS, and save me from getting into troubles. Although things might be rather vague now, but I believe I can definitely overcome it.

I really felt remorseful/regretful for not cherishing the close relationships I once had with my relatives. To think of it, especially my Aunt, she dotes on me so much and now that I faced problems, she helped me without any hessitation. I really am thankful to her and I made myself promise that no matter how poor I get in the future, I must strive on and provide for her, although she already has 2 sons that are stronger in financial than me. Not forgetting my mother, whom I always thought she doesn't dotes me. She really dotes me so much in the dark that now, I think she has over-protected me in some ways the made me too reliance on her. I will never forget this love that she gave to me, although there were times when I talked back at her, scolded her, and neglected her feelings. I really want to tell her straight in the face how much I love her and thank her, how much she meant to me as my mother and how great she has been. However, I dare not say everytime and could only pluck up the courage to say it here, in my blog. I'm rather considered as a failure... ...

Why do I always have to sound so emo when I end my entry, everytime?
To all my buddies and those who love me:
"See You guys soon! Bless me and Take Care... Especially those that are so busy with school work that they couldn't breathe. I'll support you guys :D"

♥ SELENE TEO ♥