Selene In Memories

Life is unpredictable!

2010-09-22T16:55:00.000+08:00

I woke up this morning with a spinning dizzy spell.. And a burning throat! Decided to rest a day and get a MC.

Mummy called and told me that my cousin-in-law has passed away last night. My face went ... "huh"...

They are kind people... Why must they be tortured in life?

She has been struggling with breast cancer for almost a year. A week back, we were told that the cells are spread over the brain... She and my cousin went for a holiday in Spain and there came the news this morning. She left behind her her devoted husband aka my cousin... And three sons, aged 8, 5, and 3...

I really can't describe my feelings now... Perhaps it is a break-free for her and my cousin... To hang on there...
But she couldn't get to watch her children grow up to be wonderful young men and get married with kids... Moreover the youngest is only 3yrs old!
However, what I'm most concern and worried would be: how to expect my cousin answer the children if they ask were mummy was and needs the maternal love...

I knew, as a cousin and the kids' aunt, I should do something... But I have my limits... And o seriously don't know what I can do to help them.

I'll be having class later But I really have no mood... It's an ss class.. I have to go, or I'll really miss out alot!

Will only be able to drop by like tml... Thank goodness tml and the day after hubby's doing morning shift... If not I got to take care of baby and couldn't go again...

I only have to keep on praying for them. Oh lord, may u pour some blessings on the sufferers? Wipe away their tears, mend their heart, give them a smile, and a happier new life. Amen!

My little baby is growing!!

2010-09-16T07:15:00.000+08:00

Nicole is starting to speak recognizable words now!
She could say "mama", "papa" very clearly now.
When she wave bye to us, she will say "bye" at the same time. But her "bye~~" always sound like "ai~" as "b"vowel are cut off.
Ytd we heard her saying "hello" for a few times when she imitates us by using her toys as phone... However that was only that few instances when she said that, just like when she call "popo"=my mum. It's only tt few times she did that.
Overall, I'm quite glad because she was totally "wordless" few months ago when she did her da at Kkh... Which was quite a worrying factor!!

Besides that, she also reached a few milestones!
-she could sit on any children's vehicle (trycicle, truck, car, etc) all by herself: in and out
-she could feed food by herself quite accurately but mostly with assistance.
-she could step on the kitchen rubbish bin herself and throw things we instructed her to do so.
-she could rock her bears to sleep when u asked her to do it
-she could point to most parts of her body when asked
-she could squat when I wanna wash her butt!
-she will take her potty out when she wanna poo!
-she is super independent at the playgrounds! She climbs all the way up and down the slide all by herself (with supervision)
-she uses my iPhone like a professional
-etc etc etc!!!

On an extra note: she woke up in the morning just now when I was changing and said "bye" to me!!

I love to watch her grow bit by bit...
I wish so much to provide her with the best care, love, attention, and happiness of a family.

Anyway, thought about her bdae Liao... Shall make it a family issue and not hold any grand parties! But will be glad if anyone wanna celebrate with her!! Am signing up a music lesson for her as her bdae pressie next yr... Hopefully she'll enjoy!!

As for my bdae, I'll just kiv first... Still not sure on what to do... Prob lie low??

That's about it! Tada! Shall update another day!!

Sick.... Struggling On

2010-08-31T13:49:00.000+08:00

I'm here to blog.

Not been my-self today.
Had a bad feeling of bloatedness and my lower back muscles hurt alot.

I seriously don't know what's going on but I have a gut feeling that my health wasn't that well recently.
My period has not visited me since Mar'10 and I feel so worried about it.
*I'm super sure its not pregnancy* BUT its just that it is bothering me.
I know I have irregular periods all the while. BUT nearly 5 months late is really a history-maker.

HOW HOW HOW... Just can't work.

--On a random thought, I suddenly does not want to celebrate my bdae anymore.
I want to send princess Nicole to JWT Gym for some 8-weeks program instead.
I've looked through their profiles and the programs they offer, it looks interesting to me...
And hubby is quite agreeable of Nicole going for short classes.
HOWEVER, it cost around $420 for 8 classes... (On an average $55 per lesson) --Looking at the current financial status, it would be a tough decision for me to make... AND I wouldn't know how much Nicole would enjoy...
THINK THINK THINK...

Haiz... Sians...

Closure of Blog

2010-08-31T09:59:00.002+08:00

Decided to close this blog and make it Selene's MEMORY for real...

Many reasons that made me do that but hopefully the new blog will have a fresher start.

New skin of course and hope my determination will stay there ;) HAHA...

So... Please link me in your blog IF U R INTERESTED! .... @ http://selenenicolechua.blogspot.com

BUAIZ....

Class Test Result

2010-08-30T20:15:00.000+08:00

Entered the class with a heavy feeling.
I saw the whiteboard: 6 fails, 11pass...
My heart went, OMG!! Shit!!
But when I saw: 73m-Margaret xxx
73m-Toh xxx xxx
71m-Selene Teo
... ... My heart goes: OMG!! I'm so happy!!

I was very happy for an instance, but I think I could have done better... I didn't have much time to study (just 3 hours b4 the test)... And I didn't really plan my time well...

So... I shall work Harder... Haha... Hopefully I do it and shall make sure I do it!!!

Gambate, back to lessons!!

New Blog - Hoping To Keep It Consistent

2010-08-30T15:30:00.000+08:00

Been through alot with my previous blog.
Shall put that in MEMORIES now.
I've learnt, not to talk so much about marriage life and focus my entries more on Nicole and my Own personal life.
Not because I have any unhappy marriage, but just because I don't like THAT few persons to talk about my problems with my ILs...
So, in Selene.Nicole.Chua, it shall be all about Selene, Nicole, and Daddy Leo

Look out for next few posts, I'll try to make it frequent and I'll be updating more using my Iphone!

I'm Back!

2010-06-21T14:00:00.001+08:00

After like xxx months, I'm back to build up my memories!

I've been so tired, emotionally & physically. But everything's well and life did carried on...

I'm going to start on my night lessons soon, in July! It's not a course that I fancy the most but it's a CHEAP course: so, I'll just complete with distinction and go for a preferred degree! Hopefully everything's as plan!

As for Nicole, she's as well as she can be!! Still so lovely and yet, naughter.. She can now listen to simple instructions like give me, put back, sit down, etc...

Alright I shall go back to my lunch!

Happy Birthday to Clarisse and Nicole can WALK!

2010-02-09T14:56:00.005+08:00

Hey people, I'm here AGAIN!
I realise, my blog is so DEAD! Nobody's tagging, updates so in-frequent! Ahhhh~ TAGS please!! I promise I'll update!
Alright, I'm working now (obviously,duh--)...
Life's not very good recently. Been struggling to make ends meet. Hopefully could return abit of the loan end of March! At least I don't feel so stressed up! And there's more payments to go. CNY is coming, just did some last minute shopping last weekend. Bought couple clothes for dear and my CNY 1st day wear. AND a pair of jeans each (Giordano) to match with. Bought a set of clothings from Cotton On for CNY 2nd day. Dear bought 2 shirts from Natural Projects. I'm still thinking of buying one more set for myself for day 3.

Announcement 1: NICOLE can walk on her own already!!
....but she's been so active that she can no longer sit still during meal times. She will walk around from one end to another and the 'feeder' got to go chasing after her. HAHAHA!
Announcement 2: NICOLE has another 2 teeth coming out from the top already. That made it 4!....but she is more insistent to not drinking milk!! Arghhhh....~~
Alright, just to end off, I'll be posting some lovely photos at princess Clarisse's birthday party! Clarisse is a day younger than darling Nicole... She's so adorable! Party was at Aranda CC. Nicole enjoyed there and she found a new BF...

'Isaac has a rival liao!' :P

(^up)Nicole's new boyfriend... See how they are playing... Isaac, faster attack :P !!

(^up) Mummies with clarisse and nicole! Princess clarisse birthday!

Nicole is ONE!

2010-02-02T14:40:00.008+08:00

Hi people! Selene is here!
:P
Nicole just celebrated her birthday like 1week plus ago!! HAHA!
All thanks to Albert for booking his condo's function hall for our usage as Aloha are all fully booked! And of course to my girls and Y.K for helping me for decorations and preparations of the day! The event was pretty successful! Thank God. Nicole enjoyed it!
I ordered 15 helium balloons from Bugis partyware shop some time ago when Dear was admitted to Raffles. And I bought a few packs of banners, decorations, and balloons with good rates there too!
I took leave on the 22nd and 23rd.
On the 22nd, we brought her to Raffles to settle some payment issue and met mummy @ Toa Payoh for lunch. After which, we proceed to cut darling's hair and dear's hair. Then, we brought her to kiddy palace for toys searching. Bought a few educational ones and 2 karaoke DVDs. (She stopped us while passing by this section where they played the DVDs. She danced with the song too!) We went to the nursing room and then to popular, lastly back to mummy's house.
Rested for awhile for darling to have her dinner, we headed to take a look at City Square and had our dinner there. Nice place and we let darling play at the playground outside the mall before going home. *Horrible place to get a cab there, other than that its great*
On the 23rd, it was pretty tiring. I slept late the previous night (4am) to create notifications and to touch up on Nicole's photo album. The next morning, we sang Nicole a birthday song again and I sent my wishes and prayers for her to Him! After which, we went for a great breakfast at the coffeeshop, followed by a short while at the playground. We had great fun!
After that she had a rest at home while mummy came and bathe her. She had her porridge and she slept. While mummy took over her, I went out to collect the helium balloons (cause the delivery for 15 balloons was $30, I didn't want). It was so 'paiseh' cause I got to take train and bus with the balloons! Met Von @ ToaPayoh kiddy palace to replace darling's toys (its spoilt), collected developed photos of Nicole, bought a cake for Charmaine, bought our snacks to ease the hunger, then bus back to my place.
We reached my place and we did abit of loose preparations and relaxing. I bathed and when the rest of the girls reached, we cabbed down to Albert's place.
That was when the mess came. I forgot to check if the function hall was at lift level, so the caterer came alone and we got to help him carry all the things up the stairs! HAHA! So 'malu'...
During the party...
Nicole was like usual, being carried from one end to another end... HAHA! She enjoyed herselves with lots of aunties and uncles, sisters and brothers!
@ around 8pm, I started the 'item-picker' for darling. She was to choose the top first 3 items out of the 12, which determines her future. That was 1st, the book. 2nd, the ball. 3rd, the abacus. So my thinking would be: She will be one who will excel in studies and have a great loving for ball sports. And when she grow up, she'll be a banker or accountant!
After which we cut the cake!
Great time spent there and I totally love it! Hope she had a good time and hope all blessings and prayers will come through to her! **Ok, i gotta end here and carry on with my pile of work!**

p/s this is my longest post and with pictures!
Let the picture do the rest of the sayings!

A start to START with...

2010-01-02T16:33:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year to whoever that pops in here!!

A new year, A fresh start, AND A FRESH TRAIN of THOUGHTS to start with!

In 2009 many things happened, and I realise in this blog, there are no longer anywhere that I could pour my true feeling out anymore, due to "U NOE URSELF" (who have 'invaded" my blog and tell tales around)...

Fine, and in 2010, I've decided to make this blog HAPPY HAPPENINGS and a private blog for me to voice out my true feelings. Dun worry "U NOE URSELF", u will never ever gain permission to read my private blog, NEVER EVER... So don't even think about telling tales about me to ur other half, making my family and me go deeper and deeper into sorrowness.

As I am typing this, I'm suddenly filled with so much hatred for what happened throughout 2009. But all in all, I enjoyed most with my darling princess, Nicole... AND my girls (Ya, its all of u, the secondary school clique!)...

Some updates on us...

FOR ME!!
I've started a new station in my workplace, I would say, Its time for me to get serious and be away from the PLAY MODE! There's alot to learn and remember, be cautious and to deal with medical terms in this new station.. So far, so good, still not dead yet.
Its pretty enjoyable to work in this line actually, not SUPER STRESS and yet not SUPER FREE! There's always PROs and CONs...

FOR HUBBY!!
He finally found the root to his pain for the past one year... Had an operation on Tues and he's recovering from Clonnes Disease... Pretty serious, 3 huge ulcers in his small intestine... Due to bacterial affection to his immune system that attacks his intestine... But the bad thing was the huge bill generated from Raffles... That's how prestigous it can be...

FOR NICOLE!!
She's well except for this small flu bug which we suspected is due to her teething... (BUT no teeth came out yet!)...
She's so cheeky and naughty nowadays.. But I just love to be with her... She always made me happy and never fail to make me smile and laugh when I was with her...

Shacks.. I thought I could upload some photos but my SD adapter is @ home... So sianx!

Alright people... Do lookout for my private blog!

Back from M'sia

2009-12-18T10:55:00.002+08:00

Hi people,

I'm back from Malaysia last week! KEKEKE!

Relaxing and slow week spent there, I am energised again!

And I spent quite a bomb too!

Had my neccessities replaced with new ones (wallet, specs, bag, etc)

And had good food too! Met my nieces and nephews and I would say they are so CUTE!

Nicole met her cousins, uncles, and aunties too! She had great time especially in KL!

As usual no photos... HAHA!

Nicole is turning 11months soon and I'm starting to rack my brains for her birthday party! HEADACHE! Anybody want to volunteer to help?

HHAA.. TADA.. GTG!

Sudden Post

2009-11-24T14:02:00.002+08:00

Hi,

Sorry ladies, I'm so reluctant to post, BCOS I've no pictures on hand everytime I wanna update. Without pictures = No Idea of Posting ....

Alright, just a brief updates. I'm as well as I am! AND I've decided to go on part-time Diploma SOON! (Proposed to be Jan or May 2010)...
But I'm thinking of the course I should go for... Accounts seems a far route and I'm starting to feel abit lose touch with this field. Considering business administration... People, teach me how? Give me inspiration...!!

As for Nicole... she just had her operation on her duplicate thumb and skin tags 2 weeks ago and the wounds are healing well. **She can even CRAWL and CLIMB with her injured/bandaged hand!!**
Overall, she's still as cheerful as ever and I can admit now that she's AN ATTENTION SEEKER!!! When she's out, she will look around and wave her hand and smile and shout at people so that they can respond to her... She does that EVERYWHERE.. And is driving me MAD!
But I just love to watch her grow like that and be like that. It just shows me that she is ACTIVE and adorable... With perfect development!

We are going for a trip to Malaysia real soon and I'm anticipating it!!! My first trip with Nicole! I will enjoy!!

Alright... I REALLY HAS NO IDEA!!

Meet up with me lar...
Better and EASIER with me...
Sorry ah.. Think my blog's going dead!!

Feeling DOWN!

2009-10-03T12:37:00.002+08:00

I'm not in a good mood today, everything seems BLUE to me today.

I don't know why, I just don't know why.

WHY things went this way? ---
It's supposed to be sweet in the first year isn't it? AND its not even a year and its like this?

I should be asking myself: "Whether I would still want to carry on torturing US?"

All's haywire!! HAYWIRE!! I'm feeling Down............

Blog Renovation Notice

2009-10-01T15:47:00.002+08:00

In the progress of CHANGING SKIN, please be patience while I adjust all the width and length :)

More Time For Nicole Please

2009-10-01T14:13:00.003+08:00

I came across some regular blogs that I've been visiting last time. AND I realise I've been updating so less. I've been putting so little to make memories of Nicole and me. I feel a little sad and regretful... ... for... .... something...

Nicole is now 8 months already, let me update on her development.

She can hold your hand/finger (without you pulling) and stand up on her own. She loves to stand!!

She can start crawling (or I should say towling her body) front and back.

She can start babbling "babababa", "bubububu", "ahahahah", "mamamama" and she loves to blow bubbles and stick her tongue out intentionally.

She laughs real loud and scream when you try to scare her by singing the song.

She hates to lie but loves to stand / sit.

YOU can never snatch things from her ever again, SHE will scream at you and cry!

She can eat loads of things now and is ALWAYS hungry!!

... ... ...

and there's loads and loads to go...

I have lots of photos about her, I'll organise and put it up SOON, I swear!!

Alternatively, can always go to my facebook (selene_tly_90@hotmail.com) to view her recent photos posted by friends and relatives.

Muacks and I look forward to weekends to spend my day with her!!

Hugs, Selene!

Updates After Months

2009-09-11T15:13:00.003+08:00

WOW!!

I realise how ROTTED this blog has been!!!

Well, some updates about me: I'M FINE!!

Being working and eating and sleeping almost everyday since I lat updated (JULY... OMG)
AND I'm so packed up; meeting people, playing with Nicole, working, attending parties, meetings, OTs!!!

Nicole is well as well. Too bad I'm at work and I can't load the photos into the computer yet. She got loads of cheeky photos to be uploaded!!

Alright... I got nothing to say about... Bad memories!!

Will drop in all photos ASAP!!

Buaiz..

New Job Progress

2009-07-17T12:52:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone,

I'm really sorry to keep my previous post so outdated till date. Been very tired that I did not even bother to take out my laptop whilst home, let alone using it.

Been learning for this 'half' a month in this new job. Till date, I'm proud to say: "I sort of enjoy it".
Its only some arrogant patients who drove me mad that I don't like, the rest are OKAY!

Nicole has been rather good, but I feel so bad leaving her with my mum while I work. BECAUSE I've been feel tired of the pumping and has stopped. BUT I still latch her on whenever she's with me. My mum told me she do misses her breastmilk as she kept running her fingers around my mum's 'nene'... HAHA, so sorry Nicole...

She's smiling more AND more, and her hair's growing longer and longer!!

Alright... Have to stop here... To be COntinued!!!

Hugs,
Selene

Eating 'Snack' Time

2009-07-03T12:24:00.003+08:00

Hi people, managed to have some time here @ work to blog a little on the happenings.

Highlight would be: NICOLE IS A MONSTER...

and...

I'M FINALLY NOT UN-EMPLOYED!!!

I have started work this week, and YES, its hectic.. Shall update more on this!

Nicole's a monster now, WHY?....

Cause she won't sleep in the afternoon and as much as she does previously anymore!

Kept on wanting to play with us.

AND...

This morning on the train, she kept looking and staring, and smiling to others...

HEADACHE sia!

HAHA... GTG! BYEEEEEee

A New Book, Nicole's Development Progress

2009-06-17T11:54:00.003+08:00

______________ALL PREVIOUS TYPING WAS REMOVED!!________________

HAHA, cause I typed rubbish, probably due to the EARLY time now, probably just woke up not long!

Alright, just finished the book Johnny's Angels by Danielle Steel. Read before 2 years back but wanted to read again and thus loaned it from the library last Friday before meeting up with Deniece and gang! Nice book and I would say, it would be my next book in the list I would love to purchase after Qiong Yao's 'Chuang Wai'.

I was actually moved to tears AGAIN after reading the story. Johnny's a nice person, a selfless person and I started to wonder, would I be able to be as selfless as he is in my whole life? I doubt so, HAHA, I'm so selfish! And on a random note, I just felt that I had far too many miracles happening in my life and I started to believe that God played a part in those like the story of the book. (I know I might sound naive and stupid, but that's what I thought?)

Back to reality, just went to take a look at my little girl before getting myself some breakfast an hour ago. Was so pleased to see her sleeping so soiundly with her daddy on the same bed. My little girl is growing up, from a newborn (just when she was born), till now, it has been ALMOST 5 MONTHS!

Some of her developments:
-She really 'talked' like a rubbish chute now.. All sorts of baby languages are out!
-She can kicked backwards on her walker now
-She loves me singing "Da Xiang" song to her and of course the edited version regarding her hair
-She smiles and laugh at anyone but especially when her granny, my mum plays with her, she would go illiterally CRAZY!
-She can sit w/out support for around 20seconds?
-She still doesn't flip **Oooppss, that's not an acheivement/devolopment**
-She loves swimming and will kick like .... as if there's no end of the world ;)
-She is grabbing things and of course HAIRS AND SPECTACLES.. you might want to let all these be out her reach if you ever see her :D
-She is still TOTAL BREASTFEEDING and is ON DAILY ONCE A DAY RICE CEREAL! She's plainly enjoying them!

Alright, and some updates, I went with Von for swimming, my wishes fulfilled and would sadly announce, I am so TIRED after exercising, my muscles are too..........
Went yesterday, was intending for Toa Payoh's complex and I WAS LATE FOR 2HOURS PLUS! Sorry Sorry Again, Von... HAHA!
But when she reached, she told me that the complex was closed for RENO.... *SIANX*
So we took a bus down to Bishan's complex instead!
And Von saw the 'tan ke che'... HAHAHA!
Bought CHILD's TICKETS.. HAHA and went in straight to the locker and removed our clothes for the swim...
Damn big lar, Von's bag... Next time don't bring such a big one.. U are lucky I didnt bring any as big as yours, if not our slippers would have to be on the floor liao ;)
I was SO TIRED! My muscles ached after the swim and I was like swimming so LESS!
Bathed and went to get SOME SNACKS! Yummy Yummy... Calories built up...
Whilst buying, Veron called me.. So cute lar her girl ... She asked me, "Yi Yi, Mei Mei ok?" for 3 times... HAHA... Sweet little girl she is! And Veron was nice too to kept asking about my girl :)
And then off we went to MUMMY's house as Von cancelled her movie date.. Paisei wor, I were to be on time then you wouldn't need to cancel liao...
AND we ate KFC!!! Calories built up again!!
Played with my little girl and we took 853 back!!
Went to NTUC with hubby to get some groceries and then HOMED!

Alright, and here's another:
Linda came with her little girl, Rislin, to my house on... I think Sunday :D
I cooked dinner and HAHA! It was a failure again! Think my cooking would only be suitable for me to eat nia!
(Steamed egg became Salted Duck Egg lei? Worse har...)
Then get the two little babies into swimming in the evening... So funny lar and that Nicole kept kicking... Got her up and she refused to sleep, so I brought her down, while sending Linda off, to GET MY ICED MILO!!!
Came back, and I think she slept? HAHA!

Ok, cooking time... And Nicole's milk time... BBYE!

Oh ya, forgot to say, I'm no longer jobless. Gonna do telemarketing 3 times a day, 3 hours, $7/hr with commission.. And this Sunday, photo montage for $50!! Cool eh, can celebrate PAPA day with hubby liao!

Ladies' Dinner @ AMK

2009-06-14T02:00:00.003+08:00

Hi...

Am super bored, just settled my little girl to bed an hour or so ago.

ANNOUNCEMENTS: I've finished collected all 6 coke glasses!! Hurray!!
*I know I'm being lame but just pardon me lar!*

Went for dinner with Deniece and gang last night @ S11... I now know how to eat Stingray and I'm proud to imform that stingrays aren't species of octopus but FISH!
The gang then came to my house for ladies chats and to sip abit of the alcohol... HAHA!
Had a great fun which I so misses after getting preggy and giving birth eventually. Missed K-ing... Ladies, you all wait hor, next time I throw Nicole away then grab you all for K-ing!!

