I woke up this morning with a spinning dizzy spell.. And a burning throat! Decided to rest a day and get a MC.

Mummy called and told me that my cousin-in-law has passed away last night. My face went ... "huh"...

They are kind people... Why must they be tortured in life?

She has been struggling with breast cancer for almost a year. A week back, we were told that the cells are spread over the brain... She and my cousin went for a holiday in Spain and there came the news this morning. She left behind her her devoted husband aka my cousin... And three sons, aged 8, 5, and 3...

I really can't describe my feelings now... Perhaps it is a break-free for her and my cousin... To hang on there...
But she couldn't get to watch her children grow up to be wonderful young men and get married with kids... Moreover the youngest is only 3yrs old!
However, what I'm most concern and worried would be: how to expect my cousin answer the children if they ask were mummy was and needs the maternal love...

I knew, as a cousin and the kids' aunt, I should do something... But I have my limits... And o seriously don't know what I can do to help them.

I'll be having class later But I really have no mood... It's an ss class.. I have to go, or I'll really miss out alot!

Will only be able to drop by like tml... Thank goodness tml and the day after hubby's doing morning shift... If not I got to take care of baby and couldn't go again...

I only have to keep on praying for them. Oh lord, may u pour some blessings on the sufferers? Wipe away their tears, mend their heart, give them a smile, and a happier new life. Amen!

Nicole is starting to speak recognizable words now!
She could say "mama", "papa" very clearly now.
When she wave bye to us, she will say "bye" at the same time. But her "bye~~" always sound like "ai~" as "b"vowel are cut off.
Ytd we heard her saying "hello" for a few times when she imitates us by using her toys as phone... However that was only that few instances when she said that, just like when she call "popo"=my mum. It's only tt few times she did that.
Overall, I'm quite glad because she was totally "wordless" few months ago when she did her da at Kkh... Which was quite a worrying factor!!

Besides that, she also reached a few milestones!
-she could sit on any children's vehicle (trycicle, truck, car, etc) all by herself: in and out
-she could feed food by herself quite accurately but mostly with assistance.
-she could step on the kitchen rubbish bin herself and throw things we instructed her to do so.
-she could rock her bears to sleep when u asked her to do it
-she could point to most parts of her body when asked
-she could squat when I wanna wash her butt!
-she will take her potty out when she wanna poo!
-she is super independent at the playgrounds! She climbs all the way up and down the slide all by herself (with supervision)
-she uses my iPhone like a professional
-etc etc etc!!!

On an extra note: she woke up in the morning just now when I was changing and said "bye" to me!!

I love to watch her grow bit by bit...
I wish so much to provide her with the best care, love, attention, and happiness of a family.

Anyway, thought about her bdae Liao... Shall make it a family issue and not hold any grand parties! But will be glad if anyone wanna celebrate with her!! Am signing up a music lesson for her as her bdae pressie next yr... Hopefully she'll enjoy!!

As for my bdae, I'll just kiv first... Still not sure on what to do... Prob lie low??

That's about it! Tada! Shall update another day!!

I'm here to blog.

Not been my-self today.
Had a bad feeling of bloatedness and my lower back muscles hurt alot.

I seriously don't know what's going on but I have a gut feeling that my health wasn't that well recently.
My period has not visited me since Mar'10 and I feel so worried about it.
*I'm super sure its not pregnancy* BUT its just that it is bothering me.
I know I have irregular periods all the while. BUT nearly 5 months late is really a history-maker.

HOW HOW HOW... Just can't work.

--On a random thought, I suddenly does not want to celebrate my bdae anymore.
I want to send princess Nicole to JWT Gym for some 8-weeks program instead.
I've looked through their profiles and the programs they offer, it looks interesting to me...
And hubby is quite agreeable of Nicole going for short classes.
HOWEVER, it cost around $420 for 8 classes... (On an average $55 per lesson) --Looking at the current financial status, it would be a tough decision for me to make... AND I wouldn't know how much Nicole would enjoy...
THINK THINK THINK...

Haiz... Sians...

Decided to close this blog and make it Selene's MEMORY for real...

Many reasons that made me do that but hopefully the new blog will have a fresher start.

New skin of course and hope my determination will stay there ;) HAHA...

So... Please link me in your blog IF U R INTERESTED! .... @ http://selenenicolechua.blogspot.com

BUAIZ....

Entered the class with a heavy feeling.
I saw the whiteboard: 6 fails, 11pass...
My heart went, OMG!! Shit!!
But when I saw: 73m-Margaret xxx
73m-Toh xxx xxx
71m-Selene Teo
... ... My heart goes: OMG!! I'm so happy!!

I was very happy for an instance, but I think I could have done better... I didn't have much time to study (just 3 hours b4 the test)... And I didn't really plan my time well...

So... I shall work Harder... Haha... Hopefully I do it and shall make sure I do it!!!

Gambate, back to lessons!!

Been through alot with my previous blog.
Shall put that in MEMORIES now.
I've learnt, not to talk so much about marriage life and focus my entries more on Nicole and my Own personal life.
Not because I have any unhappy marriage, but just because I don't like THAT few persons to talk about my problems with my ILs...
So, in Selene.Nicole.Chua, it shall be all about Selene, Nicole, and Daddy Leo

Look out for next few posts, I'll try to make it frequent and I'll be updating more using my Iphone!

After like xxx months, I'm back to build up my memories!

I've been so tired, emotionally & physically. But everything's well and life did carried on...

I'm going to start on my night lessons soon, in July! It's not a course that I fancy the most but it's a CHEAP course: so, I'll just complete with distinction and go for a preferred degree! Hopefully everything's as plan!

As for Nicole, she's as well as she can be!! Still so lovely and yet, naughter.. She can now listen to simple instructions like give me, put back, sit down, etc...

Alright I shall go back to my lunch!

♥ SELENE TEO ♥