--------------------------------------SUNDAY, 10th Feb 2008---------------------------------

He said, "Dear, tuesday I'll go to your house and have dinner okay? What will your mum be cooking for me?"

I said, "She's going to cook chilli prawn, fried chicken wings, clams with vegetables, shark fin's soup, and normal soup. My mum's going to cook for you!"

--------------------------------------TUESDAY, 13th Feb 2008--------------------------------

11am... ...

He said, "Dear, my dad's sick again, he says he feel nauseous and giddy but refuses to see the doctor."

I said, "Is he okay? Then where's your mum and your brother? Will they be able to take care of him?"

He said, "Dear, don't worry okay? I'll definitely be there at your house for dinner later, I promise."

I said, "Thanks Dar, I love you"

6.15pm... ...

He said, "Dear, you all carry on with dinner first, I don't think I can go down."

I said, "... ... What happened?"

He said, "My dad can't even stand up now; he vomitted 2 times."

I said, "So, you're not coming? Your mum & your brother's back?"

He said, "Ya, there are back. Dear, sorry, I don't mean to break the promise but I have no choice."

I said, "... ... ... ... ..." and my tears rolled down :(

------------------------------------------NOW-------------------------------------------------

His dad was confirmed stroke and there's a blood clot near the nerves of his brain. He was sent to NUH after calling for the ambulance.

Don't ask me who's dad is that and the "I" is who. For people who knew it, you knew it.

Haix, if I'm the "I", will I feel sad because of the dad or should I feel sad because he broke his promise? ---> Or rather say, if I feel sad because he broke his promise, does that means I am cruel???

BUT what will you feel when this is not the first time. It is CNY and it's your future mother-in-law that prepares the food to invite you over. Moreover, it is just 2 days before Valentines' Day... ... ... AND, it is not the first time this kind of thing happen to the girl; to have her boyfriend leaving her alone on important days like Christmas, New Year, Birthdays....

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That girl is me!! Okay, fine, I still couldn't bear with it and split it out... ... What to do now? I couldn't sleep the previous nights; I was bounded by these shadows... ... What to do? I doesn't know them? I wasn't officially identified after almost 3 Years as his girlfriend!! WTF!! I feel like fainting now!! What should I do?? Why am I feeling like this? Why am I feeling like crying everytime I thought about the shadows? Why does it always bound me till so tight? WHY?

OMGoodness, WHAT SHOULD I DO???

♥ SELENE TEO ♥