Like I said in my previous post, I am FINANCIALLY DEPLETED! Indeed, I still am. But I can't control lar, still went out to eat.. KEKE!

Am abit unpleased from the google-ing that I made earlier on regarding Nicole's condition... There could be high possibilities that my next child would end up like Nicole, or even worse! Now... thinking hard on whether to have the 2nd and the 3rd...
*THINK THINK THINK*

I finally rented my room out and the tenant just moved in today. Quite a nice lady so far (still long ahead before I conclude can)... At least she's a clean freak (according to what she did) and kept asking for permissions to this and that. Thank God, hope she continues this way...
*Oh but she's damn forgetful, she left the keys on my main door after getting in (forgetting to remove) and when I got home, I was like... I'm forgetful also but not that serious can?*

Oh yup, and Yvonne came to my place earlier on and we went for Mcds dinner... HAHA.. Anticipating Tuesday's swim... Yvonne Oh LT... U better don't stand me up again kays... BTW, Toa Payoh Swimming Pool can? KEKE...

Kays people... GOT TO GO!!!!!!

BYEEEESSSS!!!

Sad News, Made My Day Bad!

2009-06-11T02:28:00.003+08:00

Hi...

I'm disappointed.

Dr Low Yee (Nicole's doctor) told me that she suspect the reason for Nicole to have 'unusual' motion passing was because her muscles to her anus have somehow relocated after the operation. The most saddening thing was that Dr Low suggested to have another operation done on Nicole with condition still doesn't improve by August during the next review.

I felt so heartpain and I ask all of you to pray for her. I seriously doesn't want her to go through the whole process again. Its hurting for me to see her in pain. And seriously, I am thinking of rejecting the doctor's request to schedule an op. But for her good, I got to see her suffer. Why? All her wound area are well and the dilation is going on well. In fact she only need to be poked (dilated) every 2 days now!

*Ouch* My heart aches!

*Pray hard*
God help her through all these!
Thank You God!

AND for me, I'm still awaiting the start of my work. Waiting and waiting... ... Its good to rest before starting work BUT I am financially depleted!

Night Post, Nicole's Photo

2009-06-04T01:00:00.004+08:00

Time check: 1.01AM...
I need to sleep yet I can't sleep.

So, as promised, Nicole's pictures...:
She now knows how to laugh @ the camera, or is she laughing at me?

We brought her to Hougang Mall yesterday and rented the pram
there... She seems to love it so much, looks like she's carrying a bag?

Just a random thought: "Money do wonders"...
Probably i've been too bothered about $$ $$ and $$ recently. Life wouldn't be complete without $$...

Hais.. Sorry wor, I've been so random...

Looking forward to Motherhood Exhibition tomorrow @ Expo, Night Safari trip and Tampines trip on Saturday!!... Family day!! Before the hell loads of work start soon!!

Oh My, I need sleep... Going to sleep le... BBYE!!!

Finally Decided, Polyclinic!

2009-06-03T16:55:00.003+08:00

Has been making a rather tough decision for 2weeks.

AND now, with everything almost finalised, I'm happy to announce that I would be starting work @ Polyclinic anytime soon. That declares the end of my 'sleep-till-afternoon' life. I just went to sign the letter of offer with my agent and will be signing the letter of appointment with NHG on Friday for more details on the benefits. Salary would be less (in terms of take home) than my previous benefit but inclusive of the bonus, it will be comparable. There are medical and dental benefits too! Its good, cause its time for me to visit the dentist! KEKE!

Alright, that's my update and Nicole's update would be: She loves the pram that is rented for her yesterday at Hougang Mall! AND Mummy love it too! Too bad, cannot bring home. KEKE!

Will update pictures soon as I'm still at my mum's place, using my brother's lappy! KEKE!

Dilemma!! Monetary or Family??

2009-05-29T23:17:00.003+08:00

Hi people...

DILEMMA now...

Polyclinic or Goldheart?

Which should I choose?

More $$ ($1.8K), Longer working hours (12hrs), NO Weekend and PH off, Give up Breastfeeding

Less $$ ($1.2K-$1.3K), Shorter working hours (Office hours; 9Hrs), Weekends and PH off, Continue Breastfeeding

I'm Jobless & Blogging Mood is Back!

2009-05-27T19:46:00.003+08:00

I realise...
I AM BACK TO BLOGGING MOOD!

I don't know how to react when I received a message from my brother that my mum cried over breakfast... How would I know what happened and how to help her with that. My brother told me "apparently, she's worried about you". I sigh... What to do? Pack my bag and go back to her? Throw my baby and my husband away? I knew her concerns, but mummy, I chose this route. I know I would regret in time to come back what can I do with it? I can only make it BETTER and BETTER and BETTER... Running away from the problem wouldn't help, it will only make them worse.

Alright, that's it... My life is SCREWED UP... I mean real this time. I'm in a mess in mind of what I am going to do. I am bothered about going to eat grass kinda life soon. I came upon this on CATS RECRUIT from Straits Times: Earn while you study... True? ... It look real interesting and it would be nice if I can get it. It just means that I study on internship where the fees are forked out by the employer and I can earn $1000 a month... AND get a certificate of diploma in hospitality at the end of the day! So.... ..... *dun noe what to say* It came at the right time and hopefully I get that.

Brought Nicole to AMK Hub to apply for Baristas position @ Coffee Bean... Went to have a drink at Subway while writing a gift card, went to NTUC to buy bread for Nicole, and headed back home. Met a nice guy while alighting the bus and HE HELPED ME WITH THE PRAM! I was touched seriously because that proves that Singapore do have good souls! He helped me cross the road as well. AND I realise, he stays in my block! But only God knew which level he stays at. OMG, I sound like some 'hua chi'....

HAHAHAHAHA!

Hugs,
Selene

I've Being Bluff-ED! In A Mess!

2009-05-26T18:50:00.005+08:00

Everything just don't fall into places for me.

Been offered the job but in the end, company decided not to hire anyone.

Rental of rooms has been months and no tenants had taken up yet.

Quarrels with almost everyone due to my hormones!

Oh well, I'm just 'suay'....

The positive me is still thinking: There will always be a way out still.

BUT, WHERE? I wonder, really wonder...

How? Sit back and wait lor!

Now, its time I pray to God to lead me the way out of this darkness. God, please... LEAD ME OUT!

Alright, hope you guys do understand...

Today is just not my day and its TIRING to lead everyday BAD! I hate it, seriously, I HATE IT!

Some updates then:

-Nicole just had her hair SHAVED. *Ouch* So painstaking for us to decide onto shaving them off, its just too beautiful!

-Nicole has started on semi-solids (ie. RICE CEREAL and SOFT BREAD)! And she's taking it well by swallowing them. I even gave her 60ml of diluted apple juice this noon and SHE WANTED US TO SPOONFEED HER INSTEAD OF BOTTLEFEED!

-I am now JOBLESS... Can someone offer me a job, if not grass would be my only option of food liao!

Okay, I'll just end the post with some miscellaneos photos of Nicole...:

Mummy Love Nicole Most!

2009-05-09T17:27:00.004+08:00

Hi people,

Sorry for not blogging enough (it's really tiring at times that I view and not BLOG!)

AND sorry for losing my self recently due to the family problems arised! (Read HATES OF SELENE for more)

Nicole just came back from a gathering of Leo's relatives and yes, they are nice people and certainly love Nicole alot. She behaved herself well just now (although we just went out for 4hours) and smile to the correct people at the same time. THEY wasn't that bad as some ridiculous people has told me they are! In fact, I find them well to get along with and certainly easy with them!

Nicole loves Twinkle Twinkle Little Stars so much recently and when I sang her that, while clapping her legs and hands together, she would really laugh out lots, followed by the continuous 'talking'... We just babbered non-stop just now, filling the room with HIGH FREQUENCY of sounds... OR NOISES!
Simply saying: I love playing with her and making her laugh like mad! Its bonding time really!

Nicole has been suspected to be teething (those having my MSN would have seen such comments already)...
The inner part of her gums (nearer to the jaws) has a white spot which I'm sure its NOT AN ULCER!... Because it's so rough and sharp when we touched it. Still not sure because we were puzzled as she's only 15weeks (ie 3months plus) now and her gum don't look swollen to me! She has been drinking well and GOSH? How can the baby teeth start growing from inside, of course its definitely not impossible for teeths to grow from inside but usually they will start growing from the front!
Whatever it is, she's still suspected because she has been drooling ALOT recently and has just gotten another 'name' from me; SALIVA FOUNTAIN!

Her Daddy was telling me that she has had enough nicknames for the whole of her life already and we should stop calling her with more nicknames... HAHA but I just can't resist it, neither can he!

Another milestone of Nicole was that she has finally be drinking 150ml (ie 5oz) ... AND I'm really glad because that would then means she will grow more and more and more and more!... She had grown from 5.3kg to 5.5 kg in around 2 weeks! Rather pleased with it lar but BABE, you can do better!

BTW, her daddy and her are sleeping in the room right now... 2 piggySSS.... HAHA!

Should be meeting YVONNE OH this afternoon and yet she SMSed me @ 5.30pm just now that SHE JUST WOKE UP!... HAHA... Pig Yvonne... HAHAs.... Will meet her later! Hee!

Nicole's going to have her hair shaved this month, the 23rd!... So heartpain to see all her hairs dropping then... I can't bear to shave it off... Might be trimming her eyebrows and eyelashes as well.. BUT STILL DECIDING... Should I?....

Hee.. Sorry, my cam batt flat and I'm lazy to change the battery now... Shall upload pictures next time!

Hates Of Selene Updated!

2009-05-07T23:18:00.002+08:00

HATES OF SELENE blog has been updated, wanna view then ask me lor... If those from IDO, can go Boiler Room to see then!

Funphoto Of Nicole

2009-04-28T17:51:00.003+08:00

Hi, Thanks to frenzs66's blog, I got to do this FUNPHOTO for Nicole. I'm probably abit slow as I've seen many friends done this before. Just was meddling with everything when I did this. Hee. So happy!

Nicole Has Successfully Done Her Operation!

2009-04-23T00:12:00.004+08:00

Hello!

I'm really sorry for not posting for the past weeks/month? I was so tired everyday, busy with Nicole. She needed alot of attentive cares in regards to her wound as cleaning up her wound would means a big task to us. (We can't use wet wipes and clean it yet because the wound hasn't healed.)
Updates of Nicole:

Upon her discharge from KKH, she needed to wash her wound after poo-ing with sodium chloride and cotton wool. After 2 weeks of that, when we went back to KKH for follow-up, doctor actually told us that her wound are more or less healing and we need not use sodium chloride to wash the wound but tap water. It was a great news, indeed, to us as we need not purchase the non-economic sodium chloride as well as not to bring the bulky bottle of NaCl out anymore!
On that day when we went back KKH, things weren't that simple too. It marks the start of dilation (forcing a metal rod into her anus to increase the resistancy so that the anus wouldn't shrink in size). ITS PAINFUL!!!
Generally, since her operation, she has been very dependant on pacifier and needed to seek more attention than before the operation. Its somehow understandable but yet I really wanna force myself not to give in too much in her as she will be spoilt by us, especially her granny (my mum).

She now can lift her head real hard, look @ the camera when we wanna snap a photo of her. She is liking to smile and laugh more than before and one day, she delighted me by laughing real loud when we played with her on the bus! I was blessed and joyful after hearing that. She's starting to make noises when we talk to her *or should I say sound?*...

She can make sounds like 'ahhh looo' when I said HELLO to her, and 'aiiiiii' when I said HI to her... She can also make random sounds like 'arhhhhh', 'ooooooo', 'eeehhh' to us... She's just nearing 3 months and she can make such sound? I felt puzzled? Is that normal...??
Anyway, my this little princess Chua Jia En, Nicole will be turning 3-months old this Friday, which is TODAY!!!!
So fast and she's 3-month old...
Still remembered how she was when she was in my tummy kicking and playing...
Still remembered how I was when I'm in pain alone with her in my tummy trying to get out to see the world....
Still remembered how I was stuggling to get her out from my tummy...
Still remembered the first time when I heard her cries and saw her beautiful blushing face...
Still remembered how I fed her first 'milk' in the world...
Still remembered how I cry and sobbed for her to be kept in Special Care Unit...
Still remembered how I struggle to get her discharged from the hospital...
Still remembered how she was in pain when she was checked for jaundice and vacinnations
Still remembered how the many many things that happened to her as she grows, 1 month old and than till now, 3 month old!
"I love my beloved princess and our little baobei! Mummy and Daddy loves and will protect you always"
She's having her beauty sleep now btw (stirred abit while the mozart classical is played through my comp for her)
These are some photos updates of her:

She's having tummy time, lifting her head real high with the help of her hands!

She's been carried by her granny, looking wide eyed!

She's just so adorable!

First time when she looked at the camera while I took pictures with her

She's so cute!

Whereby for me, I'm doing super fine except that I'm really exhausted. Darling just had the scope yesterday for his piles and tummyaches. Doctor suspects its stomach infection accompanied with piles but the detailed reports are not out yet. He has really weighed down ALOT: From 80kg to 65kg?... OH MY when I heard I was lyk... ....

Been really tired and sorry for people out there who like to know more... I'm really sorry for not being able to update more often, plus the busy schedule I had at work now...

I just hope I won't fall sick too as I started to have the symptoms like giddiness, headaches, and nauseous this morning already! God bless me and my family!

Alright and now I shall wash up and join my beloved princess for the sleep already. Tomorrow's another day and I am looking forward to Friday. Friday's gonna be Nicole's DPT Vaccination Day and yet I can't be with her 'cause I can't take too many off days already! Stay strong Princess Nicole, Granny and Daddy will protect you that day! Don't miss mummy too much yar?

Muacks people and belated birthday to Deniece, I had fun clubbing that day!

P/S: My 'HATES' blog hasn't been updated and restructured.

Hugs,

Selene

Nicole is Discharged!

2009-04-03T16:15:00.003+08:00

NICOLE IS FINALLY DISCHARGED!

Sorry for the delay in informing!

-Nicole was on glucose water (clear feeds) on Monday morning (10am) after Dr Low Yee has seen her.
-Nicole was on EBM (half feed from TPN) on Tuesday morning (3am) after taking up to 45ml of glucose water.
-Nicole has TPN off her (full milk feed) on Tuesday afternoon (3.30pm) after taking up to 80ml of EBM.
-Nicole was discharged from Higher Dependency and transferred to General Ward on Tuesday afternoon (4pm).
-Nicole was latched on after sending to General Ward.
-Nicole was seen by Dr Low Yee and was discharged on Wednesday afternoon (1.30pm)

Now, Nicole's wound is in care.
The stitch at her neck where TPN was inserted has almost heeled. The wound at her anus was still 'hazardous' but at least not that easy for infection. We have to change her nappies every now and then, apply antibotics cream for her after washing with sodium chloride. Nicole is somewhat back to her usual self, all active and chubby as she was before the operations.

THANKS to all medical staffs of KKH. A great experience there finally.
Special Thanks to...
-Dr Low Yee for having the surgery done successful and great!
-All Medical doctors in Higher Dependency (HD) Ward 65 especially Dr Ong & Dr Chua
-All Staff Nurses, Enrolled Nurses, and Nursing Students of HD Ward 65 for giving attentive care to Nicole, especially Sister Kam, Pei Ling, Fly, Gemmalyn Grace, Kimmy, Clara, and lots to mention!

WELCOME Nicole back home and Mummy loves you.

-Another challenge for you would be the dilating of the new anus you have got. Continue to be a strong girl and bear with the coming pain for the next few months.
-And challenge your next operation in a year's time!

Starting work soon on Monday. Signals bad things to follow... Jia You bah!

Hugs,
Selene

Opening Of Hates Of Selene

2009-03-30T08:35:00.004+08:00

PREVIOUS POST DELETED!...

Hi people, I've decided to transfer all postings related to my SECRETS especially family issues which I can expose to everybody online into another blog. Approach me in MSN, EMAIL, SMS, or even CALL me if you would like to read about them. (I'll only let certain people know about this blog... Hopefully you are the one ;)...

Alright, SECRET BLOG have the previous post updated and moved there! Those that has read but I wont give access to, CONGRATS! Those that has not but I wont give access to, TOO BAD! Those who has not read and believed that you could get access to, please let me know and you can read :)

Thanks people and BYE!

Nicole is STRONG and She Will Be!

2009-03-25T09:21:00.004+08:00

Hi there, here are the updates on Nicole's condition.

Yesterday evening, Nicole was on full minerals and nutritions supported by the machine (to go into the tubing on the neck). There's 3 minerals running, with a drip.

Dr Low Yee, her main surgeon and doctor for this operation, came to see Nicole this morning (just now). The only thing she told me was that Nicole looks good and so does the wound. We just have to pray that the wound won't be affected as she starts pooing more these few days. Dr Low Yee also mentioned that she got to sleep on her side as it will exert pressure on her wound if she sleeps on her back. She have to keep her pampers well-ventilated by not sticking it.

POOR GIRL!

And the worse thing was that the MORPHIN (pain-killer) was removed off her just now. Only panadol at 6hrs interval were to be given to her in which doctors are not that keen into it.

Nicole was more alert than the past 1 day when she kept drifting to sleep due to MORPHIN.

Alright talking about me... I'm nothing but just that I've been staying in the hospital with her since Sunday. 3 Nights liao and it definitely pains my heart looking at her. I couldn't sleep well too as I'm afraid that she'll wake up to see her mummy gone or cry and I don't know.

"TIRING" is all I can say.

Saw a patient in the same ward as Nicole, felt so heartpain for him and his parents. He was like 5 years old? AND I assumed that he had his fingers amputated (cause his fingers are all bandaged and it seemed shorter than normal). However, the paining thing was not that his fingers are injured, but because he had rejection to all his medicine and EVEN FOOD. After every feed, be it food, drinks, or medicine, he will vomit everything out and he had rashes due to the side effect. Hence, it made him have the phobia of having medicine and everytime he was to be fed with medicine, he would cry really loud, saying 'I don't want, Pain, Go away!'... ...

Poor mummy of him, had to endure his tantrum and finally I saw the saddest side of it. Her mummy was angered one day, scolded the boy, throw his bolster on him, grabbed her bag and went off!

It's definitely not the mummy's fault nor is the boy's fault.

They gained my sympathy... REALLY, not easy to be a mummy like that nor is it easy to suffer.

Alright, so that's all now...

Nicole's Update

2009-03-24T10:38:00.006+08:00

Sunday @ 10am, we left home with a frightening feeling. Our hearts was not just heavy BUT super heavy. Took a cab to KKH and admitted Nicole in.
She was in ward 55, bed 12. I was told to feed her before the doctor comes to test her DNA and put her on drip. Her last milk was at 11.15am, 22March2009 :(
(Though she was put on drip with her right leg bandaged to assist fluid flow in drip, she was still as active as my usual Nicole, kicking with all forces she has got.) The only thing which pains my heart was that she couldn't drink milk! Only glucose water!
The worse part came on 23March2009 when her last feed of glucose water was at 7.15am, afterwhich NO MORE FLUID! She was sent to the operating theatre at 11.30am...
:(
She was smiling at us, kicking while lying on the bed, and playing happily by herself before going in. So adorable and is heartpaining to see her like this. It somehow made me the culprit that sent her in to suffer! I teared of course. It's really painful to see her suffer... while she can still smile and laugh with us before the suffers.
During the course of the operation, in order to put up a brave front, I accompanied my mum to Balestier to purchase her things and bought Tau Sau Piah back for hubby to eat too.
Waited and Waited...
:(
Then, the 'samaritian-looking' surgeon came out (there's a reason for me calling him that cos he just resemble one of the guy on channel 8, ask me if u're really interested!)...
He told me: "Still in the process" and my heart drops...
(To those who's concerned)
Updates on Nicole's condition:
Time started: 11.50am
Time ended: 3.15pm
Duration of Operation: 3Hours 25Minutes
Recovery Time: 5pm (1hour, 45minutes later)
Operation was successful with anus repaired and constructed at normal location.
Further and close observation is needed as doctors are afraid of inflammtion and hurting of wound.
Surgeon commented that control of muscles are weak, might need future observation when Nicole grows older. (But not a worry at this moment of time yet.)
Nicole was transferred to Higher Dependence Unit to be kept under close observations. (Ward 65, Bed 05)
She has to pass urine through a line so as not to touch the wound and if flamate it.
She has to fast for 5 days without milk or water (just drip and special nutrients inserted from a line at the neck and nostril.)
As of this morning... ... (as I'm typing)
- She has passed her first stool and doctor has seen it. I was told that whether the wound would heal depends on individual and hopefully she can pass through it.
- She developed a fever last night and was okay this morning. Doctor says that fever are unavoidable side effect.
- She's feeling very tired probably from the operation, sleeping and waking several times. But generally, she's well and I think it doesn't seems that painful for her.
...........
Hence, Nicole should be fine and hope everything goes right for her after 5 days, then she can consume her long waiting milk. (While in the time being, I'll just pump it out to stimulate and wait to latch her on soon)

My Prayers to God, Please Let Everything Be OKAY!

2009-03-21T16:03:00.005+08:00

KAOS! I typed everything and its all gone! No mood liaos!
Alright, here's the most important update from my 'ALREADY TYPED POST'
Nicole has been well (except for the choking of the saliva which sounds like coughing and the sneezing)... She can now lift her head up real high as compared to when she was younger. She loves to look around her especially for the CNY Deco hung in my living room. She can stare at it for 10minutes and smile/laugh at it! Her eyes follows moving objects very closely now and when we were out, in the taxi, she will stare outside at the moving trees, as if the trees really fly!

But thinking about all these cuteness in her, my heart became so ... SAD! She's going to be admitted to hospital tomorrow and then, have her operation on Monday. Pains and sufferings will follow her until a few months later.
First: She has to go without milk from 10am tomorrow. (Imagine how painful it has been to me to be on drip, needless to say her!)
Second: She has to bear the pain of a wound on her buttock and if operation complicates, at the left side of her tummy!
Then: She got to stand the pain of a 'metal stick' going into her anus for months to let the 'hole' be bigger

*Ouch its just too painful*
And these are the prayers for her:
Oh Lord,
1). Please bless that she will not cry too much / be too hungered during the days without milk.
2). Please bless that she will not be too painful and the sufferrings would be lessen for her.
3). She will not miss home & her lovely bed AND felt that Daddy and Mummy no longer love her.
4). She will not miss Mummy whenever I leave her bedside for lunch and dinner.
5). She will get well real soon, be a strong girl always, and start to play with Daddy and Mummy once again!
I guess all parents do understand the pains of YOU seeing your little ones going to suffer, or even cry! I bet my tears will flow when I see her in pain tomorrow, poor girl. (AND the worse thing now was that I can't kiss her as I am having a flu & cough!)

Here's some pictures of Nicole:

Nicole's Full-Month Party's A Success!

2009-02-23T12:50:00.007+08:00

HELLO! I'm back!

Being busy with my girl and SO LAZY TO SIGN IN TO POST!

KEKE!

Anyway, Nicole Chua is 1 month old today, 23Feb2009! We had a party with the relatives two days back, 21Feb2009, and she enjoyed it so much. For almost the whole afternoon, she didn't sleep at all and was opening her eye big and sharp, staring at all who came by her bed to see her or hug her! AND OF COURSE, I had a great day too, entertaining guests and YES, I'm so glad to see my ex-collegues at my house! So heart-warming!

AND of course, Nicole had lots of presents to receive from and I could simply say: NO MORE PRESENTS FOR HER ANYMORE, I GOT NO STORAGE (ESP CLOTHINGS!) ...

HAHA!

Having a girl at home had been my boost of energy and I believe she shall become the boost of my energy when I go back to work - MY ALARM CLOCK!
Of course, she usually deplete my energy at the end of the day! (She only sleeps after 12Midnight everyday!)

Looking at her is indeed a lovely thing and of course, I felt so great seeing her! I'll definitely bring her home everyday when I start work!

I really detest them seriously, thinking that they should control me since I'm their XX! They didn't do anything that could benefit me nor did they help out at all! Why should they think they should control me and I'm their XX! They don't deserve my respect and seriously saying, I detest them and so do XX and XX! Indeed, almost everybody would do so! Only words to describe them = SELFISH, 不知量力taking things for granted, HELPLESS, not even ASHAMED of themselves, ETC, ETC...

Tonnes of things to say about BUT people, I can't list them here! Let your imagination run wild if you doesn't want to ask me, and if you would like to, ask me, then ask me PRIVATELY, NOT by TAGGING!

Alright, switching to another topic... ...
I got an offer to switch XXX but I am hesistating whether to go or not. I would love to BUT in terms of MONEY, I am thinking! Hais, its a good opportunity to go away BUT I just feel guilty... Should I or not? Such a good opportunity!

Ok lar, any questions just shoot! I'm going for my lunch! BYEsss.........

BTW, Thanks for all who were here on 21Feb2009! AND for those coming on 27Feb2009, SeeYou and RMB, come empty-handed. No presents and if you would really like to give, them give something practical lar, like $... Hee (Kding)!

Alright people! SeeYou!
Hugs,
Selene

Edited:

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Happy News After Delivery!

2009-02-06T15:55:00.003+08:00

Hi!

I'm here to post!

One line only (super lame)!

Stop reading if u're feeling cold!

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Thanks to God

2009-02-03T12:32:00.004+08:00

With the birth of Nicole, my life changes.

Waking up in the middle of the night no longer feel strange to me, I'm getting used to it.

Seeing her been fed and watching her sleep made me feel like that best person in life and the best gift God has given me.

I adore Him like how I adore my girl and hubby!

Thinking through the past, God has given me many chances in my life. He has made my growing up healthy and strong, overcoming all difficulties, be it academically or with the family.

My life route took a turn when I'm 14 and God revived it for me, making me change for the better, acheiving my best academic results (making me proud) and learning that kinship is there for me.

I left God's embrace when I am 17 going 18, made a big mistake that is irreversible. But God never gave up on me, He twisted the fate and gave me a new life, with my new family, making me cherish more than ever. He was the one that made me feel the touch of this new world, seeing Nicole and Dear in my life forever. He planned everything for me and here I adores Him and I thank Him for all his givings!

I know it would feel weird for non-christians to view this post, but what is written is all my thoughts!

BTW, to all who's concerned, Nicole's feeling better now, and her jaundice level has dropped tremendously already.

Here's a picture of her (taken by her 舅舅):

Replies to TAGS

2009-01-30T16:59:00.002+08:00

Sorry people for not replying your tags.

Replies to tags:

YuLin: Yes, and I've given birth! Thanks anyway!

YinQing: Happy CNY too! I did breathe thru' labour okay, but not normal breathing! KEKE!

Deniece: Should have gone with you to K, didn't get to sing in the end! YUP, I cut my hair but I'm not in the right look to be put online, you can come and see urself if u want.

Amanda: I think the swimming session shall be when my girl turns 6 months to go then ;) and yup, such a coincidence!

LengChee: When u tagged, I have already given birth! It was really pain and more than u can imagine, but all is over now!

Sheryl: Hi Mummy! Thanks for tagging and wishing as well. Will link u and Happy CNY too!

XiuQi: Thanks!

Labour Story

2009-01-30T14:38:00.005+08:00

Chua Jia En, Nicole was born on the 23rd January 2009, at 10.06AM.
She weighs 3.165KG and measures 47CM at birth.

The birth process starts on 22nd January 2009

Around 2PM
-Went to Singapore Post to mail a parcel to my Dad (in UK) with DH and my Mum.
-Had lunch at Toa Payoh Food Court before heading to KKH for appointment.

4.30PM
-DH and I reached KKH and headed for the clinic.
-Waited for the routine test FOR VERY LONG and then went in to see the doctor.
-First question from the doctor: "How's the baby's moving?"
-I answered: "She did move everyday but the movement was decreasing."
-Doctor next words: "I would suggest that you go for induction since your baby's full term"
-He checked the baby's heartbeat and MY CERVIX OPENING! (It was PAINFUL!)
-He didn't tell me whether my cervic was dilated, he just file me in for admission.
-DH and I agreed with the doctor since he says he saw a case whereby and baby was dead in mummy's womb at 38weeks gestation. (BUT WE WERE BOTH SHOCKED AND STUNNED THAT BABY WOULD BE OUT AGAIN

6.15PM
-Done with the admission procedures and was taken to the ward for a rest.
-DH went to buy dinner for himself and Twister Fries for me before I can't eat it again
-Midwife came and checked my contractions. (NO CONTRACTIONS YET)

8PM
-Was brought to the delivery suite to administer the induction tablet in for the cervix to open
-Watched news with DH there

10PM
-Went back to ward
-Unpack a bit of my hospital bag that my mum brought here for me
-Sent the both of them home and went to rest

11.15PM
-Contractions came and without any experience of that, it was PAINFUL!
-Called DH every now and then to complain that the nurses wouldn't attend to me
-Kept pressing the bell for the nurse but nurse only ask me to bear with it unless I want pain relief. (Which I insisted not to have them)

1AM - 4AM
-Contractions on and off that I couldn't sleep, no radio-phone with me some more!

4AM - 5.30AM
-Finally slept!

5.30AM - 8AM
-Contractions again but as I've gotten used to it, it was bearable

8AM
-Doctor came for rounds and she checked my cervix (AGAIN). It was 5CM dilated!!!
-Called DH while the nurses arranged me to go to the delivery suite

8.15AM
-Reached delivery suite.
-Nurse did the usual administration, taught me how to use the laughing gas in case I need it.
-She asked me if I would like to have epidural and I insisted NO!
-Started to put the drip for me! (2 Nurses trying to locate my vessels for the needles to be in!)
-I screamed when she said she wanted to break my water bag!

9.15AM
-Clinician Nurse broke my water bag! The process of breaking was TRAUMATIC! I kept telling her it was painful and she said NO!
-Was relieved when the water bag finally broke, the fluid was warm and SHIOK!

9.30AM
-DH finally arrived!
-Contractions were VERY VERY PAINFUL!
-Nurse made me use the laughing gas and THANK GOODNESS I used, it did help a little!
-DH was shocked by my paining that he couldn't speak

9.45AM
-Nurse checked my cervix again and it was 6CM-7CM dilated!
-I was in pain and squeezing DH's hand.
-Laughing Gas no matter help, I was too tensed
-Nurses were scolding me to stop screaming and crying!

9.50AM
-Nurses started to clear my urine (It was painful!).
-All I was saying were: "Can I push?"
-All the nurses were saying were: "No! No! No!"

9.55AM
-My cervix was 8CM and the nurses decided to cut it as baby's head was near already

9.55AM - 10.05AM
-I only knew I was pushing and pushing.
-The nurses only told me LAST ONE but it was never the last!

10.06AM
-I felt a large gush of warm fluid flowing over me and the stretching of the baby's head was gone!
-Nurses says my baby was out!
-She held to me and asked me: "Can see? Girl or Boy?"
-While being in midst, I told her girl right?
-AND I 'FAINTED' (too tired to move)

10.10AM onwards
-The doctor stitched my wound while DH was crying her
-She was crying non-stop and the nurses were telling me she's hungry
-Half an hour later then did the doctor stitched finish (it was painful ok!)
-Nurses helped me latch her on for feeding and she drank beside me!
-I felt so blessed to see her

Additional Notes...
All thanks to the two encouraging nurses for the professional services they provided. Although they were fierce in scolding me for crying and screaming, but I'm glad they did so! Thanks for making my first labour experience so sucessful!

CHUA JIA EN, NICOLE was blessed by God with an additional finger on her left hand (same as her mummy and granny) and a little lump of skin near her ears (non-harmful) CHUA JIA EN, NICOLE had her anus too close to her vaginal (same with her mummy) but it isn't a serious problem. Just that she has to undergo a small operation to pull the anus apart. (Non-risky) CHUA JIA EN, NICOLE was born with 3.165KG of weight, measures 47CM, and had her head circumference at 35CM at birth! CHUA JIA EN, NICOLE is perfectly fine and has been discharged on the 25January2009 for reunion dinner with MUMMY, DADDY, 阿公, 阿嬷, 婆婆, 舅舅 and 叔叔!

Updates! Awaiting Nicole Chua!

2009-01-20T16:26:00.003+08:00

I'm lazy and tired of doing work, hence, found myself some time to blog here. The blog is rather dead I know... HAHAs

Finally found the time to do some spring-cleaning on Sunday. Not really done with all but most of it are settled (such as windows and fans). Left with the tall lightings that are un-reachable..

Also managed to have Nicole's clothes, diapers, pants, and blankets washed nicely and put into the wardrobe. Packed our hospital bag too and had it placed at a convenient place. Took out some bottles that she might need to use and as well as those accessories. I shall do the strerilising and everything when I start my maternity leave SOON!

Yeah, talking about maternity leave... I would be starting that this Saturday if everything goes right (which means I've done all the handing over thingySss). It would be quite bored at home but YUP, I guess that it would be good in some ways as well. Hope my baby princess wouldn't delay her due date and made me waste my leave.

Yes, Nicole's going to pop out in less than 3weeks time (i.e. 2Weeks and 2 Days' time). I'm reallY getting paranoid over it and YEAH, scared of labour and baby care... Confinement period would be a torture for me as I wouldn't be able to eat what I want! Daddy and I were still looking over the confinement food recipes my mum bought as a reference. He was telling me how nice this and that food would be and my expression goes... (DOts. Dots. DOts.)

Oh Yar, I cut my hair too, last Thursday! I'm in the office now and had no bluetooth device to post the photos up. U guys shall WAIT to see this short hairstyle of mine! Its messy but tidier den before!

Got to go back to work! Bye people and look forward to seeing little Nicole Chua!
Hugs,
Selene

After a long time...

2009-01-14T16:17:00.002+08:00

Hey people, I'm so sorry to have gone missing for the past few weeks (or rather it felt like it has been weeks)

My office shifted and the internet wasn't up until yesterday, although I had internet connected at home... (Just too lazy to surf the net when I get home...)

Time goes by fast and it will be just another maximum of 3weeks for little Nicole to meet the world. Me? I really don't know... I might seem relaxed and NON-paranoid to all but right there inside me, I'm getting abit paranoid. I'm just too worried she might arrive early and thus caused me not able to finish up my work on hand to hand over and that she might come so early that I've not prepared everything for her yet!

Mentioning about her things, she has tons of clothes which I really felt like banging the wall with my head.. (So please people, no more clothes for her, its more than enough and now I'm considering of buying a 'wardrobe' for her)

Still somemore shopping for her to be done and I'm deciding to do it on Saturday... CNY Stuffs are not shopped yet... The house's in a big mess with lots of clean-ups to do and I'm gonna do them on Sunday, going to make it sparkling clean again before little Nicole comes out!

$ $ $... Haix, lots of bills to pay off and I'm really afraid of the electricity bill coming soon! I'll be sure to cut off handphone bills and take my words that on the 1st of May, I will CANCEL my SINGTEL line! So bothered by the amount they are charging!

Alright...

One more exciting thing IS THAT: Nicole loves Twister Fries.. She must have a pack everyday if not she will go crazy! Its just too nice and all thanks to McDonalds for having that! I've been waiting for a year just for it and I shall grab it before it vanish again for another year soon! Its really expensive considering that the small pack is $2.45 and the large is $2.95! I could buy rice for that, but I rather save on others than to save from this! I've been waiting for A YEAR okay!

Hmmm, being busy too, rushing projects to meet with deadlines plus Dar has been sick on and off. He just had an operation to have the gall stone in his gall bladder removed and has not fully recovered from it yet. My house is like having SICK PEOPLE ROAMING AROUND, including myself, 9Months plus pregnant!
*Just hope for Saturday to come before I redeem freedom!*

I miss my mum's soup and I shall go back frequently for that soon! Lotus soup with peanuts are most missed!

Chinese New Year's coming and its gonna be real busy! Expenses going to go up with that and of course, if Nicole isn't out by then, I got to answer lots of questions from relatives!

Alright people and sorry for those who tagged, I'm so lazy to reply... Thanks for those who's concerned and muacks to those who loved!

Take Care everybody and if you wished to be notified upon Nicole's arrival (although some of you would have 'automated notification'), please let me know so that I could get hubby to send out sms the next moment Nicole's arrive!

BYE & HUGS
Selene!!

SAD

2008-12-19T10:41:00.002+08:00

I wanted to post something DEMORALISING earlier on, but the phone in the office kept ringing and I have no mood for that anymore.

Just happened to felt so sad after reading somebody's blog. They are doing well and I seemed like a disgrace to them. I felt like I'm being looked down or on a different island with them. They used to adore me and one time, I seemed to have blended into their life. But all were gone now.

When can I be like them, being so successful in life?

AND now I sort of regret for this foolish act. I shouldn't have let it happened, and now it has destroyed all my dreams and passion. How I yearn to be an accountant or something related. But yet, all I have now is only an O'levels certificate. YES, you may say, that I did well for my O'
levels. But in years to go, the certificate would not hold any significant value anymore!

Life still have to go on, but I'm grateful, at least, that I have people around me who gave a helping hand. I do still feel regretful and SAD for not being able to complete my studies, but yet, like what I have planned, studies would still be a 'sooner or later' kind of thing.

Alright, enough for the EMO-ing and I've got to get back to work NOW before time run out again!

---SELENE---

RECAPS

2008-12-16T10:02:00.002+08:00

It has been half a month since I last updated. Well, I'm just plainly busy with work; rushing projects everyday that I forgot all about updating.

Here's a quick recap, notice to you people on what have I been doing...
Basically, what I do on weekdays would be work and then I go back home for sleep. If not, I'll be cleaning up at my new YCK flat or buying items from IKEA and so on. Simply saying, I'm lacked of sleep now and I definitely look forward to a good night's (or rather a good day's) sleep! Needless to say, weekends aren't for me to enjoy as well. I went to the new house almost every saturdays and sundays with my mum (and with hubby if he's not working) to clean up. My new house is almost done up, with those windows left to clean up and tiles to wipe up (including and installing of my bedroom wardrobe and kitchen cabinet)...
The furnitures and electrical appliances would be coming in on the Saturday, 20th and WE WOULD BE MOVING IN ON THE 21st! Quite a lot, yet to be done and bought, but we are almost there... I'm really looking forward!

AND YES! I'm going to spend the Christmas there. We have somewhat came to the idea of having a nice dinner at home on the eve before going to Church and then spending a day at home, watching DVDs (movies) to destress with snacks coming on and such! I hope we would both agree to that and make it real as it would be real cool!

Alright, talking back about work, it wasn't HECTIC but just packed. No extra time for me to do other things except for the projects. AND our office would be shifting to KATONG MALL soon. For people who don't know, its near Parkway Parade and although I have a direct bus (4 or 5 blocks away from my new flat) but the journey is around 64MINS (ie 1Hour 4Mins) which means that including walking and the waiting for the bus, it would take me around 1 and a half Hour!!! (That's equals to early wake-up as well!)

Anyway, yesterday was my dad's 55th birthday. As usual, we didn't celebrate or anything. This time it was because he wasn't in town. (He's in England by the way)... Reminded me of the good old days like when they celebrated my birthday with my favourite Bengawan Solo Pandan Kaya Cake at home. The photo, I still kept it, and it was really heartwarming. It's like it happens to MOST people, as we grow up, we tend to forget doing those heartwarming things... I miss them truly but I knew we had each other in our own heart and we mind them! That's enough, I suppose.

Alright, it's time to get back to real business and I've got to rush the projects already! Bye people and GOD BLESS...

P/S: Nicole is well by the way... She's being active at times and INactive at times... She can now recognise our voices and whenever I sing to her she will kick and I like playing with her when her legs or arms sticked out! Its fun, really... I love my Nicole!

Hugs,
Selene

Updates

2008-11-28T11:13:00.003+08:00

Long Time since updating.
I've been visiting my blog everyday but yet, lazy to update or reply tags.

I've been quite tired @ work recently; finishing everything to the deadlines. Hubby is nowhere better than me, furthermore, he's going back to Woodlands Mart for work from today onwards. (JiaYous Bahs!!)

My aunts and us went to the new flat on Wednesday for them to have a look. A short trip indeed and there's nothing to elaborate from there. On the way home after a short dinner @ AMK, I experienced the first ever Bracton Hicks Contractions. It was terrible!! I was 'yelling' on the bus and throughout, it was really painful. Things got better after reaching home. It's so scary and it some how gave me the feeling of "LABOUR"...

Anyway, I just had Big Breakfast from Mcds for my breakfast! YUMMY! I just love Hashbrowns and Sausages!

Replies to tags:
To Deniece - YUP, you have the full responsibility to teach her that (btw don't psycho her...) KEKE! And, yup meet up soon!

BYE People, BTW I'm 30th week pregnant now! Going to deliver in 2months plus' time! So anxious!

Hugs,
Selene

Personality Test

2008-11-19T18:04:00.002+08:00

Wow, You're a Border Collie!
Border Collie
The Achiever
You've heard about this "second-place ribbon" thing, but really don’t ever plan on getting one. Not a chance. Highly competitive, you keep one eye on the Best in Show prize and one on the rest of the pack, making sure you're always at least one paw ahead. You love your family and enjoy the company you keep, but you'd trade all of them in a heartbeat for a corner office and some meaty stock options. When you're not licking your professional coat, naked skydiving and triathlons keep you entertained. You idolize the top dog and will do so until you sniff out a way to take over the company and do a little "restructuring."

FAMOUS BORDER COLLIES: Bill Gates, Bill Clinton, Martha Stewart, Barbara Walters
LIKELY PROFESSIONS: CEO, Banker, Manager, Astronaut

Finally Got The Flat!

2008-11-19T11:59:00.003+08:00

I finally realised I've not been updating as often as I do usually.

Went for check-up plus ultrasound yesterday and I would say that I'm both worried and yet, happy after the check-up. Reason being for being happy was that I saw the face of Nicole. So adorable, although its never clear but I can roughly imagine how she'll look like. Also, the sonagrapher & my gynae said my placenta is no longer low and YUP, that calls for a celebration. My source of worried-ness comes from knowing that Nicole's head is down already. That really made me anxious because that's the position of 'giving-birth'... Her daddy still say maybe she will comes out as pre-matured! (Which made me wanna slap him! - HAHA)

Alright! Now talking about other things...

Friday's the day I've been waiting for. Its time for the collection of our new house keys! The day I've been anticipating since 'dont noe' when... However, problems coming with it would be havoc! How are we gonna renovate the house now is a problem. But it seems like we could only do simple little things to it. HAIS! (But at least there's a shelter under our heads!)

Saturday would be rather tiring as we're going for hubby's cousin's wedding... Day and night event... SO TIRED thinking about it! But thinking about going out instead of staying home would made me smile a little bit! *dots*

AND, I've not gone swimming yet!! *arghs* It had been ages since I wanted to swim and with Nicole's head down now, I don't think I would be able to swim at all. Maybe just soaking myself in the water... SO SAD!

Alright... I suppose I'm just too tired and LAZY to blog about happenings. Life's being rather great for me and Nicole and I are doing fine... Just that I'm so afraid and anxious of the big day to come; when Nicole would be born into this world...

Later gonna meet Nicole's MeiNu GodMama for lunch... HAHAs, she bought things for Nicole and Yar, THANKS LOADS!

GTG,
Hugs,
SELENE

Sad Story

2008-11-13T11:06:00.002+08:00

I was reading a blog of a mummy that I knew from a forum. The blog was solely dedicated to her little daughter and what I read made my nose turn sour and my eyes red.

I always thought this mummy was just like me, a teenage mum, but I knew I was wrong after reading her blog. She was pregnant in 2004 and lost her first son (for what ever reason) unborn. After 3 long years (or so), she was pregnant with a pair of twins. For many parents, it would be so much a delight to know that you/your wife was pregnant with twins (moreover its a girl and a boy).
However, fate twisted and the twin brother was born stillborn with the head still 'stucked' in the mum's womb. That caused the parents to lose, yet, another son. However, the daughter gave them a hope by continue-ing to grow well despite the many complications.
Finally, the day had arrived. This little girl was delivered throught emergency C-section due to some complications. But the prematured girl was to be kept in an incubator.
Fate twisted again and this girl, lived for 2 days and lost her battle in life like her brothers too.

How saddening can any other stories be compared to this one? How pain-strikened would their parents be? I knew a parent that lost her baby before 3 months pregnant, she was already so sad and pain-strikening... How could this parents of the three lovely babies (that could be lively jumping about if nothing happens to them) survive throught all these pains?

I really can't imagine me in her shoes, losing a baby you have been bearing with for so many months. All I could wish for now, was for Nicole to live a healthy life in replacement of the 3 little babies that doesn't have a chance to learn more on Earth.

And I was really glad that this mum, having lost three of her precious, did not isolate herself so that long and have even completed her diploma some time ago and have a wonderful career ahead of her! I supposed that's what God has planned for her and her husband. And I sincerely hope for a well-being in the future and that they would have a child of their own! Kudos to her and YUP, I'm really touched by this story except that I can never understand the true pains in their hearts (And I don't wish to either!)...

All thanks to her that I learned that I would need to cherish every moment with my girl and also thanks to her that now I will never regret keeping the baby instead of aborting it.

*Nicole has to stay strong and Mummy will be there with you forever! Love my precious!*

Hugs,
Selene

Blissful...

2008-11-08T21:27:00.002+08:00

Finished watching 法政先锋II after days of watching (in the office and at home). The show was FABULOUS and no other doubts about how much credits should go to the script-writer and the actor/actress!

Not only do I love the way they work to solve cases, especially when they use scientific proofs to solve them, I love the way the script-writer elaborate and write on the love that is involved.

That would say that my love for 欧阳震华 never changes... But surprisingly, I love the character of 马国因(Mdm Ma) and the love she shared with Ivan... SO LOVING UNTIL THE LAST MOMENT....
(Of course how a tactic lover is Ivan! I just hope my prince charming can be as loving and 'tactic' as him!)

法政先锋2 ROCKS (the first serial also lar, but the memory of the second one is more fresh, hence BETTER!) How I wish there would be a third version but seems that all the main male characters (Tim, Sam, and Ivan) has a matching pair already... There shouldn't be anymore to elaborate on...!

HAHAs... Enough of the 'show PRAISiNG'! And now, I need another show to kill my boredom.. Hmmm... Probably not now bah, as I have to start rushing my projects soon when I start work on Monday! HAHAs!

Alright, just some updates:

I'm doing perfectly fine, except that I just couldn't stop myself from eating nowadays. I'm already 27weeks plus pregnant and this coming Thursday would mark my 28th week (7th month) of pregnancy! How time flies... (When I find out about the pregnancy, I'm only 2 months.. and now 5 months have passed!)

It will be another 3 months to the day I step into motherhood, how exciting and anxious I am! The baby's alright (I suppose).. My next check-up would be on the 18th and YUP, how anxious I am into going for the ultrasound again... AND of course, checking with the gynae about my low placenta problem, the down symdrome test, and the reducing baby's fetal movements... Just hope that everything would be fine and I believe my girl would be fine too!

Alright, about my work.. It has been manageable and YUP, I get lots of freedom in the office, only that at times I got to do some editing (my projects) which I enjoy too!

The day before yesterday, hubby bought me a new pyjamas dress! Its cheap but something I adores... SNOOPY! I love it so much that I wore it the next day! (Muacks lao gong!) He has been rather tired, and with the pains his stomach contributes to him, he still appears fine infront of me, to adore me and NICOLE! How lovely I felt...
Today's the eighth and that marks 3months of our marriage... I admit that since the day we knew I'm pregnant and till then when we decided to keep the baby till now, he has been giving in alot to me, respecting my every decision. Without much doubt, the kind of understanding he gave me when I throw tantrum and when I make noises due to emotioonal issues, the memories' really sweet... (L)

The arrival of 21st also make me anticipate more... That would MOST PROBABLY be the day when we can collect the keys to our new house and YUP, if everything goes right, we would be spending our christmas there! How I anticipate it and how I wish this christmas eve would be a quiet and loving night of enjoyment for us in that lovely nest of ours... AND of course for each and every christmas ahead of us, it will be forever blissful...

Life's not perfect, I believe... But I thank god for giving me chances to decide and do what I want.. Although the sacrifices wasn't small but the happiness that comes with it is so 'overwhelming'... I cherish each and every moment in the future and YUP, I wont give up my passions too!

Love,Selene...

Sad

2008-11-02T18:51:00.002+08:00

HEY! I'm loading 法政先锋II now, so HERE's my entry!

I have been really very emotional recently, getting TRIGGERED over things that happened around me. But it really wasn't in my control area... (it is normal for pregnant ladies OKAY!)

However, what really upsetted me is when the person that I wish to be there for me when I throw tantrum, be there to understand and provide my needs seems to find me a nuisance. If not he/she would be too busy with his/her own stuffs that he/she wouldn't want to sacrifice it for me!

It was really disappointing for me but yet I was at home the whole day, making me think of it all the time. It was saddening and I'm somewhat afraid that these things would affect the baby and my emotional affection that would lead to serious cases...

Hence, I believe and I'm glad I did the right thing; to keep my mind off from thinking about all that unhappiness...

Thus, came this show that I've been longing to watch but yet have no time or NO EXTRA 精神 to watch...

It was indeed a nice show and YUP, I really enjoyed it... 欧阳震华's really damn COOL and I'm falling in love with him, of course with the show also lar!

;)

Anyway people, if you guys wanna know what happens, its best to not ask me (which is best not to know)... Just need to know I'm unhappy can liao and accompany me for a weekend break this coming weekends... (Remember I'm into thriving OKAY?)

To Amanda:
YEAH, swimming in SAFRA is a good ideal but can we access it? I have no SAFRA card wor, although my hubby has passion card which I'm not sure if we can access... Swimming next Sunday den? HAHAs, I'm despo for a swim and yet no one's there to swim with me... Afraid to go alone and to community pools because of my bulging belly... HAHAs...

To All:
Console me bah! HAHAs (Do I sound desperate? HEEs, let it be if its den!) KEKEs...
Thanks in advance wor... ;)
AND everybody take care YAR?
MUACKS!
[k]

Hugs,
Selene

....

2008-10-30T17:03:00.002+08:00

HELLO!

WOW! Its been LONG since I've updated!

Been busy nowadays AND LAZY to blog too...

Had been great if anybody would like to know!

Working to deadlines all day in office, bothered by an uncle that is really insensible in the way that he tells me every single thing, related or not related to me!

Had been eating well, except that I really try to thrive on buying extra food to kill my cravings...

I'm so looking forward to 5thFeb2009 as it draws really near. Nicole has been in my tummy for 26WEEKS and she still has another 13WEEKS & 6DAYS to go... Just can't wait to see her out in this wonderful world of exposures!
Had been feeling tightness around my growing belly recently and backaches are killing me everyday too...

So glad last Sunday that my Aunt bought new plates for my new home! Spending a bomb and I really feel guilty for making her spend money on me... HOW I WISH I COULD PAY HER BACK!

Financially very tight recently. SO GALS, you know every single reason why I turn you all down to every shopping and K session you gals invited me to? I'm rather PENNILESS NOW...

Just got a news from Hubby that our friend gonna meet us at AMK to buy groceries and to eat dinner (hopefully her treat!)

OH, How I miss my sleeping days... As said in MSN, I really need to wake up on time! Had been oversleeping these days even with alarms set! OMGosh... HELP!!

HAHAs... Got to get back to work already! BYEBYE!

Muacks,
Selene

Unhappy Happenings...

2008-10-22T10:14:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was great for me initially but things turned 'darker' in the night. I seems to have roller-coaster kind of emotions filling everyday, getting paranoid by every single thing, be it BIG or SMALL!

SHOPPING!

2008-10-20T10:08:00.002+08:00

LONG TIME NO BLOG!

Time's flying and it came to me as a surprise yesterday that I'm already in my 6th month of pregnancy and it will be another 3-4 more months to my due date!

Anticipation is definitely there but most of it, now, are fears about childbirth. The stories I heard from mummies forums about the pain and the service KKH is going to deliver to me scares me off. But there's really nothing much that I can do but to be mentally prepared! So anticipating!

These two days was havoc for me because Dar finally had his weekends off and YUP, we were around Singapore trying to 'racky' for our furnitures, and renovations.
We were at Ikea Tampines around Saturday noon, after getting the baby cot @ Hougang in the morning. Seriously speaking, that building was way way bigger than the Alexandra one and of course, there's more items as compared! We found the dining table, TV console, coffee table, side table, shoe rack, and bed to purchase! (Saw a sofa too but changed our minds!)
After Ikea, we went to Pasir Ris for a chalet of Dar's collegue, chatted and HOMED!
Sunday was a more relaxing day, we took our beauty sleep (mine till 11am and Dar's till 11.30am). After which, went down to meet a contractor our housing agent recommended, told him what we want to do and now's still pending for his quotations. After which, we went down to Jurong's Furniture Warehouse, saw nothing, and walked to Novena's showroom. Saw a sofa at the price of $299+$55(DeliveryCharge). It is fabric and L-shaped 3-seater! Bigger and cheaper than the one we saw at Ikea. Dar says he like it and the seats are cosy! So, we bought it! HAHAs!
So, that spirited us and we went to IMM for our dinner PLUS D.I.Y HomeFix to choose the colour for our flat's painting!
(& I pulled Dar into one of the baby's shop and view some items! Was so tempted to buy but AGAIN I was pulled out of the shop!)

It has been really long since I've shopped and I admit that my legs are getting weaker and weaker. So, no more retail theraphy for me anymore!
(GIrls, remember not to ask me out for retail anymore!)

HAHAs, I dont have anymore things to blog liaox! BUAIsss!

-Selene :)

PriSchFever

2008-10-15T09:59:00.002+08:00

Primary school fever seems to be coming back! All thanks to Tiffany that I reconnected to some really 'lost-contacted' friends!
Memories' flowing back and I wonders how's all my primary school friends out there had been. Definitely, other than the last 2 years in Secondary School, Primary school days are ones that I missed and I cherished most! That's what people usually calls: FIRST LOVE! This first love aren't ordinary first love of a boy and a girl, but its of a bunch of friends! I miss them lots!

Some new links to my friends connection now!

[for Tiffany]:
I'm lazy to tag LARh, Plus had so much to tag (Doesn't want to spam my own board)! It's been real long since we contacted (needless to say met) each other! I knew you during P3 or P4 right? As prefects? I still remembers that it was FRIENDSHIP BANDS FEVER when we met and then you still made friendship bands for me. HAHAs! I hope you do remember? - The really thick one with (i think) 8 threads?
*Memories fonded*
I still remembers our gatherings in canteens and so on.. Although the memories are really BLURRED! But seriously saying, I'm so surprised to hear from you and especially when you managed to recognise/remembers me!
*winks*
How did you get the links to my blog siax? I really am figuring out because the only primary school friends that I really kept contact with and has a blog would be Reuben Ho ... But he never link people one lei!
*puzzled*
HAHAs...
Anyway, MISSES for all of you and YEAH~ Keep in contact!

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It's been real long since I updated yar?

Done with the transaction for my flat liao! We have enough to finance the flat! ~ HURRAY~

However, that doesn't mark the end of all troubles. We still have to find ways to finance our Renovations, Furnitures, and Electrical Appliances...

*sighs*

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TIRED
LAZY
TIRED
LAZY
TIRED
LAZY
----------I'm so lazy to type... My eyes' closing! Gotten get my stuffs done first liao!

TADA.
Hugs,
Selene

UNNAMED POST

2008-10-07T17:11:00.003+08:00

FINALLY, I have time to surf the net from office!
(that's only because I have finished a project)

I'm so proud of myself!
I managed to do up a photo montage when I just had approximately 4hours of learning on Sat. AND the great thing was that I used 2 totally unfamiliar softwares, Sony Vegas & Photoshop 3, to do it.
ANOTHER great thing was that Boss praises me for doing an excellent job as he assumed that I would make a mess out of it!
(but it wasn't easy; especially for the panelling of mapping!)
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Von, proud of me yah? I remembered it was you who exposed me to editing using Windows Movie Maker; how handicapped it was!

HOWEVER, good things doesn't happen one after another!
I have to finish up around 6 or 8 filters by next THURSDAY; 16Oct! That wasn't tedious but it definitely mark the end of my ENJOYABLE LIFE in the office as a tele-operator.
*sobsssss*
AND I gonna start working on it soon from TML onwards!
*wails*

COUNTING DOWN TO 8OCT2008; TML
Its the 8th again and Happy 2nd Month to the CHUAs, although we'll be both working and striving through for the days ahead. I love you my Dar Dar!
*hees*
Thanks for making sacrifices like coming to my place almost everyday to accompany ME and NICOLE! You will forever be my love; MY DEEPEST LOVE!
*muacks*
Shall give you one more *muacks* if I see you tonight
;)
*laughs*

AND

Never forgetting the birthday of my BESTIE; AH QIN! (Although I don't think she would visit my blog)

A friendship for 10 years, although these few years we had not been keeping close contacts. She's a wonderful friend that I kept close in my hearts. Many people passed by my life now and then, but this friend would be the one that I cherish. Enjoyed her *duh* kind of remarks and her company.

A really Happy 20th Birthday to you! AND I really hoped that all things will go well for you; your studies, your relationship, your family, and everything! Keep the great smile continuosly on and that's what that makes you AMAZING!

And if you really happened to see this post (which I don't think so), sorry for not informing you on my marriage and everything, including my leaving school thingy. Hope to see you real soon and meeting out one day yar?

*grims*

UPDATES

Went to IKEA with my mum on Sunday after Dar Dar goes off to work. AND I realise I can't do LONG SHOPPING ANYMORE; my legs ache! Saw the wide range of D.I.Y items IKEA offers and that gave me ideas for my new flat. I shall share my ideas with Dar Dar and see whether he wants to get most of the stuffs @ IKEA. (Plus its damn cheap somemore). After walking lostly for around a few hours, we (or rather I) was exhausted and YEAH, left for home.

Went over to Alexandra Hawker for dinner before hopping onto the bus. The Char Kway Teow was so little for $2.50! and the Punggol Satay was so expensive; 50Cents each! BUT the GreenAppleJuice was fabulous and HUGE!

Whilst on the bus, we went pass Little India and as usual, the streets were CROWDED (I mean real crowded okay!) I really think the foot path should be widened and be easily differentiated with the roads! HOW CAN THEY 'mistaken' BUS ROUTES or ROADS for their footpaths, making the whole traffic jam like *duh*?

Went home and managed to watch SUPERBAND! 三月 was abit off their standards that night, BUT it was great afterall what! At least better than the two winning teams that got into the SUPERFINALS! Moreover, how could 异世界 not get into the SUPERFINALS too? 100% Voting is really not advisable for these kind of matches what! So damn unfair when even the judges words doesn't help them!

I HATE CELEBRITIES that DEPEND solely on 人气 and NOT 能力!!!!

*shoo* to those that I mentioned!

HOWEVER, 兔子's performance and re-styling of 听袁惟仁弹吉他 was SUPERB and FABULOUS!

Nothing much for YTD except that I made Dar Dar wait for me to finish work before rushing home to accompany him for dinner!

*muacks*

AND for TODAY... ... UNLUCKY...

Went out for lunch @ 3PM, walked to OCBC ATM to withdraw as I have total NO CASH in my wallet anymore. BUT the machine was DOWN and pathetic-ly, Lavender has only 1 OCBC ATM. Thus, went to Bugis to WITHDRAW MONEY!

*duh*

*HAIs*

AND ate LJS!

AND NOW... ITS TIME TO WAIT FOR 'KNOCKING-OFF' @ 6PM!!!!!

Hugs,

Selene

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Replies to TAGS:

Deniece:

I can't read your blog FOR GOODNESS SAKE, THE MOZILLA IS GIVING PROB IN MY OFFICE; so IS IE!

YuLin:

HAHAs! Definitely YOU, great that you know its you AND, You get drunk by Q but not Vodka? What kind of Vodka did you drink seh? AND of course Lau Pa Sat again! YEAH!

VOMITTING is never FUN

2008-10-03T13:30:00.002+08:00

O0-Mm-Gg....

I think I'm gonna FAINT soon. Vomitted 2 times since morning and its real disgusting, especially the second time. AND now with the food gone and the stomach's empty, I AM HUNGRY! But yet, I've got no appetite to eat at all, when the stenching smell of the vomit half an hour ago is still in the throat and my nostrils! HOW SEH? Its so terrible to vomit.

Went out with the girls (i.e. Deniece, YinQing, YuLin) after work yesterday. I have to WATCH THEM DRINK ALCOHOL and me, RIBENA! The one that claims to be able to withhold the alcohol strength WENT DRUNK FIRST (u know who u r lar) And the other two wasn't that great off either.
*They should let me drink what, then can reduce the amount of alcoholic level*
AND was damn funny when YuLin collasped! You got to train on your alcoholic level alright!

Had a great time out, especially when it came to the end of alcohol time and the arrival of MAKAN time @ Lau Pa Sat! My Nicole was damn hungry alright?
Chatted with them and knew more.
Deniece, I will remember your teachings that you are not *******... OKAY? And I will let Von know of the story of 'I AM ATTACHED' thingy if I happen to meet her OKAY?
Oh Yar Deniece, I forgot to ask you one question also? Why are you so anxious about J****R and kept on asking about him from YinQing? Is that an indication that my Nicole will soon have a God-Daddy ready? Don't forget to tell me OKAY!

So exhausted when I reached home YTD. Went literally BLANK when I stepped into the house! Dropped into bed and I slept immediately! AND I couldn't wake up the next day morning! (Which is this morning)

Oh Yar, I forgot to mention that my sandals went problematic yesterday. After rushing home at around 3PM during lunch break, I left home with a rather fine sandals. Upon reaching the MRT station, I felt something strange happening to my sandals. AND when I was working with my project in the office, IT BREAKS!
So, I had no choice but to paste tapes and tapes all around the sandals. So irritated and when I reach Raffles Place, I got a new pair of sandals at only $19.90! Such cheap sandals selling in Raffles Place (i.e. UOB's DMK)
Rather unlucky and now, I believe that things like this always happened at crucial timings. AND this is no longer the first time!

Life's bad. I am using the other computer in the office to surf net now as my computer was down for internet surfing. (SO SAD) In one week's time, I'm gonna be doing the processing of my new flat and YUP, I'm so damn anticipating for that.

Got to go and BUY FOOD for my Nicole before she made me vomit again! Take care people!

Girls, I had time with you yesterday evening! More outings soon and REMEMBER to mix Raspberry with Ribena!
Von, swimming outing soon OKAYS? After I settle my house thingy and you shall accompany me to get my new swimming costume!

Hugss,
Selene
*loves Nicole*

Just Being Random!

2008-09-30T12:22:00.002+08:00

Harlow People!

New blogskin and I hope it's kind of 'nice' for all. My previous skins are usually BLACK in colour but this time, I've decided to do it WHITE. I had a hard time editing the measurements and positions, so PLS enjoy.

It's rather of a NEW job scope for me that I now have no time to idle and play around in the office. I was so tired after work @ 7PM that I nearly SLEEP while WALKING. Went to Bugis to meet hubby to get some baby gifts from Michelle. I felt so great when I saw the baby clothings, although most of them are HOME-WEARs. But it just made me feel great looking at the clothings.
Now I have FREE BATHTUB for my girl, FREE STERILISER, FREE PORTABLE 摇篮
*Great Thanks to those that provides =X*,
and so now, I just need her COT, PRAM, SHAKER, one more 摇篮，CARRIER, SLING, and her MILK BOTTLES and STUFFS... Planning to get them after DECEMBER =X

AND my hair's been super dry recently that I think I gonna die soon with my hair like this. All thanks to my creative mum for buying that weird brand of shampoo which made me have no choice but to use it. Planning to change a type of shampoo soon!

Sometimes I really feel that my baby's malnutritious. I'm 5-months now and still. the tummy's small like hell. BUT the doctors didn't say that it was problematic afterall. Wondering whether to believe doctors or not?
Apparently, the Down Syndrome Test which I took seems safe and should be in the LOW RISK range since I didn't receive any bad news after so many days. I suppose it is a sign of celebration?

I seriously looked forward to the completion of my flat procedures so that, in no time, I'll be able to get my new house soon.
*Thats my dream house OKAY?*
I so damn EAGER about the arrival of the date!

*scream*
WONDER WHY?
because there's a cockroach in the kitchen YTD! Although I didn't see it, but it gave me tha freaking feel and phobia again!

I'm so tired and I gonna rest before striving for work again!
*yawns*
BBYE~

*waves*
Selene

TIRED

2008-09-24T14:46:00.002+08:00

FINALLY, I've finished the whole serial of 《溏心风暴II之家好月圆》already! It's really a very fabulous and worthy show to watch. All the deeds of GREED really are well filmed and played. It truely shows how GREED made a person do things that aren't imaginable. NICE!

AND now I'm back to "Nothing to do" again. Can someone tell me to watch some shows that are worthy of my watch? *PLEASE: NO ANIME / CARTOON!* HAHAs.

TML will be my check-up. I got to go through blood test tomorrow and ARRGHHS, I hate it!

I'm super sleepy and tired now. Just had McWings Meal for lunch and now my throat hurts a little. My eyes' closing and I'm physically tired.

TIRED. SHALL GO ONLINE SHOPPING ARND!

BBYE!

To God only

2008-09-23T13:28:00.003+08:00

I find life a little weird with some people. Its rather random to be thinking this way but it's what I've concluded.

LIFE is like a joke for everyone and I suppose, the main purpose of it is to live it happily. But I just couldn't bring myself into doing it. I fret about problems everyday, about how people changes, how lonely I became at times. But I never ever THANK GOD for all that that HE has given to me. I'll take this blogging time to THANK HIM for all those that HE has done for me.

I know I'm a 'betrayer', I'm 'sliding' away from HIM. But in my true heart, HE exist, although not as strong as strong believer would be. But in my heart, there's always a place for HIM. I shouldn't keep on fretting on problems that I knew HE would solve for me and I should just let go of all unhappiness around me. That would be a real change of me and to get back a NEW SELENE.

No matter is it spiritually, physically, or emotionally, I do seek HIS help to come upon me and to clense me off all my dirts that has accumulated. I want HIM to wash away all stupid thoughts about helping those that I doesn't want to help out with. I want HIM to give me a new life, to appreciate my HUBBY and my little NICOLE, to get me my passion and fulfil my dream of becoming an accounts lover again, just like I've done before years ago.

People reading this blog might think that I'm crazy; I didn't attend church regularly, and yet I hope for HIM to do so much for me.

But I really think I need a new life and not dwell into the past again!

I need to tell myself: "Selene, its over and there's a new life awaiting you! Go for it!"

AND hence, I shall end this entry with this message...
"God's always there for me when I needed HIM and I believe this once too. HE showered so much love for me and I want so much to THANK HIM for all those".

God Bless,
Selene

ATTACKED by VIRUS!

2008-09-22T14:47:00.003+08:00

YOYO, loading 家好月圆 so came to blog!

Such bad experiences I had the night before. Excessive vomitting for the whole night since 11PM plus all the way till morning when we decided to go to the hospital. Went out halfway, had some problems with my tummy and went back home. Then went off to the hospital again and was WARDED for 4HOURS PLUS, had drip and glucose syrup on my hand! The needle's damn painful LAR.

Dehydration is damn pathetic and troublesome. I had to go on wheelchair and YUP so xin ku. Luckily I'm not alone sia! If not sure sad wor! Thanks hubby for that!

Thought I would be well after discharging.. But in the evening, it worsen abit and my usual headache with body ache came back, accompanied by the nauseous AGAIN!

Luckily this morning I was feeling much better but not as great as before. I couldn't even finish that packet of rice and I don't feel hungry! SO damn worried that my Nicole went wrong seh! HAHAs...

I realli hope not and YUP, Hubby decided to call her BOY BOY again cos he still think that it's a boy... NVM lar.. Let him call!

So blessed to have someone beside you when U're sick.. I mean really sick in this way. Being wheelchaired here and there, even to the toilet, having someone waiting for you while you are in treatment, for a whole of 4hrs and more... Having someone bring you for breakfast and den sent you home. I felt so damn blessed and forgive me for saying it again, I know you don't like to hear that: "THANK YOU LAO GONG!"

Replies to TAGS:

Von - HAHA, was thinking of better names mah, Don't really fancy the name NICOLE mah...
But now I think its okay le.. NICOLE's quite nice too... HAHAs

Jasmine - Thanks and surprised to see your taggy! Have linked you =) Visit more often ;)

NICOLE!

2008-09-20T13:17:00.002+08:00

How great is it to see the growing of the small little dot. I felt so blessed when I see it.

YES, I admit that I do regret at times when I remembers about me giving up my life, my dream and passion to be an accountant, to work hard for the future career ahead of me. It's really a struggle to make this move that nobody would agree to it BUT since yesterday, I felt that all these had been worthwhile.

The small little one that used to be so tiny told me, "Mummy, all your sacrifices are not forgotten." AND I think that would be enough for me. Moreover, that wouldn't mark the end of my life as I still have routes to choose. I appreciate the gift God has given to me and YES, I do feel blessed after the ultrasound yesterday.

Looking at this little dot and seeing it turned into a perfect human body do make me feel that life is full of wonders. I saw her sucking her thumb with that little tiny mouth of hers. I saw her legs and arms moving happily inside. AND most importantly of all, her heart pumping and pumping, making me feel that she's more and more real. I just love that little her inside me.

YES, I mentioned 'her'. The doctor told us that it's a baby girl. Of course hubby was disappointed but HOW can he be disappointed for that long? She's our child after all. AND great job to Yvonne for her sixth sense! HAHAs, remember to tell us the 4-digit which you would see HOR!

YUP, I went for the ultrasound yesterday and after like half an hour, the little girl inside of me doesn't want to show her heart. Thus I had no choice but to go for a lunch and walk before going back to continue the scan. HAHAs, her daddy bought her milk powder and then SHE FINALLY SHOWED HER HEART! Made all of us so exhausted especially hubby who had not slept since the night before.

AND those who MSNed me would have known, we decided to name her NICOLE... HAHA... Damn funny but I'm still hesistating. All thanks to the show on Channel 8 Mon-Fri @ 9PM.

Today's Father-in-law's birthday. I got to go to Woodlands later on in the evening for dinner. And after cooking porridge, I'm exhausted and I need a nap. My Nicole needs it. ;)

AND YUP, 's damn nice larh!!

GTG

Hugs,
Selene aka Nicole's mummy!

FOR YVONNE OH!

2008-09-15T18:05:00.002+08:00

JUST a notice for Yvonne Oh: I'm done with 3 FULL CHAPTERS of MO WANG le..

And HAHAs... Next few days I wont be viwawa-ing le..

Cos I gonna watch 'Tang Xin Feng Bao zhi Hua Hao Yue Yuan' on Tian Tian Tian Movie!! Haas!!

:P

Proud of me ... HAHAs.. & Happy 'worming' with your EAR..

Next week don't feel like K-ing... Can we go swimming? Bud ur the swimming suit that you can lend me is 1-piece or 2-piece de? I can't wear 2-piece lei...

;)

Specially posted for you OKAY!

Hugs,
Selene

Report...

2008-09-13T11:17:00.002+08:00

HAHA~ I went reading people's blog again AND I DIDNT TAG!

ON MC yesterday and stayed at HOME!
SCV's spoilt and couldn't watch the show yesterday except for the Singapore Dramas...
COOKED lunch for hubby and I just love POTATOEs lar!
WAS so reluctant when mum came back and said "Girl, go cook dinner"
HENCE, I didn't cook dinner and went down to buy instead ;) ---> Was realli tired OKAY!
MUM went out for her 'concert' while hubby went to work!
ATE ICE CREAM in the room watching TV until 10pm...
YAWNed and YAWNed and finally, after washing up, I went to ORHsss ORHsss...

WAS so reluctant to wake up this morning
HUBBY called at 8am to wake me up before he goes to bed
DRAGGED my feet to work
ATE peanut pancake and ICED MILO and
GUESS what? ----> I'll replace CHWEE KUAY with PEANUT PANCAKE from now on! YUMMY
ROTTING after reading everyone's blog and settling my UNDONE WORK...
AND i'll be viwawa-ing later... ---> VOn, I'll watch tt show next week okay? I promisw ;)

HAIS, Boss' still not back from overseas... Getting damn bored in the office ALMOST ALONE everydae... ANYWAY even if he's not overseas, I'll not be seeing him around the office either! Just so envious of him that he could go overseas as and when he wants!
I SHALL BE BOSS ONE DAY!
HAHAs....

SHALL VIWAWA now!

**Anyway, Hubby scold me YTD for waking him up! ANGRY SEH and I threatened him with his scolding when he wakes up and he was so adorable feeling apologetic for his attitude towards me.... HAHAs**

Hugs, Selene :D

DOTS...

2008-09-09T17:50:00.002+08:00

ONE happy happening recently: YTD went to have a nice dinner with HUBBY and I am blissful!

ONE happy acheivement of the day: I'm now LVL 11 in VIWAWA BIG2.5 (Finally over Lvl 10)!

ONE happy day anticipated: HANA YORI DANGO and PIZZA HUT with VON this weekends!

.... ONE unhappy problem occurred: My HEAD ACHES, my SHOULDERS are SWOLLEN! ....

and I'm hungry now! (<-trying to be random?)

HAIS...

Found that I got to do something to my shoulder, seriously. I just felt my head so heavy and the joint of my shoulder and the head will break any moment! I couldn't really sleep well at all and when I wake up the next morning, I almost couldn't move myself out of bed. The pain is TERRIBLE! And HAIS, I wonder when it will end!

AND one happy fact to add on: I can thrive on so many things NOW!! (and I feel so great!)
*WEEPS!*

HAIS...

I really can't move after clicking on the mouse from 9am till NOW(6PM)! CONTINUOUSLY!

After work LER... I shall GO FOR MY DINNER!!
*WHOOPS* and I wanna STRAWBERRY SUNDAE TOO!

HAAAS...

VON, SEEYA DURING WEEKENDS OH? AND YUP! SUNDAY OKAY? HAHA! MSN me! or SMS me! RAWKS!

HUGS,Selene >.<

MISSESSSSS...

2008-09-04T17:14:00.003+08:00

I find myself peeping @ people's blog secretly, without tagging. HAHAs. But how I find their life so interesting! Their life are filled of fun; camps, friends' gathering, shopping, etcccc, etccc.... .... I felt so lose out =[

However, it's kind of surprised that FRIENDS that I doesn't know much/ hasn't being keeping in contact for more than a year or two, OR EVEN THREE, they still remembers me. Thought of the past, especially in PRI sch when I'm like the Organiser of everything, in Lower SEC when I'm playing around with friends, memories refilled again AND now that I realise, HOW I MISS THEM DEARLY; the fun and the PPL!!

To my long-lost friends:
"LOTS OF MISSES AND FOND MEMORIES THAT WAS ACCUMULATED OVER THE YEARS! HOW I WISH TO MEET ALL OF YOU AGAIN, IN GROUPS AND GROUPS AND GROUPS, TO LET ME REFRESH THE WONDERFUL MEMORIES!"
----------that goes to KCS Buddies: Rmb e BBQ @ ECP long long time ago! Last gathering and how I was sunburnt and DOTS DOTS DOTS... FUN!!!
.................not forgetting MAC CSP: Rmb how we chilled out during off days, how we TOOK LEAVES together and play out? How fun we enjoyed ourselves at work and after work? The SABO-ing when it comes to PPL's birthdaySS, the X'mas Party late @ night, the NEW YR Parties and all. I miss them!!!
.................the small lil' group of pals that I loved from LOWER SEC YTSS: HAHAs... How we play and lock ourselves in classrooms to chat, play, and sing?? How we walk arnd NorthPt, Going to your houses to play with DOGS, etc, etc, ..... HAHAHAs.. DOGs-I suppose u noe who I refer to... (I only have 1 pal in sec sch that I go to HER hse to 'play' with her DOG)
................and not forgetting DRAGONS... HAHA, something that made me remarkable, the group that changed my fate of life and causes so many happiness in life. HOW they made me feel tt I'm not abandoned and there's still hope for my FUTURE! RAWKS... How we play @ ALOHA? How we SING in e ROOM of ALOHA and was been LISTENED ILLEGALLY by the father? (HAHAs, I still rmbs how embarrasing that was OKAY?)
................and then, HOW I MISS my accounts again!! ACCOUNTS!! I MISS, the MOST!!

HAHAs... That was random... Hmmm, nothing much to blog about anymore, Left with one more hour @ work, SHALL PLAY MY LONG-FORGOTTEN VIWAWA!!!

Selene :XmuacksX:

SONGS & LYRICS - PLANETARIUM!!!

2008-09-04T10:16:00.003+08:00

Planetarium - A planetarium is a theatre built primarily for presenting educational and entertaining shows about astronomy and the night sky, or for training in celestial navigation.

(Retrieved 4 September 2008, from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Planetarium)

I had a hard time finding the name and lyrics of this song. That's because the source of the song where I get from are all in translated CHINESE. The moment I saw the correct name of the song, I relate them to piano, for no reasons. Then, an urge drives me to find out the real meaning of it.

I guess now I know what has the content of the lyrics got to do with the title. Its a loving kind of lyrics, casting a lover in the theatre of stars. (I suppose, just doesn't know how to explain, but It's touching!)

The song's great! And with this song, it signals to all that I've also finished watching Hana Yori Dango 1!!! Now I'm left with the anime before I can step into the cinema (which I don't suppose I wanna watch as I won't understand larh).

People, enjoy the song, its the first track in my playlist. Other added songs are:

Wish (Hana Yori 1 Main Theme) - ARASHI,
Love So Sweet (Hana Yori 2 Main Theme) - ARASHI,
and a MIDI...

(Specially highlighted for Yvonne Oh cos that's her favourite besides Kinki Kids).

So, I shall make this entry SONG & LYRICS ONLY...

Below are the lyrics of this song, Planetarium... ... (Japanese reading version is in the lyrics scroller)
*The CHinese one abit WEIRD but its direct translation*

プラネタリウム - Planetarium - 星象仪 -

Japanese:
夕月夜　顔だす　消えてく　子供の声
遠く遠く　この空のどこかに　君はいるんだろう
夏の終わりに２人で抜け出した　この公園で見つけた
あの星座　何だか　覚えてる？

会えなくても記憶をたどって　同じ幸せを見たいんだ
あの香りとともに花火がぱっと開く

行きたいよ君のところへ　今すぐかけだして行きたいよ
まっ暗で何も見えない怖くても大丈夫
数えきれない星空が今もずっとここにあるんだよ
泣かないよ　昔　君と見たきれいな空だったから

あの道まで響く　靴の音が耳に残る
大きな自分の影を見つめて想うのでしょう
ちっとも変わらないはずなのに　せつない気持ちふくらんでく
どんなに想ったって君はもういない

行きたいよ君のそばに　小さくても小さくても
１番に君が好きだよ　強くいられる
願いを流れ星に　そっと唱えてみたけれど
泣かないよ　届くだろう　きれいな空に

会えなくても記憶をたどって　同じ幸せを見たいんだ
あの香りとともに花火がぱっと開く

行きたいよ君のところへ　小さな手をにぎりしめて
泣きたいよ　それはそれは　きれいな空だった
願いを流れ星に　そっと唱えてみたけれど
泣きたいよ　届かない思いをこの空に…

Translation:
Evening approaches and the voices of night-smiling children fade
I know that you are somewhere under this sky, far, far away
At summer’s end, we snuck away together, we found this park
I kind of remember that constellation

Even if I don’t meet you, I can search for memories
Of the same sort of happiness.
Both the smell and fireworks going “bang”

I want to go to where you are
I want to start running there soon
I can’t see anything in the inky darkness
Even if I’m scared I’ll be okay
The wisdom of this clear sky
Is here now all the time.
I didn’t cry when I saw you in the past
Because the sky was clear.

Daily, from that road over there, I can only hear one sound.
Maybe you’ll stare at your big shadow.
It is not in the least expected to change.
A sad feeling expands inside you.
This is the “you’re not there” kind of feeling.

I really want to go and be next to you
Even though I am really, really small
I love you the most
I can be strong
I suddenly try to make a wish on a falling star
Maybe I’ll reach the point where I don’t cry
In a clear sky.

Even if I'm not with you, I can search for memories
Of the same sort of happiness.
Like the smell, together with fireworks going “bang”

I want to go to your place (The place that is with you…)
A small hand clenching yours,
I want to cry; that is a beautiful sky.
I suddenly try to make a wish on a falling star
Under this sky, I don’t think that I want to cry.

(Retrieved from http://www.channel-ai.com/about866.html)

有月亮的傍晚脸出的消失ku 孩
子的声音远方对远方这个天空的哪里你在
在吧夏天的结束以2人溜出了的这个公园发现
了的那个星座总觉得有着？

与即使不能遇见也看了追索记忆同样的幸福的忌
讳的那个香味儿一起焰火突然开

是与是想想去的yo你的地方现在马上跑出去
去的yo漆黑现在一直这里也有什
么都看不见的即使可怕没问题也不数断的
星空的yo不哭yo 从前看了的漂亮的天空

不到(连)那个道回响的鞋的
声音不会凝视留存在耳朵中的大的
自己的影子是想宇野一点儿变化难过的心情鼓起
ku无论怎么样思想强你已经在

想去的yo你旁边即使小和即使小对1
号你把好的yo 强能懊悔的拜
托做为流星偷偷地都试着念了,不
过不哭的yo 到达的漂亮的天空

与即使不能遇见也看了追索记忆同样的幸福的忌
讳的那个香味儿一起焰火突然开

把是想紧握想去的yo你的地方小手哭
的yo 太漂亮的天空的拜托做为流
星偷偷地试着念了,不过这个天
空想哭的yo 不到达的所想…

(Retrieved from http://www.excite.co.jp/world/chinese/)

DOts... Random!!

2008-09-02T12:22:00.002+08:00

A silly me, getting sad over the disability of finding the seasoning for my Mamee Snacks!

HAHAs...

I suppose I shall not waste time idling around for I've done that for more than 3hours already!! Oh Gosh, I don't suppose I should continue to do that right?

However, eating Mamee is great! The taste is BAGUS!!

I'm so exhausted as I didn't really slept enough these few days. Dar went out at around 1am to chat with his friend, who met with some relationship problems, and came back only at 3am... The way he describe me scolding him in my dreams was really hilarious!

"Am I that violent and UN-ladylike when I'm asleep?" OHNO!! (Sorry Von, use your lover's name)...

And in the end we ended up with a pillow fight or a tickling fight early in the morning @ 7am plus when I'm supposed to be still in my sleep.

He told me that he, too, can't stand his friend's GF's willfullness... WHICH hints me to be more soft on him... HAHAs... My gosh, YOU wait long long okay!!

And now when I'm munching my Mamee, the thought of LUNCH came about to me? What shall I have for lunch today? I'm so bored of the food downstairs... I wanna go somewhere else... I wanna eat at Golden Mile Complex opposite tt hawker... BUT that was SO FAR AWAY!!! Sianx man!! I need good food.... .... HAHAs...

OHYAR, when I was shopping @ Toa Payoh yesterday, guess what I saw... I saw SO MANY MANY SNOOPY's SHOES... FOR KIDS... :( I frowned... and I told Dar I wanna get it for our baby... He said "SIAOS" and walked away!!

Its so ABNORMAL to see Snoopy shoes lying around mah... ESP in Singapore mah... When I pretended to be angry, he nearly bought... BUT reasonable lar... The smallest size are for 1Year Old... How can my baby need tt? HAIS... But sad lar... 难得看见SNOOPY嘞！

OKAY, I was interrupted by calls and gotten irritated after the call... To cool myself down... Showtime!! HEEs!!

Selene-o-"

Flavour Of Life FAV!

2008-09-02T09:47:00.002+08:00

I was listening to Flavour of Life again, reading the english translated lyrics.

Hana Yori Yango 2!!

2008-09-01T13:36:00.003+08:00

花样男子2 - Japanese Version of Meteor Garden 2
(Song: Flavour of Life by Utada Hikaru)

Video 1: Short Snapshots of the show
Video 2: English Translated Version of Song - Touching!

Video

Hi people!

I really hope you guys could take time to enjoy these 2 videos. Its super meaningful and touching, especially to me.

I actually doesn't like Japanese version of Meteor Garden, but because of the coming up of the movie of the Final Version, I'm being 'forced' to watch it. However, I fell in love with it. It's so much as touching as the chinese version and YUP, I enjoyed it, especially for this song by Utada Hikaru!

People, even if you don't like the show, please watch the second video. Its damn it touching and meaningful for the lyrics! For people that love the show, all the most you must watch Video 2!!!

Enjoy YEAH?

P/S: Von, I watched finish everything already OKAY? Don't look down at me... KEKE! Nice... You say Jun-chan from Arashi acting? As which lead huh? Issit the same for the TV Serial??

Hugs, Selene

Random!

2008-08-29T12:55:00.004+08:00

I just had the urge of blogging now, with nothing in mind to blog about.

I was at A&E yesterday, AS A VISITOR! My hubby's the patient. He's finally not able to take the terrible pain on his tummy that he woke me up early to get him to the hospital.
AND how disappointed was I in A&E waiting area. It seems like I'm waiting in Polyclinics!
Gosh! Singapore's government hospital should change its ways to treating A&E(emergency) patients. They just simply let anyone that is more serious to overtake the less serious ones in the queue. Theoriodically it is right for serious patients to be treated to first. BUT, if it's not urgent, emergency, and painful, those 'not so serious' ones would have gone to polyclinic instead!
I complained about this to Hubby and he was laughing at me with his pains! True what, I took half-day leave to wait at A&E department mah! Its such a laughing-stock siax!
*sianx*
And then the doctor told us that it is constipation? HOW can one not know that he/she is suffering from constipation? AND how the hell will constipation last for more than a month? However, I'm quite glad that it is JUST CONSTIPATION where it signals off the other SERIOUS ILLNESS such as stomach ulcer. However, we still have to wait for the specialist to announce safe on Monday first before we could assume that it's constipation! BUT gosh! I'm still feeling 'yuan wang' to have waited for so long!

And now, I doesn't know why do I talk about hospital system when I wanted to just comment that I doesn't know what to have for lunch! Great too, spent my time!

And YUP, back to the general topic. What should I have for lunch later? I feel so much tempted to have NASI LEMAK again and WANTON MEE at the same time! Gosh, what has happened to me? And I've decided. I shall have.... .... .... FISHBALL KUAY TEOW!!!

And I've nothing to blog about again. Games at Viwawa wasn't fun today... I kept on losing and I doesn't want to continue any further... I will be leveled down soon!
*bored*

..............................BYEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!.................................

TO YULIN & YINQING, I TYPE THAT MISSING ENTRY FOR U TWO:

A Couple's Heartbreak

A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage. They were a loving couple and the boy was the apple of their eyes. When the boy was around two years old, one morning the husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for work so he asked the wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the cupboard. The mother, preoccupied in the kitchen, totally forgot the matter.

The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle and, fascinated with its colour, drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant for adults in small dosages. When the child collapsed, the mother hurried him to the hospital, where he died. The mother was stunned. She was terrified how to face her husband.

When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just four words.

What do you think were the four words?

The husband just said, "I Love You Darling".

The husband's totally unexpected reaction is proactive behavior. The child is dead. He can never be brought back to life. There is no point in finding fault with the mother. Besideds, if only he have taken time to keep the bottle away, this will not have happened. No point in attaching blame. SHe had also lost her only child. What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he gave her.

Sometimes we spend time asking who is responsible or who to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. We miss out some warmth in human relationship in giving each other support. After all, shouldn't forgiving someone we love be the easiest thing in the world to do? Treasure what you have. Don't multiply pain, anguish and suffering by holding on to forgiveness.

If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be fewer problems in the world.

Take off all your envies, jealousies, unwillingness to forgive, selfishness, and fears and you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think.

____________________________________________________________________

Tributes.. Random Post!

2008-08-27T17:36:00.002+08:00

Its rather bored again! Viwawa's down for maintainence. I've got no choice but to be here. *blogging*

Life has been great for me this few days, or rather, there's nothing really special that pops out of nowhere.
I seriously miss accounts. Its been more than 2 months since I've touched accounts and that made me think of digging out my secondary accounts to do! I really miss accounts till the stage that O-M-G-! I'm thinking of accounts like how I miss something that's precious to me.
However, reality tells me that I can't get into the world of accounts, at least NOT NOW!

*sianx*

Things were great in my life except that I've lost the passion and determination that drives me, which I used to own it before I quit school. It's kind of a regret to me that this dawns me. However, its irreversible.

*sianx*

Why do I sound so pessimistic? For heaven's sake, I got to be more optimistic!
*BUT HOW*
Hubby's sick and is staying at home to rest. I really and truly miss him and how I wish to see him when I return home later. However, it's rather impossible and neither do I want him to travel over and waste his energy just to let me be comfortable.

*misses*

It's really tiring to sit upright for so many hours in front of the computer. My back really aches now and yet I can't slouch; it will make me hunch-back!

*exhausted*

In 8 minutes and I could leave. It has been rather unfulfilling to me as I've done nothing again. BUT not due to my fault, there's really nothing better for me to do! How I wish for him to be here. I miss him, again.

*misses*

I've decided, I shall call him once I step out of the office.

WOW! I find this blog entry damn stupid and MEANINGLESS... Felt so much like not posting but HEY, I've TYPED FOR MORE THAN 10MINUTES!
I shall post and let people see this stupid post of mine!

Misses all my friends, Misses Accounts! Misses everything that I own in 2006 and 2007; the never-ending acheivements. It's really irreversible now. I'm beginning to regret BUT not because of the tiredness of the new life but just the missing of the more wonderful parts! I miss the teachers in YTSS too. ---> (Like Mrs Samuel, Ms TanPP, Mr E. Teo, Ms. R. Kong, and so on and so on....) NOT forgetting my accounts tutor in Poly, the one that I could sense that truly LOVES me: Ms. J. Koh!! MUACKS!

*tired*

B-Y-E-E-S-S!!!!!!!!

P/s: Von, tell me who's the one in Arashi that is acting in the Jap Movie version of Meteor Garden Finals!!! And, translate this website for me: http://www.hanadan-final.jp/index.html

Hugs,
Selene

2008-08-25T14:59:00.003+08:00

Hey!

First thing on top of the list: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YVONNE OH LIANG TING!!! ..
"Sorry girl, wanted to celebrate your birthday yesterday. But I was
in terrible pain since Saturday and didn't really dare to move out
of bed at all. Thousands of sorries BUT let the celebration be
belated okay? I'll arrange with NU-ER and let you know ASAP :x"

Yeah, I was in terrible pain since Saturday morning in the office. It was really aching (my tummy) and I couldn't really concentrate on the things I do. The pain went on and off, creating a nuisance to me. I was so irritated when I get home that I lied on the bed. However, evening time was better for me and hence, I made a trip down to Veron's princess' birthday party @ Hillview. Very elegant and nicely planned and built condo. One of the best I've ever seen. The party was fun and we saw the lovely family with their princess, Kerenza. However, I did not really manage to enjoy it because I was in pain again after reaching there for awhile. The pain was still bearable BUT we decided to leave early and head for home.
The pain got better yesterday evening again. And soon after, it came back. Since morning all has been fine BUT I really hope not to taste the pain again later! My mum says its because the baby's moving and stretching inside me and hence I feel pain. I've read an article that says so before too. However, the pain was abit strange to me and if it continues, I really must see the doctor! BUT I just hope the pain doesn't continue!

I realise my morning sickness' not over yet! Every morning, I'll still vomit and YUCKS! I hate to do that. And I found out from Veron that her morning sickness ended for 6-months! O-M-G-G-G!!! I can't imagine myself going through that!

You guys would probably not be able to find me idling around people's blog for nothing anymore! For which, I've found a new entertainment to fit into my FREE TIME - VIWAWA!!!
I love WahJong seriously! Rox!

Alright, I shall end of now.

P/S: Von, sorry again wor! And I'll see you soon alright? I promise! :x

Hugs,
Selene

A post of Signigicant Meaning

2008-08-22T11:39:00.007+08:00

I was browsing through blogs when I saw this interesting entry in Alicia AKA Qiwen's blog. I decided to quote it and put it up here! Its meaningful and I think the meaning is so important, not only to married couples, but to dating couples and family members! It is important to remember and apply this moral of the story for it is really significant and changes one's life.

"...........

A Couple's Heartbreak

A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage. They were a loving couple and the boy was the apple of their eyes. When the boy was around two years old, one morning the husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for work so he asked the wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the cupboard. The mother, preoccupied in the kitchen, totally forgot the matter.

The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle and, fascinated with its color, drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant for adults in small dosages. When the child collapsed, the mother hurried him to the hospital, where he died. The mother was stunned. She was terrified how to face her husband.

When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just four words.

What do you think were the four words?

The husband just said "I Love You Darling"

The husband's totally unexpected reaction is proactive behavior. The child is dead. He can never be brought back to life. There is no point in finding fault with the mother. Besides, if only he have taken time to keep the bottle away, this will not have happened. No
point in attaching blame. She had also lost her only child. What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he gave her.

Sometimes we spend time asking who is responsible or who to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. We miss out some warmth in human relationship in giving each other support. After all, shouldn't forgiving someone we love be the easiest thing in the world to do? Treasure what you have. Don't multiply pain, anguish and suffering by holding on to forgiveness.

If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world.

Take off all your envies, jealousies, unwillingness to forgive, selfishness, and fears and you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think.

..................."

Thanks to Alicia for posting this up onto your blog! I learnt something!

Hugs, Selene

You will never know it because you're not a girl, you're not me!

2008-08-18T09:34:00.004+08:00

I felt like I've been struck by the strongest lightning on earth.

I has been painful to be critisised by someone that would be your kin. The kind of sacarsm that really pains a girl's heart, terribly. I don't mind to be scolded or critisised by other people or of other matters. BUT NOT THIS!!

The words are so strong: "xxxxx....xxxxcontrolled by her xxx....xxxxxxxxx" I know that soon I'm going to be a mother, BUT I still got to say! "FxxK lar!" I couldn't control my anger this time round! Who the hell in this world can be able to put down with this kind of critisism?

In this 18 years of shines, I've never been said to be like this before. Even people that hate me don't say this to me! But this person who really made me felt defeated, said that! Somemore its not in my face, directly, but in front of someone that I look up onto, someone's related to me! Since yesterday, I've been defeated and this time, without anyone to lean onto anymore, except my mother! But she can't do much either! I hate them, seriously! I swear that in future if I'm in real good relationship with them again, I'll be killed by lightning! Thousand times stronger than this!

I'm really tired of everything. Whatever I does don't look nice to other people. Why am I still sacrificing that much? I should just stop it, I should just take back all the sacrifice I've made before and leave! I really am hesistating yesterday. I think I should not let them take me FOR GRA NTED anymore. There's so many people that love me, why should I care about them? Why should I help them. I can still live my life well without them what? And somehow, it would be BETTER!

I cried and cried and cried... ... Tears just flowed through endlessly, but it never help much. My headache is paining! My vomitting pains are back! I've vomitted more than 4 times since morning! I don't know! I really don't know what to do. And yet, the person I longed for wasn't there for me. Actually I'm glad that that person wasn't here. It would add on pains and agonies only. The headache is really terrible. I can't work at all. I felt that I'm mentally dead! I can't think. I can't concentrate. I laid in bed at 9pm last night and only fell asleep at 1am. I woke up suddenly at 5am this morning after a bad dream and couldn't sleep till 6plus. I woke up at 8.20am again, startled and I knew I'm late for work. I don't care anymore! CAB means CAB! I shall not think about future issues anymore! And here I am, staring blankly at the computer screen, not able to think anymore!I hate this!

I'm really tired. GOD, can You make me disappear from this earth of pains? I rather don't want the happiness I am having now. I rather give them up and leave! Nothing in life has been smoothing for me, even though I thought a part of it was.

Exhausted & Moody.

Signed off by Selene - saddist this time round... ...

Good News brings back Good Mood

2008-08-16T11:59:00.002+08:00

Hello xD

The first Saturday in the office has its PROS and CONS.
PROS=nobody else will step into this office; I have my freedom!
CONS=it's so bored that I was falling asleep!

Yesterday was a nice day! Hubby came to fetch me from work and we decided to go back home as we have nowhere better to go. However, we went to AMK Hub and watched 12Lotus in the end (Not I wanna watch, its him...) Anyway he bought me a pair of sandals too =) ...
**Thanks HUBBY**
Hmmm... 12Lotus was okay, starring a really pitiful girl, Lotus. I felt so sympathetic for her BUT the show was 'ALRITE LAR' ... The middle part was so draggy and misleading that I don't really catch the point. I would prefer MONEY NOT ENOUGH rather than this bah.

We've decided to take up the flat @ YCK instead. The agent called me just now and told me that the valuation has expired and if it rises, WE WOULD NOT NEED TO FORK OUT SO MUCH CASH! So great and Happy to hear this. Hope all would be right! Hurray!
But hubby is a little unhappy about the flat because of the location. NVM bah. we came to the decision already and I already explained everything to him already. He says that for me, he'll do off with it! I hope he's okay.
**So Sweet**

HEY People, enjoy my new music list okay? The song SARA is nice! Its my favourite PARA PARA DANCE song! Must enjoy (Got Eng & Jap versions)! And then there's the Tang Xin Feng Bao's songs too! My favourite Detective Investigation File IV's song is in there too! BRAVO! Loves my new IMEEM playlist! Thanks to IMEEM and LYRICS DOWNLOAD! Muacks!

Suddenly, I'm in a great great great mood! HURRAY! But I'm very cold. Forgot to bring my jacket today; I'm shivering!

Hope everything's about the flat would be alright! The flat is nice anyway, squared living room. Spacious kitchen! Toilet in Master Bedroom! But 2nd Level :(, Need to take bus to YCK MRT :( But OKAY lar! Reno don't need to do much ;) HURRAY!

Alright! Got to knock off and meet my mum at Toa Payoh Centre! CYA PPL ;)

Bye & Hugz, Selene

HEADACHE that kills

2008-08-14T10:04:00.002+08:00

I think I falling sick! This stupid headache of mine has been resurfacing time and again. I couldn't sleep, eat, & work well with it.

I wanted to blog more because I have nothing else to do, BUT this headache is stopping me from blogging! It seriously is killing every single cell in my brain! Gosh~ I'm fainting... ...

..............................DEAD....................................

SNAPSHOTS - LEO & SELENE

2008-08-12T21:55:00.007+08:00

A quick snapshot for those who hasn't viewed my wedding photos yet. I usually use the computer in the office only, so I doesn't have the photos with me everytime I wanted to update. Enjoy people and comments please! (These are just the selected few... As for the rest, too many, can't post all. Wanna see? Ask me for the CD or meet me out with my lappy!)

PRESENTING... ....

..... LEO & SELENE 8th AUG 2008

....-Taken on 26th JULY 2008

....-Credits to: SiYuan, Kent, & Shawn (Thanks, Photographers!)

...-Credits to: Christopher & Claire (Thanks, Make-Up Artiste & Wedding Gown Rental)

The Future We're Looking Forward To... ...

Ending Our SingleHood in Singapore BUT Begin The CoupleHood in our Homeland

On Solo-Mode... ... The Bride's Day!

Botanic Garden Story... ...

Looking Up To Heaven & Thanking HIM for Giving Us A New Life and Companionship of Each Other... ...

The Proposal:

When The Sky Darkened & Night Falls, We'll Still Be Together... ...

Eternal Love

The Love & Romance That Brought Us Together, As ONE!

Our Love Never Fade Even If Everything Elses Fade... ...

That's all and Good Night! View constantly for photos on Wedding Day. To view all, call me to fix appointments ;)

Hugs, Selene

Sincere Apology

2008-08-07T09:39:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I wanted to post something but blogger has a problem. Hence, I couldn't blog about that and when I met Dar yesterday, the feeling became saddening at first, but it resolves later. I promised him not to blog about sensitive issues here anymore, especially when it involves his family. I knew I am in some sense WRONG for putting those feelings up in the blog BUT the feeling just came to me and I spoke them all out. Talking about such thing is definitely not on purpose but anyway, I had promised him to control myself next time and to limit myself to things I can announce in my blog.

**To James: I'm sorry for blogging about such things here. Let's put everything behind and do a favour for your brother; live in harmony. Like I've said, it's not on purpose that I post such things here but still I think my emotions just sort of overpowered my mind on the day I posted it up. I apologise sincerely.**

To friends that must be wondering what has happened to this always-positive-Selene, it's over and I'm back!

I really look forward to seeing all of you at the ROM tomorrow, sharing the biggest joy of my life; my marriage. Let's take lots of photos tomorrow and make my day memorable! WOW, I think I can't sleep tonight! Anyway people, my photos are out. I'll post it up soon over here as the soft copies are still with my hubby. As for my budds that will attend tomorrow, you guys would probably be able to have a sneak preview ;)

Anyway, nights-out wasn't great for me these few days without him. It made me feel lonely and YES, I do miss him. HAIS, but what to do?

Looking forward! - Selene

2008-08-06T16:08:00.002+08:00

I'm free again!

I've been getting more and more happy about my current job; the kind of job for pregnancy ladies! I doesn't have any stress at work, no fatigue feeling of tiredness although the job is making me bored at times, I just love it as there is this computer in front of me that I can use for. Moreover, it gave me more time to read articles and information in regards to childbirth and pregnancy. I bet pregnant ladies out there who are stressed up by work would envy me as I'm not earning that less and yet, I am so much relaxed than them. Quote me :D

I met up with Yoke Kuan over for lunch earlier on at ICA Building near my workplace. It's been such a long time since I've caught up with her. She looks great and YUP, she's doing well in school. An envious feeling overwhelmed me as I am saying this because, it's a matter-of-fact that I've been dismissed from POLY. However, I am still the positive Selene as ever. Been dismissed by POLY is my choice and not theirs. That's solely because I doesn't have the energy, or doesn't bothers to take time off to do withdrawal. Hence, I'm still proud of being a NP Student for 2-months and scoring a more than 90% for my accounting term test! Bravo, Selene!

I chatted with Yoke Kuan about the baby and everything. I told her I've changed my hospital to Thomson Medical instead of KK because its a private one, prices not very far off from KK and the service would be better. She told me her sister gave birth at Mt Alvernia instead and she commented that the service there is excellent! That made me think of changing hospital again. However, prices are my utmost concern as Mt Alvernia should cost more than Thomson (I guessed it ok? I've asked her to check it out for me already.)

Talking about Yoke Kuan made me think about Charmaine! It has been very very long since the last time I saw her. She should have changed alot just by judging by her blog. I guess she's no longer the small little innocent girl that I used to tease about and play with. Thinking about the past when I'm always with her, it could make a full whole collection of memories. She's so innocent that no matter how I tease her, no matter how sarcastic I put the words into, she would bear with it (Haas, Char, If u see this, don't be angry ya? It's just for the sake of fun :D) I'm starting to miss the past... ...

BUD, I'm still looking forward to the future!

I received a call from hubby just now, telling me that our bank loan has been approved. However, hubby says that the repayment is too high and we would probably give up the loan. Hence, I would say that it's sort of like a disappointment for me. However, it's a disappointment now than a regret in the future!

GTG!

Hugs - Selene

A moment of thoughts

2008-08-04T12:30:00.003+08:00

The wedding photos that I received (I think 10% of the total) weren't nice at all. The photographer took my fatty arms and that made me look horrible. Of course there are 20% that are nice too. I'm really anticipating the rest of my photos to be up, from this photographer and the other one as well. Looking Forward :D

Things were going at a rather slow pace in my current life. Since pregnancy, I've lost myself somehow. I've lost the passion and determinations I used to have about life. However, I was glad to have realised it sooner before it became worse. I need to change myself, seriously, and find back the passion and aim and used to drive my life.
GOD BLESS ME.

With the upcoming of Friday, it just made me jumped up from the seat of my desk and shiver. OH! I'm so excited about that day. I wonder how's the feelings like. I'm going to buy my dress and contact lenses, some pins and rubber bands, and I am going to engrave our names onto the rings either tomorrow or wednesday. On thursday, I would be meeting up with the photographers to get the photos before selecting a number of it to preview it to my guests on Friday. I really anticipate the arrival of Friday!

Recently changed a job. I've swayed away from being a sales assistant in that small little shop in Causeway Point, although I could earn more with the commission given. I'm working in an office near Lavender now, as a telesales officer. This is good as I'm offered a higher basic (although without commission) and maternity benefits with career advancement. However, there's always CONS with some PROS... ... That's inevitable.

Talking about relationships with hubby, I think we've been coming into multiples of quarrels since we've decided to get married. However, I still believe that communication works and he would be the right one for me because his characters are the straight opposite of mine. Hence, he would be able to control my DO NOTS, and save me from getting into troubles. Although things might be rather vague now, but I believe I can definitely overcome it.

I really felt remorseful/regretful for not cherishing the close relationships I once had with my relatives. To think of it, especially my Aunt, she dotes on me so much and now that I faced problems, she helped me without any hessitation. I really am thankful to her and I made myself promise that no matter how poor I get in the future, I must strive on and provide for her, although she already has 2 sons that are stronger in financial than me. Not forgetting my mother, whom I always thought she doesn't dotes me. She really dotes me so much in the dark that now, I think she has over-protected me in some ways the made me too reliance on her. I will never forget this love that she gave to me, although there were times when I talked back at her, scolded her, and neglected her feelings. I really want to tell her straight in the face how much I love her and thank her, how much she meant to me as my mother and how great she has been. However, I dare not say everytime and could only pluck up the courage to say it here, in my blog. I'm rather considered as a failure... ...

Why do I always have to sound so emo when I end my entry, everytime?
To all my buddies and those who love me:
"See You guys soon! Bless me and Take Care... Especially those that are so busy with school work that they couldn't breathe. I'll support you guys :D"

Pains and Troubles that are fated to be present

2008-07-18T14:36:00.002+08:00

Now that I understand the pains and troubles when a couple decide to get married, suddenly. However, I believe that things will work out as long as we trusted one another, willing to give in sometimes for the other.

Things aren't working out very well recently. My Dar has been stressed up by our matters, his work matters, as well as his family's pressure. I'm also stressed, but much more better than him, I'm stressed about all the matters of our stuffs and also, his family's pressure.

Seriously, I can say, I can't live with his family. Especially his brother. I just find his family too difficult to work with. Their thoughts were worse than my mother, but of the same level of my dad. Just too stubborn and too biased in some sense. I'm glad that in future, I don't have to live with them, because they don't want either.

The day before yesterday, on Wednesday, we went to view a second time of a unit at Marsiling Crescent and were ready to offer to get that flat. The reason being, although the flat's condition were bad, was that the COV was cheap and the unit was big. However, things does not work well. We waiting 4hours for the seller to arrive before we sign the OTP. However, he did not turn up and yet he wanted to raise the COV. Our agents and us were fed up as he is going against his initial promise of 10K. Hence, we knew yesterday that the owner was a bankrupt and was in financial difficulties. Thus, our agents persuaded us into not buying that unit in fear of future problems.

*Phew*

We wasted the whole 4hours for nothing!

However, we're going to view another unit at Marsiling Drive. The unit is slightly smaller but of course, cheaper. However, the COV is a little high though. I hope that all things goes on well later.

*Prays*

Alright, I think that's all... I got to watch my TV. Hope that everything will turn well and then good news can be published here soon!

Love,Selene

UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE!

2008-07-13T19:23:00.002+08:00

YOYO! I'm being complained for not updating the blog for less than 10days while the one that complain hasn't being updating her blog for more than that!
(KEKE~who call you not to update too :P)

Alright! I shall UPDATE now =)

Recently I've being slacking at home wor! Slacked till I can't take it le! Got to get a job real fast and not get addicted to this laziness virus anymore!
-- Actually, I've got an offer from a recruitment company, asking me to go for an interview on Tuesday for a call centre job. ($9/hr!) However, it clashes with my doctor appointment and so, I couldn't attend. I hope the consultant can re-arrange for me. xD --

My wedding has updates OH!
--I'm not going to hold any wedding dinner anymore (not because I don't want to but...) because my mum doesn't like the idea of me holding it next year after baby CHUA's birth. Traditional thinkers, but, I've no choice but to abide to her. I've got to consider about her feelings and stand too. Whereas, if I hold it now, I find it too rushy and it will definitely make the finance tight as I still have flat to settle (including renovation and so on.)--
--Hence, I'm gonna just have my planned ROM evening and a night of celebration at KTV. After which, I will be going for a bridal studio photo-shooting (Once a lifetime, must wear gown 的...) I'm now in the move of searching for a good bridal studio while settling for my flat problem--
--After which, when baby CHUA is born, we will hold a grand celebration for his/her first-month!--
I guess that'll be the best arrangement, in consideration of economic and other issues.

Talking about flats, actually we have seen one that is really nice and the price is around our budget too. It's at Marsiling Drive, Blk 7 (4I flat)... The best thing is that, the flat is well-maintained and has the air-cons and cabinets built in. However, things aren't all that smooth... We still has to submit HLE and all that before we can offer for the flat... So, that will be another 2 weeks or so!

HAIS...

I think that's all... I'm feeling drowsy all over again! :D

HUGS,SELENE

Just a random post!

2008-07-05T20:36:00.002+08:00

I thought that before I shut this computer off after such a long hours of usage, I should be up here blogging.

SO, I'M HERE!!

It has been a long time since I've used a computer for such long hours in a day, it came quite as a surprise for me. Finally, I overcame my laziness and sent in my resumes for jobs today already. I really hope I could make it at least for the interview and in no time, I would be starting work soon.

IF NOT, NO INCOME = NOTHING... ...

It's already 5th July and YUP, I really couldn't imagine that time ran so fast. In around a month's time, I'd lose my freedom as a SINGLE! Still, I've still have not plucked up my courage to tell my Aunt about it. I guess she will ROAR at me... ...

(Will it be that bad?)... ...

*faints*

However, till this stage, (except that I am regretful for doing things too rashly and wasting my career) I've never regretted taking this step. However, things doesn't always goes so smoothly, I would never give up until the last moment. In fact, I'm still looking forward to that day!

Alright, I'm lack of updates... COS slacker has nothing interesting happening to her... HAHA!

Take Care, people!

Hugs,Selene

Untie the knots and arrange the matters!

2008-07-03T14:12:00.003+08:00

So long since my last entry, I wasn't able to post anything because I'm busy preparing things PLUS I'm still feeling very weak! (I'm rather happy that there's PASSERBY in my blog :D)

Alright, so the date's settled for my ROM. I'm rather glad that with such short span of time, I would be able to get a date so great to be on the 8thAugust2008, Lunar7thMonth8thDay, at 8PM sharp! Somemore, the address starts with 8! HAHA! So lucky and blessed of me!

After all these preparations, I realise there's so much. I still have lots to prepare still. (Like the restaurant for dinner that day, dresses and suits to buy, RINGs to choose, and yet, we still have to settle our flat's thingy, my school withdrawal... ...) -->Luckily Marriage is 2 person, not ONE! HEE!

Yesterday was such a tiring day (my day recently only last for 5 or 6 hours as compared to before). We went to take a look at the room for solemnisation and did all the E-filing! It was so convenience now to do marriage filling, with the use of TECHNOLOGY! The room was rather nice if we compare the prices. In fact, it's marvelous! I went down to McCafe yesterday and YES! I've successfully resigned! Serene was rather angry or rather say worked out before I told her the reasons. Her reactions as she knew the reason was so hilarious lar!
(Don't know whether she'll come to my blog but anyway, THANKS Serene wor! I don't mean to quit so suddenly, especially its before your birthday! Hope the like the present :D)

OKAY, I think I gonna end off now and get right down to real business. I have to start doing my resume and start sending them out! Sunday's my last day @ McCafe wor! Happy but yet UNBEARABLE to leave!

People, bless me alright? ANd for my loved ones, See Ya soon :D

Hugs, Selene

The Feeling of Blessing, I'm Awaiting!

2008-06-23T15:57:00.003+08:00

Been thinking alot recently, went through lots of problems
recently.

I realise, I need to grow up!

I went through alot recently and this is caused by this problem that I fear most. I finally made a decision! I'm going to quit school, and be tied to him forever. BUT, that doesn't stop me from studying!

I've decided to find a job as an Accounts Clerk or Accounts/Admin Assistant. Meanwhile, I'll be going to BMG Academy for my Diploma in Accounting of 3 Subjects; Cost ACC, Management ACC, and Higher ACC. With that, I would be able to move up the next level upon graduation. Of course, I knew that with a family, I would not be able to start school that soon but my wish is to be able to start enrolled within the next 10Months, at least after financial has been stablelised.

I knew that would be a waste of me to quit school but since the problem is here, I might as well not run away from it and face it bravely. Dar and I have already decided upon a plan, and my parents have agreed to it already, although they find it a waste too. We have decided to move into a bigger flat that could compromise his parents, brother and us. At the same time, go for ROM first. After around 10Months, which should be around next years' February or March, we would hold a little celebration of our marriage. I suppose that would be the best for now, rather than rushing everything now.

All I hope now is the receive blessings from all my friends and relatives about this matter, of course, his friends and relatives too. I hope that all these blessings would then turn out to be a blissful life ahead of us. I really wish that all things would turn out nicely, as planned, and no obstables would surface.

With that, I'll go back to my sleep already! Been sleeping for a few days and I still feel terribly sick now. BYE EVERYBODY! BLESS ME!

Hugs, Selene

PROBLEMS NEVER ENDING!

2008-06-18T13:57:00.002+08:00

YOYOYOYO! I'm back! HAHA~ MISS ME?

So many things happened recently, one after another. & I'm getting tired of all that, getting sick! --> WHICH IS TRUE!

I just recovered from the stomach flu virus that attacked me for a total of 1WEEK! Its terrible, I must say. I can wake up early @ 4AM to VOMIT; and the vomiting is continuous for a couple of times before I could stop. After which, in most cases, I wouldn't be able to sleep! Just that terrible that I couldn't even work! Nor can I do any other things! TERRIBLE! bud thank GOODNESS, I've RECOVERED!

However, something happened as I recovers, I've been attacked by a very contradicting 'case'. I really doesn't know what to do now. Getting a minimum diploma is what I wanted to do since don't know when. AND yet, NOW, I've got to choose between PURSUING my DIPLOMA, MY CAREER and RUINING MY WHOLE DAMN PERSONAL LIFE... This problem really made the whole case contradicting!

HOW??
HOW???
HOW????

There are PROS and CONS, definitely, like what Huda told me as we chatted! The CONS are things I doesn't want to happen and yet the PROS brings CONS to me! I really feel that I should just make a decision but I just couldn't. My heart definitely want to follow the decision of leaving school. BUD I know my mind doesn't want it to be that way! I have to give myself tbe chance to complete this studies, at least! BUD, that's not I really wanted to do whole-heartedly!

Besides, I've been having problems in school. I can't keep up to the learning style, I can't communicate well with most of my classmates, and most importantly, I've no confidence in doing well for most of my modules!

This problem has been bugging me for almost 2 days... I really wanna give up thinking about it because it just brings too much pains! I've been not sleeping well that my neck and shoulders aches tremendously! I couldn't think well and my head aches like HELL, and I couldn't even read the storybook!

So bothered!
So bothered!!
So bothered!!!

I need to take a deep breath! I need to breathe well again! Looking forward to better days!

A world of selfishness in disguise!

2008-05-31T18:18:00.002+08:00

I find the world ridiculous in its own way!

I can't say that I am inactive or lazy, nor can I say that they are simply too selfish! The world just collapsed on me since I knew that I wasn't told that Tutorial class was on, Discussion was already done by the 2 of them, without including my name nor my participant. They just can't be bothered to include me! Sometimes I find and I reflect on myself, am I that isolated from them? I'm already trying to engage as much as you all does, but life doesn't work this way for me. I dare not say, work has brought me down into my DOWN-LIFE again like what I've experienced 2 or 3 years before. But, it seems like a fact to me now!

I was so demoralized now that I know that discussion with them doesn't includes me at all. I have a strong sensing that they think I just can't be bothered. But I don't! Who the hell would spend her own money (after working and working) just to make herself miserable by wasting the money? Definitely its not me ok? I felt like I'm crashed on the ground just like that for nothing. I felt sick, having no friends in the right mind to at least remind me of the work, or even blame me for not participating. Den, I'll realise that I didn't work hard enough, BUD, it doesn't work this way, they just ignored my absence and do it themselves! I feel sick, having to go through all these for nothing! I felt like I'm lost and lost forever...

Life's tough in this selfish world out there. I really miss Secondary school's life and the KINDNESS they gave me... NOT like here! I felt so much like giving up! Maybe this competitive world isn't suitable for me! Should I seek the better way out? I really ponders and ponders... Maybe I should work @ Mac and I can even see a better prospect over there! I miss everything that I owned previously but has never cherished it!

I hate life now!
Selene

2008-05-21T17:26:00.002+08:00

Hi!

Had a 'great' & great day yesterday, 20thMay2008Tuesday!

'Great' because I encountered something in life that I have never encountered before throughout these 18Years of shines!

I was penniless for once, I need to go for tuition at Woodlands and the bus doesn't let me in. I'm at Bukit Panjang at 7pm when tuition is supposed to start at 7pm! I was barred from taking bus and there's no use walking to Woodlands anyway (I doesn't know the way and the fact that I'll only reach there only the next morning was clear).
I tried to borrow money from my brother and he DOESNT EVEN KNOW HOW TO TRANSFER $$! OMGoodness, that was horrible! I called Dar at once and his reply stuck me down instantly: He's working and couldn't walk away at all when he's just less than 50steps away from the ATM Machine! My Goodness! He rather see me go hungry on the streets, have nobody to turn to, no means of going anywhere, than sacrifice his work just for less than 10minutes to help me!
I felt DAMN HELPLESS & TERRIBLE at that moment that death came into my mind!
(BUD Thank Goodness I didn't follow my mind)

Now that I realise the feel of being helpless, (I mean REAL HELPLESS!) I knew that I have to start cherishing life as it is now before I regretted it! I actually spur me on to working harder in studies rather than slacking; to build a better world in front of me, for the sake of my parents and I & definitely for the next generation!

Life is definitely tough without MONEY & FRIENDS & FAMILY that can help you when critical periods!

It doesn't really matters now that how I spent that few hours on the street yesterday BECOS it was really terrible! BUT, I supposed GOD doesn't want to end my life that early and has given me another chance, someone to be with me! HE, the mighty has sent his will and made someone to appear and extend his hands to help! I received help happily and it ended the misery and I went home, exhaused and drained of energy!

The day ended and this entry shall end now and I SHALL go for my DINNER! With Ah-Von!

--
Hugs,
Selene

2008-05-20T01:27:00.002+08:00

I'm back!

I'm supposed to rush my tutorials for tomorrow, but, it all turned out to be put aside AGAIN!

I was browsing through websites that I usually goes; emails, blogs, NPAL, MEL, and all when I viewed many websites and memories about today flashed back. And at this instance, I just had the feel to write about the happenings today!

I left home with Dar this morning at about 11am and headed to Woodlands as he starts work at 12noon, but, me at 2pm. So, I was early at Causeway, sitting in the crew room, doing up my project presentation (which I tried but sort of failed). I started wondering around until SHE came into the room and asked "Lan Yun, I heard from XXX that Manager XXX says that you complained to her that I forced you to do lobby selling?" My heart sank together with the swinging force of my mood! I yelled out (as in not LITERALLY but in me) and I felt so DAMN LOST!

How can they do that to me?

The truth is, I didn't complain, nor do I have any intention to COMPLAIN! I HATE THEM, but I told myself I have to check to the bottoms of this and made the truth be known. I felt so lost and betrayed when this happened. I never ever complain about you guys for forcing me to do lobby selling and I never ever give a big damn about that (except for that incident which is not really totally related). I knew that I'm always the one to do lobby selling and I don't deny that I felt rather unfair. But this never ever was kept to be an anger to verge on and something to complain to. I never ever thought of kicking up the fuss at all! It's not as if people died!!! OMGoodness, I felt so DEMORALIZING and BETRAYED! --> Does making these statements allows you to be happier and free-IER? I doubt so!!

SO, it goes and goes and I hated THEM!

Yesterday was a disaster as Dar and I quarreled almost every single event that occurs. We went to Michelle's chalet @ Changi but before that, he made me wait for him, I kicked up a fuss, we quarreled over this and that (all trivial matters) and now, I finally believe that the both of us are SHORT-TEMPERED!! HAHA!!

The chalet was rather a fun one as we played with NOTHING ELSE BUT VODKA!! This time was a real and tough one as everybody played HEAVILY! WOW! BUT COOL! I love that KINDA ATMOSPHERE!!

Left the chalet like at 2am plus with the ride give by Kok Ching in his van and went to eat McDonalds... All men's talks AGAIN! I was exhausted when I got home, and so did Dar... ... And we went to bed immediately, falling deep asleep!

"Wanna tell Dar: I don't mean to kick up FUSSES easily but you know me, I'm like that! And you should've known better?-> I love UUU"

"Wanna tell Von & Deniece: Miss u guys siax! Wanna meet up but I doubt all of us were like too busy right? Nevermind, we'll see and meet up and play crazily like before OKAY? --> Or am I e only one that play CRAZILY?... HAHA"

"Wanna tell Serene Mummy: Aiyo, you also very short tempered leh. Everytime work with you, you'll always scold people de! Don't always be unhappy OK? I don't like to work with Sad Mummy! SMILESSS & CHEERSSS!! I love working with you, so SYSTEMATIC!!! U ROCKS!!"

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Hugs,
Selene

I rocks!

2008-05-15T15:49:00.002+08:00

Hey, I bored!

I'm damn tired by everything else and YUPPIE! I feel like dying!

BUD, I knew I have to persevere and I knew that I could go to Dear if one day I couldn't stand it anymore.

Things in school wasn't getting any better... I felt drained at the amount of work I'm loaded with and the thing is, I doesn't have anything done up nicely YET! Friends' relationships were strained to the maximum that I couldn't stand it anymore already! Hence, the weakness which is my complain virus started today. I knew I have to stop it ASAP for nobody loves a friend that complains and YUP! as what Von says, I have to bear with it and just go by it! I hate school! I think work is better --> that leads me to the second thought of staying through in accountancy! TROUBLED MANSSSS!!!!

YTD was CATS project meeting & I realised that CATS group was better than ITB group... Although it all started with EMO-ness and AKWARD-ness!!

I dreaded the coming of lessons every monday and I love the coming of weekends!! I adore them! As I'll be working again! ROCKS MANSSS --> I feel warmth there!!

GTG people!

Muacks and Love,
Selene

Gumbles

2008-05-11T20:29:00.002+08:00

Hi all, Selene's back!!!

Hurray! I had a great time idling around these few days. School was slacked as compared to the same day last year! Although I was driven to tiredness due to the many jobs and events I took up, But I felt great having no such need to study LIKE HELL!!

However, the honeymoon period would be over soon and in less than 3 weeks' time, COMMON TEST would be arriving. Hence, I've quited the job @ telenarketing to keep myself free during weekdays in order to concentrate solely on my studies and ccas. However, tuition every saturday and sunday would still be on, but that would be worry-free.. =)

Talking about work again, I felt so demoralising having to work @ McCafe. I doesn't like the ways certain people work but I knew that's part of life and personality crushes are always around. However, I would really want to highlight some really horrible ones that I don't think I can stand it anymore! ---> I really hate those that think that working in McCafe is never important and were always playing OUT of the RULES!! They not only 'skive' (spelling should be right), they think that that's their own restaurants by drinking all the drinks left overs! At first I thought it was alright but the thing is, they drank in front of customers where customers are waiting for their orders! HELLO, that's absolutely INCORRECT right... CUStomers ARE VALUE CONSUMERS... IF U WANNA DRINK, THEN YOU JUST SHELVE IT ASIDE AND SERVE THE CUSTOMERS FIRST.... ONCE CROWD IS CLEARED, YOU CAN BRING YOUR DRINKS INTO THE KITCHEN TO DRINK!... Also, some people are just to TAKING FOR GRANTED... WASTE PRODUCTS are alright if you just drink it once in a while (cos technically speaking, it is WASTE) BUT those people just couldn't keep their minds right! They doesn't know that UNWASTE PRODUCT SHOULD NOT BE TREATED AS WASTE PRODUCTS! DESPITE SO MUCH WARNINGS!!! ---> IF all are like those people idling around, McCafe will burst!!! Hence, I get so fed up at times.... ALso, people treat LOBBY SELLING as QUEUE SELLING...!!! The main motive for LOBBY SELLING is to PROMOTE DRINKS TO THOSE THAT are sitting in the lobby, never order McCafe... IT's so damn pointless if you sell those drinks to people queuing up, with the 'already' intention to buy the drinks!! Those people that do that are either people that wanna gain glory, or just people that wanna GAIN the INCENTIVE!! ---> SO UNFAIR to those that really put an effort into doing lobby selling!! (HATES SIAX...)
BUD good things is that MUMMY noes tt and she will PUNISH THEM ONE DAY!!! HAHAHAA...

Ok, away from unhappy parts, Dar & I are 3Years old liaox!!! HURRAY!! He bought an Addidas watch that costs $98 (which I managed to find out the price AGAIN!!) and I bought him nothing... Our 3rd Yr Anni was a sad day as both of us were busy (or rather I am busy)... He got to celebrate his Bro's birthday on that day and I have tuition in the evening after school that day! SO, practically, celebration starts @ 9pm and it ends soon after a dinner @ a nearby coffeeshop near my tuition place! So demoralising but I believe its alright as long as we cherish those times spent together...I love him so much for his 'soft heart' as I always over-said him... HAHAHAA... He made me feel loved despite the many problems MONEY, SCHOOL, and my FAMILY gave me... Although sometimes, he contributes to some problems too but I reallt really think that Trust is so much important between the two of us... Time is like a great challenge to us, as these 3Years wasn't easy! (Part of the reason being we were 8Years apart and our thinkings were exactly different.) BUT one thing that kept as together till now should be the trusts we had in each other and the cherish we gave to one another!! He cherishes me for giving him a chance and giving him all the warmth he had never felt (I wonder if he felt this way), but anyway, It was cherishable for me as he made me really happy through my sad times and he is like the only one tt can stop me if I do anything shitty! Like spending too much $$ and such... HEEEE...

I love Dar Dar.........

Also to my sec sch frens, sorry that I couldn't join u guys on sat =)... I got to go for CCA.... Actually sunday I can but depends on u guys ok... Mayb join u guys again! Miss u all lots... U guys made my day! --> XMuacksX

Hugs,
Selene

About School... SIANSSSS...

2008-04-29T15:02:00.002+08:00

Currently, I'm having my Business Comms Workshop... ... ...
- NOTHING ELSE... BUT... SIANZZZZZ!!! -

It has been like almost a month since school started. There are so many GOOD & BAD things that happened throughout, everyday! I'm getting bored of POLY life but in some ways, I kind of think I'll die more in JC!! (OKAY, I know its contradicting...)

I've met so many friends in POLY but yet I have so many opinions about them. I knew it's part of life and nobody's perfect. BUT this blog is here for me to throw every bit of my unhappiness out! There is definitely nothing personal & for those who knows me, I'm too sensitive to things...
OKAY, I just don't like to work with people that are too OVERWHELMING with STUDIES; too HARDWORKING; and too OUT-TO-WIN. I have people in my class that act like this. Although I'll tell myself to just stick to them because I'll not study if I stick on to people that doesn't study! But I'm just to bothered by her when she talks about HOMEWORK, HOMEWORK, & HOMEWORK!
Another group of people are people that are too confident about themselves! They took every opportunity to show off and to let people know their powers! Its not that they aren't good BUT its just that I so afraid to lose out to everybody. HAIS, BUT there's a competition then, there will be motivation!

OKAY, and YUP, talking about studies, I wanna faint so much! I'm so fed-up by MICROECONS & STATISTIC... THERE's SO MUCH TO LEARN AnD I'M LIKE COULDN'T CATCH UP! But I think subjects in JC would be nowhere better YA?? HAIS... I hate to study... CAN WE JUST DO INFA, PPF, TAXTATION AND STUFFS... & not ECONS & STATS????
**FAINTSSSS**

HAIS... HAISS...

I'm so tired and at the thought of the need to still go for tuition later on made me wanna FAINT!...

Thurs working at McCafe... WHICH I LOVE IT!!!

ROCKS! LESSONS ENDED!!!!!

Hugs,
Selene

Bits & Pieces

2008-04-18T11:59:00.003+08:00

Hey People! This missing post is finally up! Woah, miss me?? haasss!!

Okay, i'm actually typing this in tutorial and ya, the lesson just made me felt sleepy.

...

My lesson ends and I'm still lyk UH-HUH~ STUCKED!!

...

I shall save it in drafts and continue during my next lecture. I think I wont delete this part, it shows that I did tried to blog; OKAY?

--To Von & Deniece, HAAASS I got blog but the tutor kept on asking us to do things that distrcted me... DOTSXX... BYE GIRLS.

______________________________________-to be continued-______________________________

Hey! That's last week's entry and yup! I'm here again to try to complete the blog entry!

Yup, what happened to me these few days was that BUSY BUSY & BUSY...

I shall talk about the celebrations and the birthday thingy for my Dear...

So, I've started school and I'm like so tired to talk about that.

On the first day of orientation, which was about 14 days ago, I went to Ngee Ann Poly (without knowing anybody at all). I'm in Batman Team and Accountancy of course! Obviously, none from my class went to Ngee Ann!!

However, I was glad when I saw En Ci running around on that particular day!! Glad Glad and Glad!!

Orientation on the first day was typical. No bonding in between and its quite bored lar! But I made 3 new friends that I really talk to alot! They are: Evon, XinYi, and Steffi!

Second day of orientation was better as it really bonded us and I talk to many many of my teammates like: Ezrynn, Sally, Amanda, Hwee Teng, and lots!! That's fun as we played the game of treasure hunting around the whole campus!!

And then the sad thing to say is that the third day, we are like going to separate and then get prepared for lessons the following week already...

Yup!... SHit.. Lesson over already!

BYEBYE.. HAHA...

Satisfactory Level? 6/10!!

2008-03-22T19:14:00.004+08:00

Backed home from a tiring but unstressful day!

Yesterday went for the first tuition for a girl, my friend's cousin. She was a really hardworking and obedient girl, I must say! Not talking about her already-GREAT results (especially for maths - which was a creditable 98/100!), she was really UNproud and Hardworking!

Why would I say that?
That's becos:

I gave her 3 different handwork to do (1 whole set of ENG CA1, 1 whole set of MATHS CA1, a story-book to read and search for the meaning from it.) AND I told her that she can have the whole week to do her MATHS CA1 and STORY-BOOK but I want her ENG CA1 by the next day, which is TODAE!

I went to her house this morning for the 2nd lesson and was so surprised that SHE HAS FINISHED ALL THE HOMEWORK (including the 2 that are due next week)!!!!!!

Really efforts placed at her side! I hope to groom her to a top student and I'm not saying it for FUN bud I'll really do that!!!

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After tuition today, I went to Bee's house to help them with the internet connection and so on... Chatted with Bee and I was awake again! I should focus 100% on studies now and not follow steps some of my friends had done! I should cherish this last chance God gave me to study and I'm gonna finish my whole course of studies before I think about something like that! I should do that, YES! YES!.

Sorry Dar, I know you might feel sad or disappointed upon hearing this but I knew you would understand this. My main ultimate in life is to have a family, my own one, BUD I wanna have a beautiful house, some extra cash, a car, and MOST IMPORTANTLY, my passion and an enjoyable lifestyle too! I don't wanna destroy this beautiful dream that I am having now with any impulse action! I wanna study and graduate with Degree/ACCA, no matter how long it will take me and no matter how tough it will be. I knew you would understand but just that I'm abit shaken before talking to Bee just now. Now that I've waken up totally, I knew I have to be sensible and sensitive to reality! -->MUACKS!

& Ya, YTD I let him find out one of the surprises I am giving him next week on his BDAE -->WHICH I am disappointed!

NOPROBLEM! AS LONG AS U'RE HAPPIE CAN LE!!

OH YA! Just now went to Causeway and guess what? I bought a pair of heels from Charles and Keith (not the one I longed for actually because I still couldn't find); and then I bought a 'Jacket' dunnoe what's the exact name but its just like a top cover that is above the waist (to cover the shoulder and top of the arms) TOTAL is $42plus =)

OKOK! I'm like so tired now and I'm gonna go MAKAN my DINNER--- YUM YUM!!

TML going SAKAE wif VON & then I wanna buy Dar Dar some clothes and shorts @ PS!!

--
Hugggs,
Selene

Talking about Autumn In my Heart, I felt sad for EnXi

2008-03-20T16:51:00.003+08:00

Recently bought Autumn In My Heart DVD which I've longed for since long ago. AND, I was still in the midst of finishing it for the "don't know how many times".

I love the show since the very first time I've watched it on the TV. I remembered my mum and I watching it and WE were CRYING in the living room. The show never fails to make me cry, no matter how many times I've watched it and even if I know what will the actor say the next sentence, I'll still cry! Its really a very bitter-sweet story, I must admit.

EnXi was really very pathetic and pitiful in the story. However, when I watch the sweet parts at the start, starring her & JunXi (her brother) , I loved it! They were brother & sister (not 2 of the same gender), and yet, so close to one another. The kind of closeness and love in them was so unimaginable if you've never watch this show! They know one another from inside out and they never fails to know what the other was thinking & feeling. That is what made me cry after I watch the part where they were separated because of some miserable happenings!

It's really a coincidence for them (XinAi & EnXi) to falls in the same class & school. Although I admit that its the story plot that made it coincident but let's just forget that this is not a plot in the story, its just a real-life story, ok?
XinAi was of course a girl that made me so hateful towards her! She sucks*, I must say. (Though i knew I couldn't blame on her as that is due to her growing-up environment) How can she snatch EnXi's family from her all out a sudden and hate EnXi for that when it's not EnXi's fault. I couldn't imagine myself being identified as an 'IMPOSTER' in the family after 14years of good lifestyle, how can EnXi do so. Moreover, she's so close to her family members, especially her brother. Its so cruel to make her think that her FAMILY couldn't or doesn't want her anymore! & the most hateful thing is that, they leave her alone in the country while they leave for America!
Not to mention practical things (like $$ and Education opportunities), emotionally hurt is already a very big blow to a 14-year-old girl like EnXi. How can her parents leave her there?

However, this kind of people are worthy of my praise! Despite having to switch from a RICH status to a very POOR status, she did not turn bad, like XinAi. Her gentle and kind attitude/character made her adorable and attractive (to me a well). I just love her attitude and if this kind of attitude exists in real life, I would love to own it!

Their love story was a daring and loving one, as I doesn't have this kind of feeling before. I think that's why it's called "lan se shen si lian"... I think I'll only experience it if me and Dar are being forced apart and we faced the reality of death, WHICH I DOESN"T WANT A TASTE OF IT AT ALL!!!

& the most interesting part was that TaiXi, a flirty guy, actually changed for EnXi! And his selfless love was indeed great and touching! If a guy does this to me, I'll hug him right away and get together with him!! HAHA!! PROVIDED I'm SINGLE & AVAILABLE!!

The previous times I watched this show, I've never cried when it show the part of EnXi suffering in cancer. BUD this time, I cried and it was a miserable cry though! I think that was probably because till now, I've seen 2 of my loved ones contracting cancer and one, sadly, had passed away! It's really a nightmare to them as it's an 'UN-SAIDable' pain that I myself couldn't describe!

I yearn to go home right away as I wanna finish the show! & I'm left with 1 more disc which is 4Hrs or so! I miss the show! -->HAHA (And I'm thinking of watching again before school starts!)

So, here I was, slacking again!

Yesterday Dar came and picked me off from work and we went to eat LATE LATE LATE dinner @ KFC!
Upon reaching home and changing out, I couldn't stand it and went up on bed right away. Dar was watching his 11 o'Clock news (as usual) and I was so tired that I fell asleep in his arms (without me knowing) and then, when I woke up halfway through, he has switched off the TV and was preparing to sleep too. He's so caring towards me YTD and ya, I enjoyed it! & I love him!

He still woke up @ 5plus, telling me that he couldn't sleep. I wanted to accompany him to stay awake but he ask me to sleep. So, the tired me went back to my dreamland while he surfed net. The sleep was interrupted when I heard songs from my blog! I woke up and told him 'I love you' and went back to sleep! Then he still woke me up tiredlessly this morning and LYING ME that it was 9AM when its just like 8AM!! Haha~ BUD his lie made me wake up!
We went for breakfast before he sent me to work and go visit his Dad!

& on the way to work, I said something bout his Mum & he get angry with me right away! So damn fierce that I dare not speak up after that! I love Dar Dar!!

So, that's all I think and ya! I've not done alot of things yet!! SHITTTTTT!!!

BTW, tml is Good Friday, meaning off day! Got to go Woodlands to teach the girl either in the morning or afternoon! Need to call her mum later -.-"

HAHAAHAHA~~ & my new gadgets nice??

My typing speed was damn slow!! I'm so disappointed: 1st try 46, 2nd try 46, 3rd try 49, 4th try 42, 5th try 46!! Average= 45.8!! (Round off 46!!)

HAHAHAHAA~~

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Huggs,
Selene

A big 'MISS YOU' from the bottom of my heart - NOT physically BUD EMOTIONALLY

2008-03-19T15:51:00.003+08:00

I'm slacking AGAIN!!

Went Dinner while waiting for MARIA to knock off @ Lucky Plaza's MCDS... MARIA is afriad of COCKROACHES!! haha!! then she accompanied me to NGEE ANN CITY in search of NB shoes that I longed for. Found none and then we went back after accompanying her to Jollibean @ CK Tang. On the way, @ the underground passageway, PAUL called and I mocked at them for being so loving... HAHA... MADE a FUSS out of it (As what my character is) -->HAHA
We were SQUEEZED in the TRAIN!! HAHA and Its so miserable!!
Thanks maria!!

I had a tiff with Dar in the early morning @ 3.30am over the phone!
I SMSed him @ 12am++ to let him know that I'm watching DVD and to hint him that I'm waiting for his calls & replies (as usual). But, things doesn't turn out the right way. I stopped the show @ 3.30am and was thinking: "So tired, he's still working... Wonder if he's still alright?" So, I called him to realise that the background was so silent.

"I'm @ home," he said.

& I teared... ...

Why does it always have to be ME that takes the initiative to call him. & I'm angry @ that moment because I wanted to wait for him to reply me or say GOODNITE and yet the next day, I've got to wake up @ 7am!! & YET he still .... .... DOTX!!
Why don't you have the feeling to call me everytime? Don't you think of me? Just for a split second? On your way home on the cab or watever also cannot??
I was devastated and, as usual, we were so silent on the phone that we couldn't stand it anymore. I only know that my tears were flowing like as if its RIVERWATER..
Of course, the volcano finally exploded and this long-term accumulation finally exploded!! I told him what I feels -.-"

I felt so relieved!! I'm not blaming him, just was very angry because he doesn't put in efforts to care for me. I felt so much like drowning but yet I know he's tired, he's tired... BUD I doesn't want him to think that I don't mind him treating me that way.
SERIOUSLY,
I missed him!! Even for the split second he's not there, I miss him!!
& soon, we calmed down and I went to sleep after bathing and everything... .. So TIRED!!

So, expectedly, I woke up @ 8.26am when I was supposed to be @ Ngee Ann Poly @ 8.30am... So, bo bianz, TAKE CAB cos I got to work @ 9.30am in SOMERSET... ... =( $20 gone!!
Reached there and installed the softwares... & I found out that they provide FREE NORTON software which i just bought with a sharing of $60 each with my BROTHER... SIANX!!!
They installed Microsoft 2007 into my lappy and a don't know what AGENT thingy... Then, went back!!

Met a kind man on the way down, finding the way out (I think should be one of the lecturers)... Reached the lobby and hengsss siaxxxx GOT people drop down from CAB!! HAHA!! So took and $20 gone again... Reached office like 10.37am and realised: "The new girl's still not here!!"

So I went to my normal routine and here I am, slacking again!!

Dar was supposed to go K @ JB with his CREWS but I disallowed him to go... ITS RAINING and I'm just worried bout the thing in there... I'm just worried, though I know I'm very selfish... LUCKILY Dar says that he also very tired so never go. BUD I got a feeling he's hating me (Is he), he sound so fierce and watever that made me so scared!

Haix... Sometimes I really wonder:

"Why am I born so sensitive and emotional? Why does I get jealous or get upset easily for a small little thing? YET, why am I so 'keep-everything-to-myself' kind of character? If I have told him the first time I had that feeling, things like this wouldn't have happened! Why am I born to suffer yet with this kind of slacking and sucky attitude? If I was to be born to suffer, WHY can't I have a positive attitude instead of this kind of slacking attitude I had now."

Haix, my second or third -Haix-.... ...

I really miss Dar so much. Just around one week from your birthday; I doesn't want to make you sad. BUD I just couldn't control my temper. I so tired that I really need a break! BUT I need $$ too!! I miss school!! School is always something that make me occupied and busy that I have to time to worry and think so much!

Why can't I just cherish school last time??

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Hugs,
Selene

'Inspirations?' or 'Decision?' -> I'm unsure!

2008-03-17T13:10:00.002+08:00

So long since I've last updated! (As emphasised by Von~)

Just went out for a long-lost weekend's break after so long of WORKINGS. Almost spend $150 for the whole weekend (SAT & SUN only). I felt so regreted now that my efforts had been wasted!

I managed to realise & decide on my next path to move on with the sacrifice of spending & spending! I was supposed to meet Deniece & Von @ JE Entertainment on Sat, 1.30pm BUD (as usual) I'm late; not becos I overslept BUD I was too obsessed with Autumn in my Heart that I finally managed to buy it!!

I only roller-bladed ONCE during the 'lesson' WeiKah gave us @ ECP 2 Yrs back ;)... So, practically, I went into the ice-skating field with fearSS (I mean really FEARS as ITS DAMN SLIPPERY & I CAN"T control my MOVEMENTS!!)

I changed my skater as the blade was giving problem. (& the next pair pose the same problem to me, which we thought is ME THAT made the BLADE SPOIL) ... LOL!~~

--So, I decided that I should not join ICE SKATING in NP CCA Club!!--

@ first was very very slow 'SKATING' (equals to walking on the ice actually) BUD at the later part was better as I could skate independently but I wanna be like those skillful skaters!! SO BEAUTIFUL~ the image of them skating fast and gracefully!!

Then, BUGIS was our next stop and Yar~ WE TOOK TRAIN!! --(DUH!) went makan @ PASTAMANIA as the 3 of us like 'BUAY TAHAN liaox'!! and after MAKAN was KINOKUNIYA as Deniece wanna buy her 'TANG Yu ZHE' & Von & I was browsing thru' the language guides section & I thought of finding French guides to read and see if I like it before I sign up for the foreign language course!!

&

I hate FRENCH & SPAIN & all the EUROPEAN LANGUAGES!! --> THEY all are too tough and weird if I intend to learn them...

SO

I switch to KOREAN and was comparing JAPANESE too!! KOREAN looks tough and unsuitable for me, so I tried pronouncing some of the JAPANESE basic PHRASES.. WHICH made me sound nice!! HAHA!! & somemore, VOn gonna take up JAPANESE too, so we can study together!! GREAT!!

HAHA! FOUND another decision to make =)

THEN HOME SWEET HOME as DENIECE can't stay out late for K...

WE DECIDED to sing K on Sunday instead!!

---SUNDAYEEEEE--

Went to the Bugis K (TopOne) and the service was fabulous... the whole thingy is 7-th storey-high and.... THERE:S LIFT!!!

The room was far beyond what we expect!! BIG enough, and there is even disco lights & projectors so on... NICE PLACE!! FREE FLOW of DRINKS!! with CHEAP RATES of $20 for 8hrs on weekends!! COOL!! I'll throw away KBox & Partyworld liaox!!

Went makan @ KFC after choosing the surprise for DAr Dar... HAHA!! NOT GONNA LIST out here!! ITS Ex... but within my budget!! SO... went to Toa Payoh after that (after saying goodbye to the girls!!)

SAW a heels that I like but was $30.50 after discount... So OUT of my BUDGET!! So, went to NTUC and sign up for OCBC Visa Debit Card!! (As I wanna have another card to separate expenses & school related fees) its fast; I just have to give them my IC to photocopy, then fill up my name appearing on card and my mobile number and the card will be sent to me 2weeks later!! ---BAGUS!!!
Then, went popular to browse and see what are possible things I need for school and then set a budget! BOUGHT som miscellenous stuffs and went to search for ear stucks (which I just need it to make me hole stay) and then went to buy the shirt I longed to own (JUST $10 and simple design) OOH yah! Bought a handbag that looked fashion (maybe?) @ $10... HEES... then WENT HOME and watch my AUTUMN in my HEART!!

the new girl never come today!! So, I'm FREE!!!

GTG makan my lunch downstairs!! and then come back to settle things le!! BYEBYE!!

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Hugs,
Selene

So Slack, YET, So Tired!

2008-03-12T00:38:00.003+08:00

At 11pm, I told myself - "Yun, you can only log on to the internet to blog, that's all" & so I went into the net.

At 12.40am sharp, as I am typing this, I realise, OH SHIT!! I got to sleep now; if not I'll sure not be able to wake up... ...

Recently I'm so tired, yet I did nothing!!

On Friday was AXA's D&D and Albert gave me an honourable invitation to go for the dinner and I went. I wore the dress I bought for my cousin's wedding with the super duper high heels & a new brown shawl!! Saw one of the other PA in Meritus Lobby upon reaching & we went up; realising that nobody else has arrived yet!! I was very very early!! So we went for the cocktail and chatted with that girl. THEN, an advisor from another agency came over to talk to us, telling us how 'great' the cocktail was and so on!! THEN, she even re-do my shawl by tying knot & watever (which I felt grateful but DUH!) She was kind-hearted though, but I find her a little too weird! She even offered to teach me CHACHA dance!! In the middle of the ball-room!! HAHA!! Of course I declined (thnk God for that siax)
SO, dinner was rather great except for the long, everlasting prize presentation that took up so long. I was asked to sit with Adrian's team which is a table away from where I was sitting initially. & the partners at the table made me feel uneasy, of course, especially a guy was sitting beside me when I doesn't really know him much and we have no common topics at all. As usual, we chatted about usual stuffs like "How's studies" "How's ur goal towards life" & all those 'political' issues... HAHA!! BUD at least he has the basis of a gentleman, like taking food for me; and taking e initiative to talk and so on... ... He even showed me the photo of his gf and ask me 'cute or not' WAH PIANGS, that guy must have loved his gf alot!! MOREover, they have been together for 7Years!! --> I hope so much that Dar can say that to others next time and so can I ;)
& during the dinner, I am furthur confirmed that I'm addicted to CHINESE TEA!! Becos Beer and Pepsi can't tempt me out of the Chinese Tea!! Which I felt happy but WEIRD!!! HAHA
After dinner, I was so glad that Bel & Albert offered to send me home from meritus mandarin which meant that I saved on cab fare because it was 12plus, nearing 1 by then... & they were kind enough to even check if I've reached home already or not!! So glad to have them around ;)

& I slept at 4plus am that night!! and I woke up reluctantly at 12.30pm e next day becos i got to meet Von & Deniece & gang at 1pm sharp!!

We went to sentosa and WOW!! Fun bud ya lo, at first was rather sianx but after that was fun and cool... I love LUGE!! it was fun and I agree with Von, it could have been a longer ride... BUD bo bians... Haix/!! Then in the evening when we left sentosa, we went to vivo to have our dinner... After many many times of deciding, we chose to take-away BK and go to the outside place to eat (dont wat its called) & guess what?? I saw Shelly (e ger from MS Direct!!) and I tink she's bickering wif a guy which I think is her BF bahs... She of course remembered me!! and ya lo, coincidence as I saw Ming Zheng @ sentosa too ;)
den we went to Arcade & when I'm goin home, I went to Candy Empire to buy Chocolates for Dar; the new Calbury Eden Choco & Belgium love choco!!

SLACKED on Sundae & Mondae... Went back to work on Tuesday and was so rushy as there's hell lots of stuffs to do!! I'm dying!! & I still got to rush out tml's one!! SIANX!!

Kays Kays, got to sleep if not I've got to take CABBY again!! SLEEP!!

P/S: My HP bills came & it was $82.xx which was a very great success for me... Got to keep it up and maintain!! Keep track of my spendage!!

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Nitex,
Selene

Memories 'RecaPing'

2008-03-04T10:15:00.002+08:00

Hello! --> I'm so tired!!

Ya, very long since I last blogged. Had been very lazy at the sight of computer! Also that my mind has been preoccupied by the planning of the surprise I'm gonna give Dar on his coming birthday this Month-end. I dreaded the thought of it as it is quite complicated; BUT no choice, he's my Dar. I knew he will read the blog sooner or later; so, I will never post up what's going to happen. BUT the only thing is that the estimated cost is more than 2-times of my budget!!
(Damn, my hair gone... Cannot rebond le lar!!)
BUT bo bians... He's my Dar, I just wanna give him the best birthday this year:X
(Dar, don't always say I bully you hor! My brain juice's gone thinking of all these. My pocket's dried because of you le! So cannot say I bully you le hor! I promise you this will be a sweet birthday for the both of us, though it's just simple -> Back to basic mah ;) )

Ya lo, very tired of everything BUT oh Yar. Very great gratitude to Deniece & Yvonne for the great treat on Sat. Couldn't find a time to really blog on this yet ;)

They treated me to Jack's Place (Ya, I know I say before) BUT whoa! Damn expensive lar! It cost $114.xx for the three of us and they have to pay my share which ended up paying more than $50 each!! THanks girls and I'll always remember the treat!! The food is nice though; STEAK siax!! First time I eat steak in a restaurant... Normally only @ Western food stalls then I will order STEAK de! HAHA! THanks girls!! Really grateful for that!!

You girls are better than my 2 god-sis.. ;( Doesn't even say "Happy Birthday" to me;(
Never mind bah, over le and ya lo!! They shouldn't expect me to treat them as nice le --> Cos they share my that I'm not remembered/important or I'm not worthty of their wishes! They are prob just to selfish to open their mouth to say "Happy Birthday"
The thing is; TIME doesn't matters, ITs the PERSON that countS... Thanks Deniece & Yvonne again!!

Also must thanks YuLin (Maria) for saying that she will buy something special for me from Japan; OopS issit? I couldn't remember! BUT the thing is, she's a great friend!! At least she still got SMS late at night on the 26th or 12midnight on 27th to say "Happy Birthday" ... I'm very touched by that though at that moment I'm having my lovely night with my Dar, but THANKS Maria... Hope you doesn't mind all my "suans" throughout... It's only for the sake of fun!! & not forgetting my 10pointers BUDD, YinQing!! HAHA!! She also got SMS me oh ;) Thanks Thanks!!

Last but never the least!! AMANDA.. Thank you for the mushroom cushion! I've been hugging it since that day I've gotten it!! Thanks girl for the wonderful present!! & Thanks for chilling out with me on Sat night!! That was really drunk when we both were DRUNK--> I tink I'm more drunk then you before supper!! HAHA... Remember you taking snapshots and videos of me throughout as we waited for the taxi!! HAHA... Then remembers me like "SIaox" on the street... HAHA~ WAS fun esp when we kept on losing in the finger guessing, in the end we DRANK the most!! HAHA!! VERY VERY FUN!!
-->Looking forward to going clubbing with you when your birthday arrives!!

OK. Today can't blog much... Got to go back to serious work as I've lots of undone things to do!!

Oh Yar, Thanks to Serene, my cousin my M'sia & her family!! Thanks for the birthday card!! It's so thoughtful of you sending a BIRTHDAY card from Perlis to me!! I Love You!! --> Hee... Hope to see you this Sunday but prob I couldn't make it ;) Will let you know again :D

& I got another nephew again on the 2nd March SUnday 8.30pm (I think) ... EnRU's brother is born!! Haven't yet seen the photo but my mum & I was thinking of goin into JB to see them. Maybe I'll wait for my aunt come back from Bangkok? Then the three of us maybe my cousin can go in with us to JB!! :x

Hee... GTG!! TC ppl... & Von, today mayb can't comment your blog bah!! Tons of things to do!!

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Hugs,
Selene

Back To Basics

2008-02-29T22:47:00.003+08:00

Hey People, I'm back!!

Practically, this trip to 'somewhere' is nothing but just SWEET and LOVING!!
--> SOle crediTs: Dar Dar...

Our theme Back to Basics set off for the start of the trip, by giving me a 'surprise'... I discovered the surprise way before he made the action (just because I'm too clever ;))... Haha!! --> later den the 'surprise' will be told...

So, on my BDae eve, we decided on a short & simple dinner before heading to my house and sleep as I'll only finishes work @ 6pm & he has to do some paperworks @ e hospital for his Dad... & then, something cropped up!! His mum made him have dinner with her & den send her back home as he forgot his camera & chargers too... So I waited for him for 2Hrs plus until 9pm++ =(
I was not angry because he told me beforehand tt something might crop up... Just quite disappointed and then gastric pain somemore... =( then when he came, I was in great pain & no appetite, so short & simple dinner was cancelled...

OK, but later on, he doted on me & e next dae, I went to work for half a day... I was supposed to submit summary by that day, so I rushed... DEN my boss & collegues bought a cake & celebrated with me =) So happy!! --> A cake & card from the organisation (Albert/Bel/Adrian/Joanna/Bernicia/Shirley/Dennis), A special card from Joanna!!, An elegant gift set from Albert & Bel (Parkers brand pen & keychain)... So touched by each & everyone... So touched!! ... Thanks all...

More to come... ...

I was supposed to go off @ 1pm as I am meeting Dar @ 1pm as he went to visit his dad & feed him lunch first... BUT it all get cropped up, its my fault this time... I got way too many things to settle that I only left at 1.45pm & Dar waited for me since 1pm... Sorry Dar & Thanks Dar!! Cause he wasn't angry!!

So, we didn't get our lunch & den we there directly... WHERE?? As my mum has guessed; HOTEL lar... CHEAP but nice one...
(Don't get it wrong, we just need some personal time without anybody bothering us... Just a world of our own...)
That was Hotel81 Bugis and that was the 'surprise' I mentioned... ;)
Previously we wanted to have the room witth courtyard where it's a personal balcony with suntanning facilities & wetting facilities (star gazing too)... BUT the room runs out and sadly, we have no choice but to take the normal room =(
BUD when we get there, the person told us there is one extra room left!! So happie!! So, happily, we took it up and den, we were even offered member rates!!
After checking in, we looked at the small space that belongs to us and smiled!! That was great, though small!!

Then we indulge in our program by hugging each other & sharing our happiness with one another den Dar told me "Really no more surprise le lei, only got this room lei" & that idiot kept on repeating & repeating (since 26th evening @ my hse he has been saying it)... So finally, I got fed up and I threw my temper!!! I ignored him by lying flat down on the bed facing down while he continued to anger me by saying a few more times!!! DAMN it lor... I was damn angry lar... I my tears nearly rolled down... Then he says "Really don't have lar" & he went to boil water, den took out NEWSPAPERS to read!!! Wao, I'm so angry and then when he finally realised, I was so disappointed and angry liaox... He den kept on irritating me "Turn back lar Turn back lar..." Fed up and I turn and stared @ him... Den he push me to the other side of the bed and my head was hit by something hard lar... I looked up and den @ that moment I got nothing to say liaox!!!

Mixture of ANGER+SADNESS+DISAPPOINTMENT+SHOCKNESS+SURPRISE+HAPPINESS+SWEETNESS...
Haha!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dar Dar bought me Tianpo Jewellery's Necklace!!! & The Power of Love CD... Muacks Dar...

To my sweetheart (as what I promise him),
"I really cherish all that that you've done for me!! Thank You Dar for all the love and tenderness U've given me!! I'll never forget that moment when U trick me to give me the surprise.. It's indeed a very good and wise surprise u've thought of & twisted in!! You'll always be in my heart and guess what? I am yours liaox, HOW?? Can $1 le issit?? HAHA? Dar, what I wanna tell u is that, you gave me the sweetest birthday nobody else has ever given to me although its just in Singapore & its just a night, but THat night was special!! I love uu"

Then after which, we bathe and then headed down for Lunch cum Dinner!! We went to Tian Tian Steamboat and YUm YUm!! So nice!! and then we were damn full after that!!

Den we went to stroll down the streets and den saw a new Karaoke place .. 8Hrs for $15 on weekdays with FREE FLOW OF DRINKS... haha... Then we went to Cheers to buy wine!! I bought Vodka 4 Flavours!! So happy then we went around and saw very cute CONDOM packaging!! (Not for us but for his friends' birthday present!!)

When we got back, we drank the vodka in the courtyard with the Yes933 from the television in the room!! So romantic as we sat gazing up in the sky... Then we play scissors paper stone and I always lose... So I drank alot, but I'm not drunk again!! Hee... After that, we were so tired that we went to sleep...

Such a deep sleep that we woke up automatically at 10am sharp the next day, had a quick breakfast with Oreo & Milo (me), Kopi (Dar)... Then go wash up pack up... Let Dar drink his medicine den we check out le... So tired... Actually we went to eat QQ Noodles, HDB Hub to ask something, McDonalds to use laptop,Francis house to learn bout PSP,BPP to look for Miho,Dinner+Supper @ my hse there den home sweet home... Bud now, I'm too lazy to elaborate ;)

Gotta go!! Haha...

TML going K with Deniece nu-er, Von lao-gong, Ligeng & LeeYee...
den going to makan Jack's Place with them
Going St James Power to celebrate Miho's BDae
Going Eski Bar to celebrate my results & Poon's results
Going Lau Pa Sat to Makan supper den home sweet home!!
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Packed ya? Den Sunday going K again to celebrate Alvin & Shawn's BDae... (Whoa!! Money!!)
Thinking of visiting Dar's dad before going to K on Sunday but not confirm yet ;)
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KEKE--

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Hugs,
Selene